One Thousand Gifts

I am about 1/2 way through a book that I am enjoying, “One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are” .  The author initiates the exercise of naming blessings God brings to her each day.  God uses thankfulness in the midst of difficulty to transform her. Here is the author’s website if you are interested: http://www.aholyexperience.com/   I am listening to the lovely music on that site as I write this.  May God do the same radical heart surgery on me, using whatever tools He deems best including teaching me gratefulness in the midst of cancer and pain.
  
A friend emailed me these direct quotes from the book: 
when I realize that it is not God who is in my debt but I who am in His great debt, then doesn’t all become a gift?
-here dies another day during which I have had eyes, ears, hands and the great world around me; and with tomorrow begins another.  Why am I allowed two days?  Why lavished with 3? A whole string of grace days?
 

-the Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord Job 1:21

-it’s just that the eyes are bad – my perspective.

-only because I was looking.  Because that list of one thousand gifts has me always looking for one more- to behold one more moment pregnant with wonder

-little nails and a steady hammer rebuild a life – eucharisteo precedes a miracle (and He took the bread and gave “thanks”… Luke 22:19. Eucharisteo. Root word charis meaning grace. Jesus took the bread and saw it as grace and gave thanks. He knew it to be a gift. Greek derivative chara meaning joy. Deep chara joy is only found at the table of the euCHARisteo – the table of thanksgiving.)

-Jesus enduring the cross for the joy set before Him

-His secret purpose framed from the very beginning is to bring us to our full glory 1Cor 2:7 NEB. He means to heal our soul holes to return us to our full glory before the fall.

– maybe it’s accepting there are things I don’t understand, but He does.

– God is in the details; God is in the moment.  God is in all that blurs by in life – even hurts in life. By naming the things we are thankful for we are recognizing God in that moment.  The moments will add up.

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I think I will start naming some of my “One Thousand PLUS gifts” in this thread Another friend shared yesterday that she keeps a notebook out for her whole family to jot down blessings,  Maybe our family will do that too–I like that idea!
 
Here goes the start of my list:
 
1. Thank you Lord for a RIGHT arm that does not have an  “invisible tourniquet/inflated BP cuff” sensation on it 🙂  OH, the joy and blessing of having one arm that does not constantly hurt!  Two painful arms would be much harder for me than one.  Thank you Father for BOTH my left and right arm.  Some people don’t have any arms.   The two are blessings and gifts from You to me.
2. Clean sheets on my bed
3. My husband’s loving arms to hold me close
4.  Fresh starts available to me from God 24/7/365
5. Beautiful sunsets and rises 
Have Thine Own Way, Lord!
God’s beloved bald-headed Paula
(Can you pray that God will give me grace for the chemo induced sores, (“Mucositis” is it’s official name)?  They are thankfully clearing up on my scalp right now.  They are most irritating and uncomfortable to me when they pop out in my mouth and enlarge blood vessels normally not seen, creep down my throat, inside my nose, and in my ears–soooo, thanls Lord, for the blessing that they are mostly just on my scalp right now and are healing up) Don’t forget to count that simple blessing, friends if you don’t have any sores bugging you :).  There are so many gifts from our loving Heavenly Father that we take for granted.
*** See comments below in this blog entry: I will be adding to my “1000 gifts” list on a continuing basis down there***
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Have Thine Own Way, Lord” is a Christian hymn with lyrics by Adelaide A. Pollard and music by George C. Stebbins was first published in 1907, in the “Northfield Hymnal with Alexander’s Supplement”. Later that year, it also appeared in two other popular hymnals, Ira Sankey’s “Hallowed Hymns New and Old” and Sankey and Clement’s “Best Endeavor Hymns”.

 
 
Background For the Hymn:
 In 1902, Adelaide A. Pollard, a Bible teacher and hymn writer, was hoping to go to Africa as a missionary but found herself unable to raise the needed funds to make the journey. Greatly discouraged, she attended a prayer service one evening and as she sat there, she overheard an elderly woman say “It really doesn’t matter what you do with us, Lord, just have your own way with our lives.” The elderly woman inspired Pollard and she contemplated the story of the potter from Jeremiah 18:3 and, upon her return home that evening, wrote all four stanzas before retiring for the night.

Five years later George Stebbins wrote a tune titled “Adelaide” to accompany the text.

 Lyrics

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
      Thou art the Potter, I am the clay.
Mold me and make me after Thy will,
     While I am waiting, yielded and still.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
     Search me and try me, Master, today!
Whiter than snow, Lord, wash me just now,
     As in Thy presence humbly I bow.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
     Wounded and weary, help me, I pray!
Power, all power, surely is Thine!
     Touch me and heal me, Savior divine.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
     Hold o’er my being absolute sway!
Fill with Thy Spirit ’till all shall see
     Christ only, always, living in me.

Have Thine Own Way, Lord

 

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154 Responses to One Thousand Gifts

  1. Denise Makielski says:

    Dear Paula, Keeping you close to my heart and in prayer all the time. You are so blessed to have a comforting husband. Many men don’t do that well. Miss you and love you very much! Denise

  2. Nancy Louise Fraley says:

    God bless your dear heart, Paula.
    You continue to praise and uplift the Name of the Lord!!!

    Love,

    Nancy Louise

  3. Sophie says:

    Hi Paula,
    I have been reading your posts but have not had much time to reply. I waned to share today that what you wrote very much ministered to me.
    I had a very busy day yesterday. Today my energy level is low, and pain level high. My body needed rest today, my mind thought I should be able to keep going. What you share here speaks of reality, not the way I would like thongs to be. I do have MUCH to be thankful for. Thank-you for reminding me of this fact.

  4. Paula says:

    6. Picnic in the park yesterday with my Hannah Banana, Theresa, and Nicole
    7. A pokadotted umbrella to sheild me from sun or rain
    8. Cooling breezes from the lake with gators peering up from other side of sea wall
    9. The anticipation and fun of a lunch date with my wonderful husband today at Olive Garden
    10. Oh, the happy warmth in my heart when I see my children cheerfully pitching in without being asked and without complaint
    11.Precious relatives and friends reaching out to me
    12. A sparkling clean bathtub
    13. Bites of lucsious sweet fruit to savor : cantaloupe, watermelon, red and green grapes, blackberries, blueberries, nectarine, peach–my kind of feast!
    14. The release of tears
    15. Nicholas passing his AP Exam and getting an A in his dual enrollment summer school class at Seminole State College–hooray!
    16. Nicholas’ 3 weeks in Arizona: new adventures for him and watching him grow and mature and confidently navigate a busy airport alone
    17. Denise emailing me the “Under His Wings” photo
    18. The pleasure of going through Ryan and Sarah’s wedding pictures
    19. Kisses
    20 Hugs
    21. Snuggles
    22. Massages
    25. Entertaining antics of gerbils

    • Paula says:

      26. Nibbling a fresh, crisp pickling cuke right off the vine in my garden-yummers!
      27. Stamina to walk a mile and a half at a moderate pace today
      28. The Lord arranging for Sharon to be exercising on the River Walk the same time as me so we could walk and pray together: The Lord must have had an angel wake her up later than usual 🙂
      29. An encouraging call from my dear mother in law last night

      • Denise Makielski says:

        It’s such a blessing to me to read ALL your blessings……
        I’m extra happy to hear that you could walk 1.5 miles. I can’t do that right now. Also a very special blessing to get those massages. My dh is not good at those but gives good foot rubs, love those too!!

        Through my illness I’ve enjoyed the blessing of staying at my daughter’s house during the day so I’m not alone while dh is at work. The 4 grand kids are loving me being there. They give me so much love and fun all day. We must have played Uno 20 times today and read about 20 books. What a blessing it is to have them in my life.

  5. Paula says:

    30. A fabulous waitress on our date at the restaurant
    31. Cheery bouquets from our garden to give away and keep
    32. Air conditioning that works well
    33. Julie’s new baby
    34. Letting go of grudges
    35. Ladybugs that find their way into our home
    36. Holding hands with my husband
    37. A better night’s sleep last night

  6. Paula says:

    38: A special Mother/Daughter time with Hannah: buying her an ice cream cone then snuggling soft puppies
    39: The satisfaction of decluttering and letting go of “stuff”
    40. The freedom of forgiveness
    41. Prisms hung in the window splashing rainbows on the wall
    42. Family laughter shared watching an old Andy Griffith Show and time together at the end of the day learning a new game
    43. One daughter making the stovetop and kitchen sink sparkle while the other gathered toys outgrown to give away
    44. The treasure of a forgotten stash of budding artist’s pictures
    45. About half of eyelashes and hairs in brows still remaining after round 2 of chemo (I am sorry Father that I didn’t fully appreciate them until some fell out with the hair on my head)
    46 Puffy cotton clouds in blue skies that match Joy’s eyes
    47. My dear son soon to be home and time on Skype with him last night

  7. Paula says:

    I will BY FAITH:
    48. Praise God for the grace, strength, and help He is giving me
    49. Thank God for suffering that is bewildering to me at times. I just “don’t get it” but He is in control, is completely wise and loving, never makes mistakes, and these truths are what matter.
    50. Hope and trust in God through the pain and the cancer treatments

    51. Picnic lunch with family under a shaded pavilion at the beach after church
    52. A mansion in Heaven that has been prepared and ready for me at just the right time: God’s time.
    53. My husband responding with loving patience and kindness when I am crabby and feeling very low–it melts my heart and turns me around for a change of heart and desire to walk pleasing to the Lord and a blessing to others
    54. The encouragement of Theresa loaning me the book “Why doesn’t God act more like God: Habakkuk and the problem of evil”
    55. The reminder today that His thoughts and ways are not mine and His perspective is PERFECT. Isaiah 55:8-9
    56. I thank You Lord that You continue to bring me to the end of myself through the cancer. Thank You for the cancer.
    57. That He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, and enables me to go on the heights
    58. He works in my heart to be able to genuinely rejoice in the Lord even when circumstances seem bleak and ominous
    59. That the truth in the Word of God is setting me free
    60. I so enjoy flowers, their beauty cheers me up, and I have little bouquets from my garden and red mini carnations John bought for me sitting on my coffee table
    60. Thankful to have two bathrooms in our apartment
    61. Hot showers
    62. Warm baths
    63. Clean water out of the faucet at our disposal
    64. Electricity and plumbing that is dependable
    65. Ice. Some people have no ice.
    66. Thank You Lord for the chemo treatment #3 today. Help me to mean it, Lord.

  8. Paula says:

    67. Made it through ok with Chemo round #3 yesterday: my halfway milestone in this course of the treatment–yahoo!

    68. Praise that He will be with me through all the side effects: they are starting to hit and it is hard. God is bigger than all this.

    69. A heart that faithfully pumps for me

    70. Lungs that breathe

    71. A liver that detoxifies. I “feel” like a toxic waste dump now after working so hard to detoxify with the alternative cancer therapy before this but He is able to make the chemo work and protect and take care me

    72. Kidneys that filter

    73. That the Great Physician is both my personal Dr and Daddy and He is watching over me every second of every day

    74. A lovely surprise of purple asters and words that ministered to me at my door from an anonymous friend, encouraging me after a difficult day -I so appreciated this blessing. I am lifting my secret gift-bearer in prayer. 🙂

    75. Nicholas will be flying home late tonight after three weeks away in Arizona–thanksgiving for my son. I love him dearly.

    76. Endorphins from hugs

    77. The sweet fragrance of Joy’s hair

    78. Re-discovering a loving note from Hannah tucked away, warmed my heart again

    79. John driving me to and being with me through all these difficult medical appointments and being my very best friend

    80. Great progress with my PT exercises I do at home every day: marked improvement in range of motion and ability to reach higher in my left arm

    81. Free organic produce nourishing my body and building it up

  9. Paula says:

    82. Two lovely gardenia blooms from our bush plucked by two lovely daughters
    83. My Lymphadema Therapist, Karen
    84. Phone calls from three precious sisters
    85. Joy’s broken toe feeling better, mending well
    86. That I have a good dentist that can fix my tooth
    87. The blessing and relief of more sleep this week
    88. Anti nauesea/vomiting medication that works
    89. Tribal people hearing the Gospel and receiving the Gift of Eternal Life
    90. Faithful people like the Rizlers helping to save the lives of unborn babies
    91. A high White Blood Count
    92. Heart surrender I am learning through pain

  10. Paula says:

    93. This morning I have not felt any pain in my bones from the meds. Whew.

    94. Eyes that see. I am so thankful not to be blind.

    95. The encouragement of Romans 15:13

    96. Knowledge that my Dad is in Heaven and I’ll see him there.

    97. Salvation through simple faith: a free and exorbitantly lavish gift

    98. Chris’ breast cancer shrunk after the chemo and that surgery went well for her

    99. Delicious herbal tea

  11. Paula says:

    100. New tender baby cukes on the vine

    101. Reading together in bed with John

    102. Ability and satisfaction of checking off some items on my neglected things to be done list

    103. Tinkling chimes in the wind

    104. Nice visit with Jackie stopping by with bread family will enjoy

    105. Sweet prayer time with Ruth

    106. The mutual pleasure of tucking and snuggling sweet girls in bed

    107. Nicholas getting registered for dual enrollment at SSC for Freshman English

    108. Feeling well enough for a short bike ride with Hannah

    109. Boats lined up at the nearby marina

    110. The beautiful sound of my girls singing praise to God

    111. Nicholas getting a 100 on his Economics assignment today

    112 A faithful, loving husband

    113. Tina making our apartment sparkly – clean

    114. A surprise purple zebra – striped bloom in flower pot by my garden

    115. Joy making yummy mashed potatoes

    115. Bryan and Pam emailing me some humor

    116. The bold red cardinal in the tree

  12. Paula says:

    117. Jesus is more than enough, no matter what I face
    118. A Father/Son Time last night for John and Nicholas
    119. Theresa having a great first day teaching her class
    120. Belly laughs
    121. Reminiscing over precious baby pictures of our quiver
    122. A whole entire mouth, lips, throat, tongue, ears, and nose completely free from chemo sores…hooray!
    123. My position “in Christ”
    124. God is WAY bigger than pain and cancer
    125.Anticipation of our generous gift from Mom and Alan next week: more time at the beach on my third week after chemo when I am feeling my best
    126. Enjoyment again of humor about transportation terminology in Indonesia

  13. Paula says:

    127. A very special time yesterday at my favorite restaurant, Sweet Tomatoes, with Vanessa and all the other ladies who came and their outpouring of love and delightful surprises
    128. We are leaving today for the beach this week. I love being at the ocean with my family!
    129. Ruth’s nurturing massages
    130. The wig cap from Marla which makes the wig more comfortable on my scalp
    131. Fun fellowship having Jim and Becca over for supper last night
    132. Multiple soaking rain showers watering the plants this week
    133. John heart to reach out to hurting people
    134. Betsy’s job promotion
    135, Heidi’s new home
    136. Kathy removong tics in time to avoid her getting Lymes’s Disease

  14. Paula says:

    137, Two dolphins playing close to the shore
    138. I will not fear, God is always with me
    139. Enjoying table games and the Wi with the kids
    140. Jumping over waves
    141. Early morning and evening strolls on the beach
    142. I will not doubt or be afraid because God is in total control. God will help me to be brave and strong in Him.
    143. A gift from John of a beautiful bunch of purple mums with yellow centers gracing our table in a blender for a vase at the resort.
    144. If God wasn’t going to use cancer, pain, and disappointment in my life, none of them would have happened. He is sovereign over all and absolutely trustworthy
    145. I will “taste” and see that He is good. Every day. ALWAYS and no matter what. Oh the joys of those who take refuge in Him!
    146. The beach that reminds me that God’s thoughts toward me outnumber the grains of sand

    Psalm 139:17-18
    17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[a] O God.
    They cannot be numbered!
    18 I can’t even count them;
    they outnumber the grains of sand!
    And when I wake up,
    you are still with me!

    147. Because of Jesus, I do not have to live in a world of emotional yo-yos and roller coaster rides
    148. God invites me to check out all His promises, test them out for myself, see that they are true. God never lies. He is never mistaken.
    150. My hope in Christ is the sure and steadfast anchor of my soul. It is firm, secure, and I can count on God NEVER to fail me, NEVER to leave me, NEVER to forsake me.
    151. God still is in control when things aren’t going the way I think I want them to be going. His timing is different than mine and His timing is always on time.
    152. I, Paula, will choose to lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with ALL my heart and mind and not rely on my own insight or understanding. In all my ways I will know, recognize, and acknowledge Him and He will direct and make straight and plain all my paths.

  15. Paula says:

    153. God is always good to me. He showers me with compassion and tender mercy.
    154. Every single “no” to my prayers is a mercy, full of His wisdom
    155. I do see and will continue to see His goodness while I am alive and in the land of the living.
    156. The way things are going does not need to make sense to me. I will not despair, God is ALWAYS good, loving, kind, faithful, and right in all He does and allows.
    157. A beautiful Monarch butterfly hovering over blossoms in the parking lot when we went shopping
    158. Heading home sweet home from Daytona Beach today after a wonderfully refreshing vacation
    159. A very enjoyable visit with John’s Mom and Alan yesterday
    169. I will not despair over the cancer, over the pain, over the treatment I wish I didn’t need to be doing,.. over anything else. This is all temporary stuff, all “momentary and light afflictions” with an eternal purpose and some of the hardest things I am going through are really special blessings from God. I just don’t always recognize the beautiful gifts He has for me because I get fooled for awhile by the way the “presents are wrapped”.
    170. All the “exceedingly great and precious promises” in the Bible, the “diamonds in mountains of gold”, that are God’s treasures for me personally. How very rich and blessed I am in Christ!

  16. Paula says:

    171. God is watching me as a loving Daddy watching the apple of His eye–focused on me with eyes of compassion, plenteous in mercy, rejoicing over me with singing, gracious, tenderhearted and I have the joy and privilege of being His beloved daughter. Nothing I am going through escapes His attention. He knows everything about everything. Nothing is too hard for Him. He can do anything. He has promised me that he will work all things together for good in Romans 8:28.

    172. Isaiah 43:2 Even though this passage has a different context and was not written to the church, I can glean the heart of God toward me too. His eye is on the thermostat of this fiery trial. Even though it feels very hot at times, I am not going to get burned up. His eye is on the gauge of the depth of water in this flood. The water is not going to go over my head. I am not drowning even though it feels like waves are crashing over me at times. He will help me catch my breath, tread water, and float on my back and rest when the water is too deep to walk through. He will not give me more than I can bear. He will show me a way of escape when I am tempted to sin, when I feel like giving up, when things feel too hard. At some point God will say “That’s enough” and this trial will end–maybe on earth, maybe in Heaven. He can completely heal me in a snap anytime He wants to, however He wants to. He will provide every bit of the strength I need to persevere and walk in His victory while He wants me on this earth, then after that He is going to take me Home to Heaven in His perfect time. I already know the end of the story and my future is bright no matter what happens.

    173.From Isaiah 43:4 : “You are precious in my eyes, honored, and I love you.” He feels like that about every one of His kids, me included. I am loved with an everlasting, perfect love and am so grateful to be His.

  17. Paula says:

    174. Back to eating just nourishing, health promoting foods. It feels very good to do what I can do to take great care of myself. Thank You Lord for helping me overcome temptation to eat junk that just tears my body down. I will continually turn to the Lord–my Rock, my stronghold, my deliverer for all my comfort, not chocolate or sugar or anything else but Him.
    175. Great time Hannah and I had giving away 10 little floral bouquets from our garden last night to neighbors. It’s so much fun to share our flowers!
    176. A washer and drier that work well.
    177. I know ahead of time what the final, ultimate outcome of my life is going to be: Eternity with Christ. That is cause for rejoicing! What I am going through now is all temporary.
    178. Thank You Father for chemo dose #4 tomorrow, August 22, 2011. Please use it for good–please answer my prayers exceedingly abundantly above all I could ask or think. Thank You in advance for walking with me through all this, that Your grace is sufficient. I praise You for how you are weakening the cancer cells and removing them in masses out of my body and how You are strengthening all the healthy cells, making them thrive and flourish, enabling them to “take the hit”. I don’t know how this works, Lord. I say these things by faith because I know You can do it, just not sure that that’s what Your doing. Help my unbelief, Lord. Please fill me with faith.
    179. I will not fail, God is ALWAYS victorious. When Jesus died on the Cross–so did I–my sin was nailed right up there with Him. When He rose again, I did too–raised to new life in Christ. When my Father sees me, He sees His Son. All my sin has been paid in full, my sin debt completely covered by my Savior.
    180. Sue loaning me this “Always True” CD series. It is a blessing to think about His exceedingly great and precious promises.
    181. Joy has taken over my responsibility to cut John and Nicholas’ hair and is doing an excellent job: she’s my cheerful, “right hand gal’ in so many ways.
    182. I am thankful for good friends.

  18. Paula says:

    183. Chemo #4 out of planned 6 went smoothly yesterday. 2/3rds done, 1/3 more to go on this part!
    184. God’s grace is sufficient for all I face today and every day
    185. High School homeschool Christian debate and speech club opportunity for Nicholas and Joy– “On Eagle’s Wings”–looks excellent
    186. I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength (Gal 2:20)
    187. Shirley’s kindness and helpfulness on the phone the other night, sharing her experience and giving input on my treatment plan
    188. I’m so glad that God thought up and provided fruit! It’s a delicious,naturally sweet, guilt-free healthy treat and I enjoy it very much.
    189. Feels great to be back on track of my norm of no junk in my diet again and doing the things I can do to take the best care of myself that I can in the circumstances God has allowed ON PURPOSE.

  19. Paula says:

    190. I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God
    191. The truth that each and every loss I experience is truest gain, because day by day, He fills the place of all He takes away, plus more. Hooray for Phil 3:8!
    192. Every single trial I face is Divinely Hand picked or allowed or orchestrated for me. I am not sure how all that works but it is meant for His glory and honor and my good as I walk closely with Him, surrendering to His will
    193. John and Joy shopping for school supplies and getting good deals that we can share

  20. Paula says:

    194. The treat of being able to stop by and chat and pray with Deb after my appointments in Oveido yesterday
    195. Seeing the excitement of Joy and Hannah with their fun classes of the mission school: art, photography, and P.E.
    196. Listening to and pondering the beautiful truths on the Scripture Meditations CD that Sonia gave me: such encouragement!
    197. Kathy’s safety and her home in Vermont spared from Hurricane Irene in the midst of devastation all around her
    198. The blessed relief of more sleep at night and naps during the day
    199. Praise you Lord for the truth of Lam 3:21-24: fresh mercies every day, Your compassion, faithfulness, unfailing love that will never let me go. I will hope and wait expectedly on YOU!
    200. God’s provision through Dave and Diane of being able to borrow a dehumidifier for Betsy’s visit here the end of next month to make her breathing easier
    201. The sacrificial love of a sister willing to receive extra allergy shots, etc and bless us with a week of her presence and help in the midst of her busy schedule and known difficulty with respiratory allergies in FL
    201. A beautiful bird of paradise flower from Rachelle this morning. Who would have known that our brief visit with her while we were sporting our “Hillbilly teeth” made of the white side of orange peels http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ecu1SWO0IM would have resulted in her praying for me daily? God knew she’d be babysitting for friends when we knocked on that door to smile at our neighbors.
    202. Sue’s radiant eyes and smile shining for Jesus
    203. Rhoda passing along the 4 “Moments with Jesus” books to me: I can hardly wait to read them!
    204. It was such a pleasure to have my Gerson Gal buddy Esther over for lunch on Saturday and have that precious fellowship
    205. I have felt much healthier, stronger, and encouraged in the Lord the last few days

  21. Paula says:

    206. I can say with great hope and expectation: “Father, be to me what You are!”

  22. Paula says:

    207. I am precious in His eyes, honored, and He loves me (Is 43:4)
    208. The God who created the entire Universe, takes pleasure in me personally, delights in me, quiets me with His love, even rejoices over me with singing! Wow. (Ps 149:4, Zeph 3:17) I join in Amy’s prayer: “Oh Lord Jesus, my Beloved, may I be a joy to You!”
    209. Dr. Dennis J. Slamon and his development of Herceptin. I saw “Living Proof” last night http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1229367/ and am going to start counting my treatment protocol of IV Herceptin for a year as a gift from His Hand. God has used it to save the lives of many woman with Her2 positive cancer like I have.
    210. A TENS unit that gives a little relief and distraction from the tourniquet sensation

  23. Paula says:

    211. How glorious it is to have the certainty of seeing my Savior face to face and being with Him forever after this life is over
    212. There is a beautiful, wonderful “Hello after goodbye” in Heaven with loved ones
    213. Playful manatee
    214 Squeals of delight from pint sized visitors over gerbil antics
    215. Amy has a brand new body in Heaven that is free from cancer and she is perfectly healed now and praising God
    216. A precious new baby growing within Lauren
    217. Tenacious plants that can grow and flourish in a sidewalk crack: a good example to me
    218. The lavish exchange of beauty for ashes and joy for mourning from God to us

  24. Paula says:

    219. New coined phrase for me: “Eat your beans, boy. They’re good for ya!” translates into “Don’t complain about your trials, boy. They’re good for ya!” Thank You for all the trials, Lord and the lessons You are teaching me through them. I’m eatin’ up the “beans” God has provided and learning to genuinely count them a blessing even though they don’t taste so great right now! 😉

    220. Great to feel well enough and have my immunity high enough be with sisters and brothers in Christ at church today

    221. Mom doing ok after her fall–thanks for sending angels to cushion her tumble, Lord!

    222. Prompt follow-up testing of PET Scan and MRI available for Kelley after diagnosis of breast cancer as well as their fun Labor Day weekend get-away as well to relax

    223. Finally finished memorizing Psalm 62:5-8–hooray!

    224. “That scouring and rubbing, which frets others, shall make me shine the brighter; and that weight which crushes and keeps others under, shall but make me, like the palm tree, grow better and higher; and that hammer which knocks others all in pieces, shall but knock me the nearer to Christ, the corner stone. Stars shine brightest in the darkest night…” (Brooks) Make me a shiney light for YOU in this dark-night season in my life, Lord Jesus!

  25. Paula says:

    225. GY HIS GRACE and enabling power I will daily “quietly lie down in his will, whose will is a perfect will, a just and righteous will, a wise will, an overruling will, an infinite will, a sovereign will, a holy will, an immutable will, an uncontrollable will, an omnipotent will, and an eternal will” (Brooks)

    226. Hooray for Romans 8:28: EVERY SINGLE THING, including all afflictions, trial, troubles–even the ones that make me wonder what possible good can come from such awful things–every last one of them can and will work together for GOOD to those who love God and are called according to His purpose. That’s a promise I can count on. God always keeps His promises.

    227. God sending a lovely rain shower this morning that gave our garden a good soak

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    228. This week I saw the most beautiful rainbow that I’ve ever seen as I walked along the lake. It was a huge double one that was vibrant on the ends and pastel in the middle. God might be allowing plenty of flooding and natural disaters around the world but the rainbow is a symbol of His promise that He won’t again flood the entire earth all at once. Thank You, Lord!

    229. The reminder from Kathy’s sweet time with Him that God brings light in the darkness, strength for deepest sorrow, forgiveness for every mess-up, rest when I feel like I can not go on, peace in turmoil, and hope in the midst of despair. I will trust His wisdom in the level of health He provides for me and every trial he allows

    230. By His grace, I will also rejoice in my sufferings, because I know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint me, because God has poured out his love into my heart by the Holy Spirit whom he has given me.” (Romans 5: 3-5).

    231. Special prayer time with Cindy today and her notes that God used to bring to mind that He wants to purify, refine, and burn away the impurities in my life! God wants to see his reflection in me!

    “Beloved Paula, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial (or trial by fire) which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you.” (1 Peter 4 :12)

    4. purosis (4451), akin to puroo, “to set on fire,” signifies (a) “a burning”; (b) “a refining,” metaphorically in 1 Pet. 4:12, “fiery trial,” or rather “trial by fire,” referring to the refining of gold (1:7). See burning.

    1 Peter 1:7 “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.’

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    232. IN CHRIST I am strong, brave, fearless, courageous: completely safe and secure–no need to feel overwhelmed or dismayed because God is on my side and He is with me taking care of me everywhere He leads me (Joshua 1:9)

    233. God forgives my sins and then forgets all about them! (Heb 8:12) I can forgive myself too and move forward.

    234. John, Hannah, and I working together to defrost and clean the deep freezer chest last night-great to have that done!

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    235. I praise Him, that by His strength “I WILL live in the today. I will Trust God today. I will gaze into His eyes today. I will respond to Him today. Me worrying about tomorrow wastes what God has to offer me today. I will savor today, and as I savor Him. He will take care of each of my tomorrows. I will believe Him today and walk from that believing.” (Stacy)

    236. I serve the One who can rebuild the ruined places, and plant what was desolate. Ezekiel 36:11,36

    237. Chemo #5 is tomorrow, then just one left after that for the rest of my life, God willing. By faith I say, “Thank You Lord for how you are using chemo in my life. I praise You and thank You for the cancer and the treatment of cancer. I praise You that You are 100% trustworthy, that You are good and loving and kind and never make a single mistake. Are you using these treatments to heal me completely of the cancer, Father? I do not know. I hope so. I pray so. Please, heal me Lord. Please? I ask in the Name of Jesus for Your healing. I know You can do it, God! I am confident that YOU will answer my prayer in the very best way. Your will be done, Lord.

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    238. Thanks be to God for the http://www.HisWillNotmine.com site: a reminder to lay all my fears down before Him and embrace all He has for me. He will take all the junk and voids I am releasing and surrendering to Him and fill me up with Himself. Great trade! 🙂

    239. I will “trust that He will lead me to the end location. His ending. He gives me the landmarks. He gives me His Word to direct me. He gives me access to the throne of God to talk to the Father. He sets up the signposts and is the lamp. If only I would walk with eyes open to Him. The road is often uncertain. The path winding. But He will lead, if I will follow. (Stacy’s excerpt from above link put in the First Person)

    240. When anxiety was/is/will be great within me, God’s consolation brought/is bringing/will continue to bring joy to my soul (Psa. 94:19)

    241. My great and mighty God will keep me in perfect peace as my mind is steadfast on Him, because I trust in the One Who never fails. I will trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal) (Isaiah 26:3-4)

    242. “You, my Father, are my amazing Best. You have strengthened my heart for the journey this day. My heart…my today, tomorrow, and my rest belong to you. Whatever you choose to do with my surrender is your choice, not mine. Humbly and with the heart of joyful release, I commit to the road of your forever. It’s yours to navigate. Bring me safely home to you.” (Elaine Olsen’s prayer is one of my 1000 Gifts and my prayer too. http://www.peaceforthejourney.com/2011/01/bloodied-beautiful-faith.html

    243. “Cancer will not be my undoing; rather cancer will be the threshold of my emerging. That threshold begins and ends at the feet of Jesus, and my emerging? Well, as it comes, I move from dimming darkness into the marvelous witness of his glorious light, bursting forth with the firmest faith allowed a fleshly frame. ” (Elaine Olsen)

    244. I am hardly ever cold any more–I’m a regular hot-flashin’ furnace nowadays from the chemo induced menopause. Thanks for keeping me toasty warm, Lord. It’ll come in extra-handy this winter here in FL and I should do fine if I happen to visit Antartica! Ha, ha. 😉

    245. I have now met many people who have it WAY, WAY worse than I through this cancer treatment (they probably consider my experience “Easy Peazy” ). I certainly have many blessings to count. One is that I have not thrown up even one time thusfar–nausea that is mostly well controlled by medications is something to be very happy and thankful about and I am. 🙂

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    245. A great big thanks to You, O LORD, you are my Father; I am Your clay–all Yours, ABBA Daddy–all Yours, every bit of me. I am the work of Your hands.. Mold me, fashion me, make me soft and supple and totally pliable in Your Hands, totally yielding to You, nothing held back… a trophy of Your grace, a vessel that honors and glorifies and reflects YOU. (Personalizing Isaiah 64:8)

    246 .By His grace and enabling power I will CHOOSE faith, not fear. I will choose Him and His Truth….not me and my circumstances.

    2147. Grass, flesh, flowers, and more: all fade but the Word of the Lord stands forever. I can count on it. (1 Peter 1:24-25)

    248. My response to the challenge of Stacy’s words in http://hiswaynotmine.blogspot.com/ is one of my 1000 gifts from God to me today. I personalized her direct quote for me: “Because I am Born Again, I, Paula, can and will love others with His love. I will choose to not harbor any unforgiveness and bitterness whatsoever and will pursue peace and reconciliation. I will and I do now confess all known sin and all my failures to God and receive 1 John 1:9. When I confess my sin, He is faithful and just to forgive my sin and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Jesus’ paid the debt of all my sin and I am free, free, FREE! Thank You, LORD!!!!! I will embrace the today that God gives me. I will not live for myself, but will live for God, the very One who put that breath in my lungs. He has numbered my days and each one of them is a precious gift to be invested in the way He chooses. If He wants me mostly in bed after chemo then I will do that with joy in my heart and rest and sleep and use that time that I am awake in bed wisely, same when He gives me strength to be up and around. May I live as if today is my last day. No regrets. Secure in the arms of my Lord and Savior. Father, You alone are worthy. You alone are God. And because of You, no weapon on this earth or in the hands of the enemy can be used to defeat the power that God possesses. Satan may try to take me down bringing negativity, despair, anxiety, fear, stress, and depressing thoughts to my mind. But in Jesus, my Savior, there is no defeat: NONE! I am a ‘more than conqueror and co-heir’ with Christ. When God the Father looks down at me, His child, He sees His Son Jesus in me. WOW. Think on that one, Paula Girl! I will stand firmly on the ground God has me on right now, keep my eyes on Jesus, hold on tight to His Hand, and worship God. I will fight in the power of His Truth: the Word of God. Help me Lord to really love Your Word, to be hungry and thirsty for it, for YOU. Truth always defeats every lie. This cancer will not have me because God does. That is the truth. May this cancer be used to refine me that more of His Truth may be seen through me. That is my battle cry. And on this battlefield, when the landscape is uncertain and the terrain unknown and the scary assaults and doubts well within me, I will reject those thoughts and replace them with the truth of God’s Word. I stand strong in my God who knows the hills and the valleys. I will choose to trust that He will guide me through. He has done that and more. When He died on the Cross, I died on the Cross. When He was buried, I was buried with Him. When He rose again, so did I. Through simple faith I have received His gift of Eternal Life. It is mine forever. The triumph for what He has already overcome and triumph for what is to come is mine in Christ. I will bring praise to my Heavenly Father. For no weapon formed against me will prevail. I will rejoice. I will declare: God is my victory and He is here!”

    249. The administration of Chemo #5 went smoothly yesterday and my blood counts are good. Knowing what is going directly into my vein, I am always happy to walk out of there alive and on my own two feet. Thank You Father for the path You have me on. Since You have me on this particular path during this season of my life, then by faith I can know that it is the very best path for me.

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    250. Peace He leaves with me, His peace He gives to me…not at all like the kind like the world gives. I won’t let my heart be troubled and neither will I let it be afraid. (John 14:27)

    251. I will be anxious for NOTHING. Instead,IN EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving in my heart, I will let God know all my requests. I praise Him that the peace of God which is beyond comprehension will guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus. (Phil 4:6, 7)

    252. Blowing bubbles on the porch with Joy last night, enjoying her sweet company, relishing her delight in her newfound hobby of photography, so good to be able to be out of bed and in the fresh air

    253. Nicholas’ hard work, good attitude, and great job on his English paper for SSC

    254. Fun watching John and Hannah playing solitare together: 2 peas in a pod in so many ways

    255. God’s peace like a river, engulfing and flowing over my soul in abundance

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    256. I sing for joy in the shadow of God’s wings, I cling to Him and His right Hand holds me securely (Psalm 63:7-8)

    257. Jesus never lets go of me. I am safe and secure in His arms of love.

    258. Simple blessings no longer to be taken for granted: energy enough today to do laundry and make homemade vegetable soup.

    259. Thank You Lord that I am almost done for good with chemo. Only one left for the rest of my life, God willing. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength…even cancer and “all the big guns” of conventional cancer treatment.

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    260. Thank You Lord that You are teaching me to keep my eyes on You every second, minute, hour, day. You have all the answers I do not have. You are my victory and my strength and my deliverer, my shelter and my peace and my hope. You truly are my all in all, my everything.

    261. This cancer is a giant that is easy for God to take down, a Red Sea for Him to easily part, an enemy that God can deliver me from, a stronghold that has no grip on me if God loosens it.

    262. Marla passing along her experience with breast cancer and sending me funny things to make me smile and laugh

    263. I choose God over everything else I think I want

    264. Experimenting with the TENS unit is giving me some measure of relief from the invisible tourniquet sensation on my arm. Hooray!

    265. One of my gifts from God today is for me to personalize Psalm 108: “I will praise You, O Lord, among the peoples (everybody), And I will sing your praises to You among the nations (including l the hurting people I encounter at the Cancer Institute and medical offices and testing places, people you have me meeting as I am out and about, my friends and family, and here in this blog)…..that Your beloved (me!) may be delivered, save with Your right hand, and hear me…..Give us (me) help from trouble, (I desperately need You Lord) For the help of man is useless. (Only YOU can make this cancer treatment work if it is in Your will for it or any of the upcoming treatments to work. Only You can protect and defend my healthy cells in the midst of this cancer and the surgical, chemical, radiological, and other drug warfare going on in my body) Through God we (I) will do valiantly, (“Wow” on “valiantly!”) For it is He who shall tread down our (my) enemies.” (Lord, I am counting on You to do what is best. Cancer is a snap for You to melt away and carry away from my body at just the right time if that is Your perfect will. Please don’t let me waste a single lesson You want me to learn though what You are allowing and orchestrating. Thank You for defeating the enemy of my soul too–Satan and all his fiery darts like fear, doubt,etc. Jesus died and rose again and anything to do with the enemy of our souls is a settled matter forever. God always has the final word

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    266. I will choose not to be fearful of any bad news now or to come. My “today” and my future are all HIS. I will trust my precious Lord to care for me and my family. IN CHRIST I am confident, steadfast, fearless, triumphant. (gleaned from Psalm 112:8)

    267.”My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. No wonder I can sing your praises!” (Psalm 57:7)

    268. Yesterday morning my name was randomly pulled in a drawing for a $100 certificate toward travel expenses. Wasn’t that sweet of the Lord to arrange that?

    269. Graciousness, love, and kindness of Deb’s listening ear, pointing me toward the Lord

    270. The incredible feast the Robinson family provided for my family in the evening. We do not even personally know these brothers and sisters in Christ and yet this generous, beyond my comprehension outpouring of His love! I want to be more like them, more like my Jesus! Please change me, Lord.

    271. Tender words from a pastor this morning (1 minute) http://www.truewoman.com/?id=1834 ( I know nothing about this man’s ministry or church but his words ministered and challenged me just now) Please make me a Mom after Your own heart, Father!

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    272. The Lord is fighting for me and He will continue fighting for me (Exodus 14:14). This is His battle and His cancer battleplan for me personally. Show me what part of the fight in the war on cancer is mine and what You want me doing and not doing, Lord… then help me to stand strong in YOU in that part, fully equipped with the armour of God..

    273. “I have the peace of God that passes understanding, I have joy, I have love, I have strength and I have power….all of which are God’s and are in me as I am in Christ Jesus.” (I echo Stacy’s words from http://hiswaynotmine.blogspot.com/) Thank You for Stacy, Lord. I do not know this sister in Christ but she is such a kindred spirit and has ministered to me so in her blog. Thank YOU for the gifts you give me and others through her sharing.

    274. Anticipation of a special mother/son time out for lunch with Nicholas today

    275. Rhythmic rocking on the swinging bench on the river’s edge, sharing beautiful moments and heart to heart exchanges with my best friend, the love of my life, the father of my children. Thank You God for John and for 22 years together come December. Please help me to be the best wife and help meet I can to him for all the days of my life. I fall so short so often. Thank You that YOU specialize in heart transformation, Lord and never give up on us. Please conform me to the image of Your Son, change me, and make our marriage a masterpiece of Your love and grace.

    276. These 4 babies crack me up and their laughter and expressions are a gift to me this morning 🙂 http://au.news.yahoo.com/entertainment/a/-/entertainment/9033464/web-sensation-baby-scared-mum-blowing-nose/ Thanks, Lord that a merry heart doeth good like medicine!

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    277. The relief of again giving full control of my life over to God. Help me to keep giving myself back to You, moment by moment, Lord!
    278. The funny, wise story of the lady with 3 hairs left and my take-away on the choices I desire to make and will make, in His strength, with Him in charge
    279. Mom, Bets, and Heidi coming to visit next week! Hooray!
    280. He’s given me His peace. My heart never needs to be troubled or afraid (John 14:27)

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    281. NOTHING shall separate me from the love of Christ. I am more than a conqueror and a victor in Him! (Rm 8:35, 37)
    282. Kelley’s bone and lung scans coming out clear
    283. Fresh air and sunshine
    284. A song of praise to God in my heart

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    285. Per dear Deb’s doodle drawing lesson: I will choose to live as the greatly blessed child of God that I am , not a spiritual orphan. He is my forgiver: I confess my sin to Him and I am forgiven. He is my redeemer: I am redeemed by the blood of the Lamb. He is my Saviour: I am saved through simple faith. He is my deliverer: I am delivered from every bondage to sin… delivered from eternal death/separation from Him, delivered from fear and doubt. He is my provider and I am well provided for by Him in every way. He is my defender: I am defended. He is the lover of my soul: I am loved with an everlasting love. He is my healer and I can trust Him to heal me if that is best. (Oh Lord, is it Your best to heal me of cancer, the invisible tourniquet sensation on my arm, the side effects/damage done from the chemo? I wish healing me would be Your very best! I pray so. Please help me to trust and rest in You and your will no matter what.) I know my absolute ultimate ”perfect” healing will be a new body in Heaven, worshipping Him there forever, just not sure about the here and now on earth part. Because of my position in Christ, I do not have to “live as an orphan” or give in to bitterness, lonliness, a controlling nature, fear, doubt, blaming others, broken relationships, or anger OR ANY OTHER SUCH THING. God has MUCH better for me! Thank You Lord and Deb for the “doodle drawing lesson” spelling this out for me!

    286.. The children relishing Esther M’s chocolate chip muffins. They smell so good and I am happy for the kids to have this special treat and thankful for self control not for me to eat them too. I am sooooooooooooooooooooo ready to be off of steroids and chemo after the treatment in mid October. Thank You Lord for my body exactly as it is right now, with all the various changes that are hard for me…I “present my body to YOU as a living sacrifice….”

    287.. Praise for answered prayer of Luellen and Ron coming through cardiac surgery so well

    288.. The release and relief of being able to take a break from the sobering and sad things and be able to smile and laugh out loud over funny things

    289.. Suffering is swelling my feet so the shoes of earth no longer fit

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    290.. A tickled funny bone
    291. Ruth’s massages….ahhhh!
    292.. Faith the size of a mustard seed that moves mountains. Please teach me more about that kind of faith and more about being a woman of prayer, Lord.

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    293. Jesus: THE way, THE truth, THE life–no one can come to the Father except through Him. Hooray that He is MY Savior, MY Lord, MY salvation. MY rock, MY very life is all wrapped up in Jesus, He’s my “ticket” to Heaven and my way to all the good things that God has for me right here and now.

    294. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. (NIV)1For me to live is Christ [His life in me], and to die is gain [the gain of the glory of eternity]. (AMP) For living to me means simply “Christ”, and if I die I should merely gain more of him. (JB Philips)Alive, I’m Christ’s messenger; dead, I’m his bounty. Life versus even more life! I can’t lose. (The Message)For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. (NLT) Phil 1:21

    295. God is teaching my heart to have His perspective on life and death. I sure haven’t “arrived” but I am His work in progress: His masterpiece, His clay pot He is shaping, His diamond in the rough He is chipping away at, His gold in the furnace, His dear child who is bewildered at times yet He holds me close and tells me not to be afraid and to rest my weary heart in Him. So many things seem so out of control yet He is in full charge and HE has EVERYTHING under control.

    296. Jesus might come back today! If not today, it sure seems like it might be soon. Come quickly, Lord Jesus!

    297. The blessing of Debbie B cleaning my kitchen and bathrooms yesterday

    298. Family from Tucson arriving: Mom and Heidi today and Betsy tomorrow. Yippeeeeeee!

    299. Joe’s listening ear and wisdom

    300. Butterflies and flowers–such lovely gifts from Him that give me great pleasure

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    301. A great time with Mom, Heidi, Loretta, and Cindy at the Pink Ribbon ladies breast cancer lunch
    302. Betsy’s arrival yesterday : so much fun being with and catching up with family
    303. From the end of the earth I will cry to my precious Lord, When my heart is overwhelmed; He will lead me to the rock that is higher than I. (from Psalm 61:2)

    304. Rose sending me a link to this beautiful song, “Your Hands” by JJ Heller. It is the cry of my heart to the Lord today.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l3CEMWCxSk&feature=share
    305. Nicholas is 18 today! Thank You Lord for our dear son.

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    306. What a blessing to have dear ones in the process of transforming my little overgrown vegetable/flower garden into a place of beauty again!
    307. Three more chairs with happy faces around the table at our meals: thank You Lord for bringing Mom, Bets, and Haddle to be with us: soooooooooooo much fun to have them with us!
    308. Nicholas’ yummy birthday ice cream cake (with the funny typo “Mr Politican” by the lady at the bakery) I haven’t had any ice cream cake probably in about 6 years while trying to avoid sugar and processed food in my attempt to stay healthy. Ordinarily I would have had fruit while everybody else had cake. My tendency is to have the pendulum to swing too far in either direction in that area. Lord, please bring me to a place of YOUR balance with food, exercise, and lifestyle choices.
    309. So much fun to play “Spoons” again
    310. When Satan tries to mess with my mind with his fiery darts of doubts, fear, worry, and the rest of his garbage I can tell him to go to Hell, back where he came from. I’ve never told anybody to go there before but seems quite fitting for this adversary. Thank You Lord for my full amour of God. I am a viictorious overcomer in Christ.
    311. Special time with John’s Mom, stepdad Alan, sister Kelley and kiddos, and all my family at restaurant
    312. Postponement of the last chemo until Oct 10th instead of today due to worsening neurological side effects from the drugs: the silver lining of this is more time to enjoy my family from Tucson this week rather than me being in bed recovering from chemo while they are here
    313. The ability to laugh, recover quickly, and overcome the embarrassment of accidently forgetting to cover my baldness before answering someone knocking at the door. I am a woman of many looks with my various wigs, scarves, and hats and this guy unexpectedly got to see my “shockaroo look” Ah well!
    314. Sailboats galore on the lake
    315. Autumn has finally arrived in Fl–hooray!

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    316. I will lay aside everything that distracts me from my precious Jesus: every encumbrance, every sin that entangles me and I will run the race God has specifically chosen for me personally; with endurance, perseverance, and persistence. I will look to Jesus, who is the source, the author, the finisher, the completer of my faith who for the joy that was set before Him, endured the cross for my sake. He took the full shame of my sin upon Himself on the Cross. He did it for me. He is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. (From Heb 12: 1-2)

    317. The provision of the loan of a wheelchair from the Wicks so Mom can go on a longer walk with us

    318. It was a hoot last night to take out all my hats, scarves, and wigs with my family and for us to try them on together and goof around

    319. My garden is BEAUTIFUL now–such a loving, lovely gift! I can hardly wait to give away more bouquets.

    320. Heidi helping me with my manual lymphatic drainage and blessing me with massages

    321. Bets teaching my girls some sewing skills.

    322. Nothing is too hard for my God…absolutely NOTHING.

    323. Just Who is in charge around here of all the hard stuff outside my control? God is, that’s who and I can come boldly before Him as His child, bringing my requests before Him and being fully confident that His answers will always be the very best ones. I will walk by faith and not sight.

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    324. I will choose to consider it an opportunity for great joy–even an on-purpose gift from God Himself-WHEN trials, temptations, tests, and troubles come my way, including the ones that seem downright huge and overwhelming, like aggressive, stage three breast cancer. These are testing grounds to bring my faith to maturity. God controls the timing, the intensity, and the duration of every difficulty I will ever face, down to minutest detail. The process of going through these pressures while walking in His strength and enabling power will bring beautiful fruit of endurance, steadfastness, and patience. (Personalizing James 1:2-3 for me)

    325. The fun of bringing Mom, Bets, and Heidi to some of the letterboxes I have planted http://www.atlasquest.com/

    326. Taking time to browse antique shops, play games, reminisce over cherished childhood memories

    327. The truth behind the words of “Day By Day” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNVCcph6cnI

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    328. Genuine laughter and smiling are God’s idea and a gift from Him to me.
    329. Thank You Lord for a wonderful visit with my Mom and two of my sisters.
    They went home to Tucson on Wednesday and Thursday. What a blessing for them to come!
    330. Walking through a thick cloud of colorful dragon flies–that was pretty cool!

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    331. I am assured and know that God is working ALL things together for good to and for those who love Him and are called according to His design and purpose.(Romans 8:28) This verse is for me and I know it to be true. God has something beautiful in mind for all He is allowing and orchestrating in my life.

    332. I am alive and still have more time with my family. By God’s grace I will not waste His gift of each day He gives me here.

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    333. With God’s training I can use Phil 4:8 as my personal “rubbish removal service”–dumping all the garbage of my mind and exchanging it for whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, the things of virtue and excellence and worthy of praise. I will think on and weigh and take account of these things: I will fix my mind on them.
    334. An all-day rain soaking my garden today and fun memories of splashing in puddles with my kids when they were younger. Maybe we should do this again.

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    335. Kindred spirits to share my heart with and to pray with

    336. God Himself will guard me and keep me in perfect and constant peace. By His enabling power I will keep my mind [both its inclination and its character] stayed on Him. I commit myself to Him, lean on Him, and hope confidently in Him.(From Isaiah 26:3 (AMP)

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    337. Kelley’s mastectomy and the start of reconstruction went great yesterday: looks like non-invasive breast cancer, clear margins, with nodes negative for cancer. Hooray! I am so happy and relieved for/with her.
    338. I can rest in God’s direction that I did not receive the last dose of chemo yesterday afterall because of the neurological side effects–half doses of chemo to to either be postponed til next Monday or skip altogether
    339. Verona and Darrell and so many precious friends and family members to love!

  50. Paula says:

    340.”God loves to bless me! He has even declared that ‘blessings shall come upon you and overtake you.’ in a reference in Deut 28:2. I know from His Word that He loves to bless ALL of his children, including me. When I turn one corner, there is a blessing waiting for me. When I turn another corner, I run smack into another blessing! The thought that I can’t run fast enough to escape God’s blessings is a beautiful word picture to me and delights my soul. I desire very much to heed the voice of the Lord and follow Him closely. What a joy His presence in my life is! I can believe God for all His blessings. I can choose to THANK God for this trial that has drawn my heart closer to His wonderful self. All the promises of God in Christ are ‘Yes’, and because I am in Christ, I can say ‘Amen!’ to His blessings. (2 Cor. 1:20)” (Thoughts personalized from a quote Lillie shared in the blog)
    341. Even though the neuropathy is becoming more painful lately, I was so happy to be able to rebound on my mini-trampoline a good while yesterday morning and I will rebound again and take a nice walk along the river this morning. Woohooo! PROGRESS!
    342. Isaiah 61:3 from the cartoon I found was a blessing to me today. I will put on and keep on “a garment of praise”.
    ” …and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
    to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
    the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
    and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
    They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the LORD
    for the display of his splendor. “

  51. Paula says:

    343. God is teaching me to be a “Worry Slapper”. A lot of anxious, fearful thoughts are indeed bugging me. There is a way I can effectively deal with the swarm of joy-sucking, peace draining thoughts that are attacking me. I can cast ALL my cares on Him because He cares for me. (1 Peter 5:7). I thank God that by God’s enabling power I choose to walk by faith, not sight. Please increase my faith,Lord. Mine is weak.
    344. “The grace of God is freely given to ME, through the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross. I receive His grace by faith. I choose to turn my faith cup UP to receive His abundant grace!” (From Joyful Tunes cartoon)
    345. Hugs. Hugs feel so good. I’m glad that God thought them up and that I get lots from my family and friends

  52. Paula says:

    346. The Holy Spirit helps me in all my weakness. I don’t know exactly what God wants me to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for me with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. My Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for me as a believer in harmony with God’s own will. (from Romans 8:26-27)
    347. Beautiful, glowing moon in a blanket of black velvet
    348. I am all done with chemo–hooray! Because the neuropathy symptoms have increased this week even off chemo, the half doses that were tentatively scheduled on Monday have been cancelled. I think this is a wise decision. God can use 5 doses of chemo just as well as 6 doses or zero doses, however He wants, according to His will.
    349.God’s faithfulness towards Danny and his family through a difficult year and the song of praise that continues to sing in Danny’s heart and on his lips.

  53. Paula says:

    350. The myriad of ways John and the kids cheerfully pitch in helping fill in the gaps as I recover
    351. God has many, many beautiful things for me to enjoy and lessons to learn on my ”train ride on the way to the station” (Hasitngs). When my eyes are on Him, I won’t miss those treasures He has for me.
    352. The twin thieves of regret and fear will not rob me of today as I gain God’s perspective. “This is the day which the Lord hath made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.” (Psalm 118:24)
    353. A yellowed eyed cat surprising and delighting Joy with her presence at our garden
    354. God’s Fingerprints in the incredible story of Darlene Deibler Rose…the blessing of Esther loaning me “Evidence Not Seen”

  54. Paula says:

    355. Praise to God who continues to bring me, little by little, to the genuinely “Whatever, Lord” point.
    356. Snuggly, soft socks
    357. Cool, refreshing breezes off the lake
    358. Today would have been my appt for half doses of chemo treatment #6 had things worked out differently with side effects last week. I am glad to be done and to be detoxing from the stuff instead

  55. Paula says:

    359. With God’s help I can and will choose to embrace a positive, optimistic attitude today. I serve the God of ALL hope!
    360. He gives me abundant joy in the morning and sweet, gentle peace in the evening http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-OMkqAtxJA

    361. Thank You Lord for strengthening me with all power according to Your glorious might so that I may experience great endurance and patience, and give joyful thanks to my Father, who has qualified me to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light. He has rescued me from the dominion of darkness and brought me into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom I have redemption, the forgiveness of my sins. ( Col 1:11-13)

  56. Paula says:

    362. I throw the full weight of my burdens on the Lord, releasing every care to Him. He will take care of me and the things that concern me and He will always sustain me. I am righteous “in Christ” and God will never permit those who are righteous in His Son to be moved. In Him I will not slip, or fall or fail. (Personalizing Psalm 55:22 for me) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0t6Cs5TRxU&feature=related

    363. I will lean hard today upon the Shoulder which upholds the whole world. I will press nearer and nearer to His loving heart. I will snuggle in as close as I can get and He will draw me in nearer still.

    364. The delight of watching my daughter victoriously overcome a struggle

  57. Paula says:

    365. I have every reason to believe, based on the Word of God, that He will answer my requests to transform me into a woman of strong faith: a prayer warrior with prayers lined up with God’s will. He will answer my prayers with His very best.
    366. I’ve got “some rivers that seem to be uncrossable and I’ve got mountains I can’t tunnel through. HOWEVER, God SPECIALIZES in things thought impossible. He does the things others can not do.”
    367. Today I am trusting that God will show me if/how Matthew 17:20 applies to me and teach me all I need to know about it: “If you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.” I give You every single one of my mountains, Lord.
    368. A wonderful Mother/Daughter time with my Hannah Banana yesterday: snuggling with puppies at the Pet Store, going to a health fair, buying her a treat (thx Lord for helping me to skip the sweets) then we even had fun vacuuming the vehicles together afterwards. 🙂

  58. Paula says:

    369. “I have handed over all control to the One who tells the ocean waves just how far they can progress before they must recede again into the depths of the oceans. To the One whose voice quells the wind and the waves and designates the path of the lightning. Mine was a freefall into the Everlasting Arms and peace instantly reigned over fear.” (Margaret Ashmore)

    370.”This, then, is of faith, that everything, the very least, or what seems to us great, every change of the seasons, everything which touches us in mind, body, or estate, whether brought about through this outward senseless nature, or by the will of man, good or bad, is overruled to each of us by the all-holy and all-loving will of God. Whatever befalls us, however it befalls us, we must receive as the will of God. If it befalls us through man’s negligence, or ill-will, or anger, still it is, in even the least circumstance, to us the will of God. For if the least thing could happen to us without God’s permission, it would be something out of God’s control. God’s providence or His love would not be what they are. Almighty God Himself would not be the same God; not the God whom we believe, adore, and love.” – E.B. Pusey, 1800-1882

    371. Fun chatting with friends and family at the church picnic yesterday

  59. Paula says:

    372.God will guard me and keep me in perfect and constant peace as my mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on Him, because I commit himself to Him, lean on Him, and hope confidently in Him. (From Is 26:3)

    373. Sufficient grace for each day and all that is ahead

  60. Paula says:

    374. ”I don’t have to know how to give Him the answer. I just have to give Him the problem. It has nothing to do with me – but with God.”
    375. “To me God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the people I rub shoulders with: which is CHRIST IN ME the hope of glory.” (From Col 1:27)
    376. “Everything God wants to do on the earth He will do through the prayers of His people. The praying life IS Christ. It is the life of Jesus Christ operating in me. I am His house.”
    377. By God’s enabling power, He is teaching me to live a life of prayer. Help me be a fast learner, Father!
    378. Michelle coming and being such a blessing

  61. Paula says:

    379. The truth is intercessory prayer to my great God is powerful beyond my wildest imagination and expectation. (“Now unto Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly ABOVE all I could ask or think…”) Help me, Lord not to be lazy in prayer! Help me, Father to turn all my concerns into one big prayer and stop wasting time worrying. Please forgive me for my anxious thoughts! Help me to be a prayer warrior for the needs of others as well as myself. I want to personally see You move the mountains that You want to move through prayer!
    380. This afternoon I have a very fun adventure I’ve been invited to: the gift of pampering with fellow breast cancer survirors: a manicure, pedicure, and my wig styled. I’ll be attending the kid’s speech and debate club with them tonite in style.

  62. Paula says:

    381. 7 year old William Farris’ psalm that he wrote after his house and belongings burned to the ground.

    “Who can face a Tyrannosaurus Rex? The Lord.”
    Through wind and rain Through fire and lava
    The Lord will never leave you.
    Through earthquakes and floods Through changing sea levels and
    burning ash
    The Lord will never leave you.
    If you love Him, He will bless you
    and He will give you many things.
    Who can change the Lord’s words?
    Who can stop the Leviathan?
    The Lord, of course.
    Who made everything?
    Who made the animals?
    Who made the dinosaurs?
    The Lord, our God.
    Who can stop the Lord?
    Who can chase a cheetah across the
    plains of Africa?
    The Lord, He can.
    Who can stand on Mount
    Everest?
    Who can face a rhinoceros?
    The Lord.
    The Lord can give you sheep and
    goats and cows and ducks and chickens and dogs and cats.
    The Lord can give you anything He
    wants to.
    Just like David fought Goliath or
    Daniel lived throughout the lions’ den.
    Just like Moses on the mountain,
    just like the Israelites fought the Jebusites.
    The Lord will never stop His
    power.
    Who can face a tyrannosaurus rex?
    Who knows what kind of animals
    lived thousands of years ago?
    The Lord! He knows.
    Stop all the evil, and be kind to
    one another.
    Who can stop the Lord?
    Who can face an elephant?
    Who is brave enough to face a
    lion?
    The Lord.
    Who’s as fast as a horse?
    Who can catch a blue whale?
    Who is brave enough to face a
    giant squid?
    The Lord.
    Just as Jesus died on the cross,
    so the Lord had done so.
    The Lord will never leave His
    people. The Bible is His word.
    The Lord is a good leader.
    Just as Moses and Aaron led the Israelites
    into the desert, so the Lord had done so.
    Who can see the dinosaurs? Who can
    face the behemoth?
    The Lord who loves you.
    And He will not forsake His
    people. The end.

    382. Yesterday’s lovely gift of pampering: the scalp and hand massage, my make up done, my wig re-styled, the sweet time with fellow breast cancer survivors, all the women with such huge, giving hearts that made it possible
    383. “Feed my fears, and my faith will starve. Feed my faith, and my fears will.” I will feed my faith today and every day.
    384. The Lord is my portion, says my soul, therefore I will hope in Him.
    385. His mercies never come to an end: they are new every morning.
    386. Great is His faithfulness.
    387. The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.
    388. “God does not want us to be like greenhouse plants, which are sheltered from rough weather, but like storm-beaten oaks; not like sand dunes that are driven back and forth by every gust of wind but like granite mountains that withstand the fiercest storms. Yet to accomplish this, He must take us into His testing room of suffering. And many of us need no other argument than our own experiences to prove that suffering is indeed God’s testing room of faith.” J.H. M. (Streams in the Desert) Father, please make me an oak, like a granite mountain while I am here in this testing room of suffering, this testing room of faith!
    389.”He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelation 21:4

  63. Paula says:

    390. A precious family to love and be loved by

    391. All thanks and praise to my God for Whom there are no impossibilities, only limitless possibilities

    392. Bit by bit gleaning eternal perspective: the hard stuff about the trials I go through “that make no sense in this life but will make perfect sense in the next. The proof: me in the womb” … “But what if this earth is the womb?” (Max Lucado)

    393. Many recent lessons in the sweetness of “Giving thanks to God anyways… always … in everything.” (Voskamp)

    394. Learning to “make friends with whatever is next” (Fearless by Max Lucado)

    395. God opening my eyes to see Him scheduling and making me available for Divine Appointments

  64. Paula says:

    396. I only need to look in the Bible and the world around me to see that “God has hung his diplomas in the universe. Rainbows, sunsets, horizons, and star sequined skies. He has recorded his accomplishments in Scripture. We’re not talking six thousand hours of flight time. His resume includes Red Sea openings. Lions’ mouths closings. Goliath topplings. Lazarus raisings. Storm stillings and strollings. “(Max Lucado) I am in excellent Hands!

    397. The true story of Karla Faye Tucker in the movie ,Forevermore that we saw last night http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0485775/ Wow. NOBODY is too hard for God to make brand new.

  65. Paula says:

    398. “When I am going through a trial where I am simply waiting for an answer, He is there. If I find myself painfully thrust into the refiners fire over and over again as I pray for an end to the hurt, He is there. If I find myself in a vast and lonely ocean, fighting waves of despair and hopelessness, as I use all my strength just to keep my head above the water, no matter the trial, no matter the pain, my Saviour is still there. He stands quietly with me feeling my present pain, understanding my present yearning, and seeing my present need and he stands there with two quarters is his pocket. As our Lord passes with me through the fire and water, I remember he also stands there with me in my future deliverance, my future healing, and my future blessing, and knowing all and seeing all, his hand remains where it rest and he lovingly and with omniscience withholds the “good” so that he can eventually give me of his best.”
    (Putting quote by Jody in the first person as a good gift from God to me today http://justwateringcamels.blogspot.com/2009/01/two-quarters-and-lesson.html )

    399. Delicious surprise dinner from K.H. waiting for us last night after we were gone all day. What a blessing!

    400. I praise God for every uneventful, smooth IV infusion of Herceptin. Father, please make it put every last cancer cell to sleep with that drug and protect my heart functioning and the rest of me while it is doing it’s work

    401. One of my favorite nurses, Kelley, taking care of me yesterday

    402. “Jesus knows me, this I love.” (Dawn telling me about the sign in her home–love it!)

  66. Paula says:

    403. Music that blessed me this morning:
    http://www.facebook.com/ahymnaweek Be Still My Soul
    http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=2515220877359#!/video/video.php?v=2515220877359 O the Deep, Deep Love of Jesus

    404.”Learning to pray is learning to trust the wisdom, the power, and the love of our Heavenly Father, always so far beyond our dreams. He knows our need and knows ways to meet it that have never entered our heads. Things we feel sure we need for happiness may often lead to our ruin. Things we think will ruin us — if we believe what the Father tells us and surrender ourselves into His strong arms, bring us deliverance and joy.” ~Elisabeth Elliot

    405. I will “tell the negative committee that meets in my head to sit down and shut up” and listen to God instead.

    406. NTM HQ Staff Appreciation Dinner last night: fun time, privilege to have served Him in this ministry for the last 20 years

    407. Protection of Landy, Kelley, and kids in kitchen fire yesterday

    408.”And I’ll praise you in this storm and I will lift my hands for You are who You are no matter where I am, and every tear I’ve cried You hold in your hand , You never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm” (Casting Crowns)

    409. I will “Never forget that some of God’s greatest mercies are His refusals. He says “no” in order that He may, in ways we cannot imagine, say “yes.”All His ways with us are merciful. His meaning is always love.” (Elisabeth Elliot)

    410. Lamentations 3:21-26

    Yet I still dare to hope
    when I remember this:
    The faithful love of the Lord never ends!

    His mercies never cease.
    Great is his faithfulness;
    his mercies begin afresh each morning.
    I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance;
    therefore, I will hope in him!”

    The Lord is good to those who depend on him,
    to those who search for him.
    So it is good to wait quietly
    for salvation from the Lord.

  67. Paula says:

    411. In Your strength, I will follow, All the way. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ekUELQCnQlM
    412. I will use my new “word for the day” and personalize it along with Elizabeth Elliot and Doug Hammarskjold. “The woman who is challenged by the tough things God allows in life like cancer does not take umbrage at the terms. Compared to the rewards promised for following Him, these trials ae nothing. Any terms at all are acceptable if we may be permitted to walk with Him, even through the Valley of the Shadow of Death.” Pleae help me to APPLY this word to my thoughts and actions, Lord. ONLY in You is it possible not to take umbrage at all this.
    413″In the world I do have and will have tribulation; but I choose to be of good cheer [cheer up, Paula Girl!] Jesus has overcome the world” (Jn 16:33).

  68. Paula says:

    414. I’m grateful that I can get radiation out of the way early each day, it’s only 10 minutes up the road instead of an hour away like the IV infusions at the oncologist’s, and it’s a quick, in-and-out type thing. Please make it effective, Lord!

    415. My “faith in God today is my lifeline to His heartbeat. Faith is the hand that reaches up and takes hold of God’s promises and gathers in the spiritual treasures that are found in Christ. Faith sees the sunshine of God’s face, even when there are dark clouds all around.” (Roy Lessin)

    416. Everything I am going through here on earth is only temporary…being with God in Heaven is forever.

    417. Hannah got to go to the Renaissance Fair with a friend yesterday and had a great time

    418. Joy and Nicholas’ marked improvements in their speeches in Debate Club last night

    419. The radiation prep doodles reminding me of the chuckle I got from this cartoon years ago : http://www.flickr.com/photos/gluv/298864264/

  69. Paula says:

    420. I surrender ALL.

    421. I am grateful to be His little lamb and snuggling up in the arms of my loving Shepherd

  70. Paula says:

    422. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtL2GUE1RS4 The song, “When I look into Your holiness” was a blessing to me this morning
    423. Thank You Lord for 30 rounds of radiation beginning today. I will take it by faith that it is a good gift from You.
    424. Psalm 91

  71. Paula says:

    425. My friends Sonia and Linda’s example to me of their memorizing many, many passages of Scripture: entire chapters, Psalms, even whole books of the Bible if I remember correctly. They have challenged the children and I over the years to make memorization and meditation of God’s Word a part of our lives. What a blessing! I am thankful for the verses I’ve memorized and desire to do more.
    426. Ruminating on Ephesians 3:14-21
    427. Sharon accompanying me to radiation Monday and Tuesday–great fellowship and prayer together!
    428. Thanksgiving for the prayers and encouragement of dear folks.

  72. Paula says:

    429.Martina McBride’s song: “I’m gonna love you through it” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYNOXRifXKQ&ob=av2e
    430. Whenever I lack wisdom, I can ask my generous God who will give wisdom to me liberally and without reproach (James 1:9)
    431 Happy am I who finds wisdom and joyful am I who gains understanding; For wisdom’s proceeds to me are better than the profits of silver,
    And her gain than fine gold. She is more precious to me than rubies, And all the things I may desire cannot compare with her. (Prov 3:5-6)

  73. Paula says:

    432. If you saw me without a hat you can still see clear through to my scalp but I am thanking God for the new sprouts of fine, soft hair that is now shooting straight up like a baby’s does. I am so grateful that I won’t always look like a bald guy when my hat or wig is off. 🙂 Right now it looks like I’ll be a salt and pepper gal–perhaps mostly salt, it’s still so short I’m not sure. Thank YOU Lord for whatever new hair you give me.
    433. Hooray that I’ll get a brand new body in Heaven and this is not my real home. Lord, help me LIVE as a faithful AMBASSiDOR FOR CHRIST.
    434. “…with the sacrifice of praise, the very hindrances to joy become the soil out of which joy blossoms.” (Elizabeth George) Thank You for putting a song of praise to You in my heart, Lord.

  74. Paula says:

    435. My son Nicholas keeping us up to date with political affairs

    436. A fun time with the Pierces and Debbie Friday night

    437. By prayer daily toil is sanctified and enriched, and pardon is secured, and Satan is defeated! Prayer has all the force of God in it. Prayer can get anything which God has. Thus prayer has all of its plea and its claim in the name of Jesus Christ, and there is nothing too good or great for God to give that name. God’s children pray. They ask Him for all things – for everything. Answered prayer brings God near, and assures men of His being. None are so needy as man, none are so able and anxious to supply every need and any need as God…Prayer forms the very center of the heart and will of God concerning men. ”(EM Bounds)

    438. I, Paula, will ‘Rejoice evermore, pray without ceasing, and in everything give thanks. For this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for concerning ME.’

  75. Paula says:

    439. Thank You my dear Heavenly Father that You are also my Abba Father, my Dad, my Papa, my Daddy…and I am Your child. I love You!

  76. Paula says:

    440. 1 Samuel 16:7″… The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
    441. How I enjoy flowers! Thank You Lord for Ruth sharing Mums to plant in my garden and for the ones recently gracing my table: Linda blessing me with roses from her bush, Nita leaving her purple zebra-striped beauties from her yard by my door, Dana brining a pretty bouquet when they joined us for dinner. Flowers make me smile both when I give them and receive them. Thank You Lord and thank you, friends!

    442. Lavish love and forgiveness.

    443. Fresh starts. God will always give us another chance to try again and do things His way (sage wisdom per Kathy H :0) )

  77. Paula says:

    444. New friends with sweet children over for dinner last night

    445. “I will give thanks to the Lord with all my heart; I will tell of all Thy wonders. I will be glad and exult in Thee; I will sing praise to Thy name, O Most High.” ~~~ Psalm 9:1-2
    God showers me with His love and has done SO much for me, no wonder I am glad!

    446. Refreshing time of prayer with Nancy when she brought over cookies for our family yesterday

    447. Ruth L sharing this lovely song and the history behind it: http://www.christiancyberministries.org/ccmTube/2011.11.10.htm

    448. The Lord is a kind father to me, his beloved daughter; tender and compassionate always. He knows what I am made of. My days on earth are like grass, like a wildflower, I will bloom and die. (from Psalm 103:13-15) May I bloom for Your pleasure and honor, Lord before You take me Home!

    449. Esther M blessing me with this very beautiful quote:

    “How good it would be if we could learn that God is easy to live with. He remembers our frame and knows that we are dust. He may sometimes chasten us, it is true, but even this He does with a smile, the proud, tender smile of a Father who is bursting with pleasure over an imperfect but promising son who is coming every day to look more and more like the One whose child he is.
    Some of us are religiously jumpy and self-conscious because we know that God sees our every thought and is acquainted with all our ways. We need not be. God is the sum of all patience and the essence of kindly good will. We please Him most, not by frantically trying to make ourselves good, but by throwing ourselves into His arms with all our imperfections, and believing that He understands everything and loves us still.” – The Root of the Righteous – A.W. Tozer

  78. Paula says:

    450. The blessing of Esther D sending me this wonderful quote by Spurgeon: (Praise You Lord that I have two friends named Esther who send me great quotes!!!)

    “Faith untried may be true faith, but it is sure to be little faith, and it is likely to remain dwarfish so long as it is without trials. Faith never prospers so well as when all things are against her: tempests are her trainers, and lightnings are her illuminators. When a calm reigns on the sea, spread the sails as you will, the ship moves not to its harbour; for on a slumbering ocean the keel sleeps too. Let the winds rush howling forth, and let the waters lift up themselves, then, though the vessel may rock, and her deck may be washed with waves, and her mast may creak under the pressure of the full and swelling sail, it is then that she makes headway towards her desired haven. No flowers wear so lovely a blue as those which grow at the foot of the frozen glacier; no stars gleam so brightly as those which glisten in the polar sky; no water tastes so sweet as that which springs amid the desert sand; and no faith is so precious as that which lives and triumphs in adversity. Tried faith brings experience. You could not have believed your own weakness had you not been compelled to pass through the rivers; and you would never have known God’s strength had you not been supported amid the water-floods. Faith increases in solidity, assurance, and intensity, the more it is exercised with tribulation. Faith is precious, and its trial is precious too.

    Let not this, however, discourage those who are young in faith. You will have trials enough without seeking them: the full portion will be measured out to you in due season. Meanwhile, if you cannot yet claim the result of long experience, thank God for what grace you have; praise him for that degree of holy confidence whereunto you have attained: walk according to that rule, and you shall yet have more and more of the blessing of God, till your faith shall remove mountains and conquer impossibilities.”http://www.heartlight.org/spurgeon/1112-am.html

  79. Paula says:

    451. “In commanding us to glorify Him, God is inviting us to enjoy Him.”—C. S. Lewis

    452. Romans 15:4 “Such things were written in the Scriptures long ago to teach us. And the Scriptures give us hope and encouragement as we wait patiently for God’s promises to be fulfilled”.

    453. Nicholas got to job shadow the Mayor yesterday and attend some great programs on leadership with him-wonderful opportunity that God orchestrated.

  80. Paula says:

    454. After this morning’s radiation I will be 1/3rd of the way done with 20 more treatments to go.

  81. Paula says:

    454.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duGBIPEusks&feature=share “Be Still My Soul”

    455. Fun time yesterday with family over for early Thanksgiving meal on our porch

    456. 5 more radiation treatments and then I will be half done

    457. More energy from better sleep the last few nights

    458. First two appointments last week with a new therapist for my arm using a different approach: renewed hope that maybe in time God will reduce or eliminate the tourniquet sensation in my arm from disrupted nerves and lymph nodes

    459. Gleaned perspective about living with chronic pain and disappointment God’s way from Joni Ereckson Tada’s example as I read her books

    460. Words of wisdom from my friend for me to remember and apply: “…that during a difficult year, the Lord kept reminding me that I already had ALL the GRACE I needed in Christ Jesus…after all, He is the God of ALL GRACE…what I needed to do each time that I needed that GRACE was to CHOOSE to take it…to stand strong in it (as Paul commanded Timothy)…to come to the throne room of GRACE for mercy and grace in every time of need…as I keep doing that, I will grow in grace…”

    461. My friend praying through Ps 42, 43 for me when I was feeling these emotions in the Psalms last week. God is answering these prayers :”I long for you, O God. I thirst for [You], the living God…my heart is breaking…Why am I discouraged? Why so sad? I will put my hope [confident expectation] in [You], God…my Savior and my God!…I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember your kindness…through each day [You] Lord pour [Your] unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing [Your] songs, praying to [You] God who gives me life [Who IS my Life!]O God my rock, I cry…why am I discouraged? Why so sad? I will put my hope [my confident expectation] in [You] God…my Savior and my God!” “O God…you are God, my only safe haven…send out your light and your truth; let them guide me. Let them lead me…to [You] God, the source of all my joy…I will put my hope [confidence] in [You] God…my Savior and my God.”

    462. My hair is growing, my hair is growing, praise the Lord, my hair is growing! Many men have permanent baldness. I am so grateful that mine is temporary.

  82. Paula says:

    463. http://www.clarrissegill.com/videoclips/amazing_grace.php 4 tenors singing: yes, Lord, Your grace IS amazing!
    464. “Whenever Satan reminds me of my past, I can remind him of his future.”
    465. Anticipation of trip to S.C. to see family and friends this Friday through next Tuesday–like a hug from the Lord coming up
    466. ” I will let the peace and soul harmony which comes from Christ rule and act as umpire continually in my heart, deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in my mind. I will let the peace of Christ keep me in tune with Him and other people. None of this going off and doing my own thing. I will let the peace that Christ control my thinking and actions, dwelling in me in all it’s richness. In that peaceful state to which as members of Christ’s one body I was also called to live, I will cultivate thankfulness and appreciation in my life, giving praise to God always. I will let the Word of Christ have the run of the house, His message being completely at home in my heart and mind. God wants His kids to teach and admonish and train one another in all insight and intelligence and wisdom in spiritual things. I will sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, making melody to God with His grace in my heart. Yes, I will sing, sing my heart out to God! I will let every detail in my life—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way. (Personalizing Col 3:15,16 using different versions)
    467. Here’s somebody that inspires me: no arms, no legs…no worries-Nick Vujicic http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SjbX6mDnMwM
    468. Beth coming over for lunch today: hooray!

  83. Paula says:

    469.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSM1mvMypWU Follow up for me and Junior in our football games (excellent!)

  84. Paula says:

    470. On this Thanksgiving Day 2011, I will shout with joy to the Lord, along with all the earth! I will worship the Lord with gladness. I will come before Him, singing with joy. I acknowledge that the Lord is God! He made me, and I am His. I am His child, a sheep of His pasture. I will enter His gates with thanksgiving; and go into His courts with praise. I will give thanks to Him and praise His name. For the Lord is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and His faithfulness continues to each generation. Psalm 100 NLT for me

  85. Paula says:

    471. “If we have the Lord Jesus, we have all–without Him, we have nothing. You can be happy without money, without liberty, without parents, and without friends, if He is yours. If you have not Christ, neither money, nor liberty, nor parents, nor friends can make you happy. Christ, with a chain, is liberty; liberty without Christ is a chain. Christ without anything is riches–all things, without Christ, is poverty indeed.”
    — William H. Hewitson, 1846

    472. “There is no greater life and purpose than to live in communion with, and dependence upon, our great God. All things are from Him, through Him, and to Him (Romans 11:36), and to live our lives without giving Him the preeminence in all things is to be content with second best and to fail to live out the purpose for which we have been redeemed. 2 Corinthians 5:15, from the Amplified Version, says it well: “And He died for all, so that all those who live might live no longer to and for themselves, but to and for Him who died and was raised again for their sake.” Paul says it another way in 1 Corinthians 8:6: “Yet for us there is one God, the Father, and we exist for Him…” (Danny writing from prison Nov 2011)

    473. In Christ I am ruled by peace and rooted in joy http://www.truewoman.com/?id=1935

    474. Psalm 46: 1-3 GOD IS our Refuge and Strength [mighty and impenetrable to temptation], a very present and well-proved help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains be shaken into the midst of the seas, Though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling and tumult. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!
    475. I fly out to S.C. tonite–gone til Tuesday night. Thank You Lord for this special gift of physical, spiritual, and emotional rest and refreshment! 🙂

  86. Paula says:

    476. “How smooth, oh, stone of the sandy beach; How silken and curved in my hand! How long have you traveled these fretful waves Till you came to this quiet sand? And how many times, oh, how many times Did the wild waves toss you high? And plunge you fiercely against the land, While the thunders filled the sky? How many times did the lifting swell Deposit you far on the shore, Then drag you, and roll you, and rub you along In friction forevermore? Ah! You are a stone; and the ceaseless pound And the grinding that knows no end Can cause no pain in your adamant heart. You yielded and yielded again, Till now, in the contour of loveliness You are sculpted so round and so fair. On the windswept beach I stand in awe Of the One who has flung you there. Oh, Father of waters! Oh, Sculptor divine, My heart, it is not a stone! And the tossings and tumblings of life are pain; Yet, help me Thy wisdom to own; To yield to Thy waters, Thy polishing hand, The ache to commit unto Thee; Till I shall be found as a gemstone indeed, A marvel beside Thy sea.” —By Lois Kempton

    477. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_B581Y7-P_E
    Hymn: Jesus Savior Pilot Me

    478. http://lifetoday.org/video/wrecked-but-not-ruined-part-4/ ”Constant Suspense/Constant Certainty” link by Beth Moore from Rose

    479. Wonderful, refreshing time with friends and family in S.C.

    480. The blessing of memorizing Jer 9:23-24 and listening to the book “A Place of Healing” with Sonia and Linda

    481. “Father, here is my will. You know that I have a will and expectations in every matter, but I choose to lay my will down and not settle for anything less than Your wonderful will. I trust Your love for me and Your wisdom in this situation. Not my will, but Yours, be done.”–Unknown

    482. Good news on Maryn’s path report

  87. Paula says:

    483. http://www.godvine.com/Daves-Highway-Sings-Amazing-Grace-My-Chains-are-Gone-369.html

    484.

    “God loved me before I was born
    His arms were around me before I ever knew my mother’s embrace
    I am in His thoughts a thousand times over
    He loves me from the heights and from the depths of His being
    His love covers me today with grace
    I live in the atmosphere of His love and inhale it with every breath of my spirit”
    –Roy Lessin

    485. Barb introducing me to the humor of Pickles

    486.Jesus is my Bread of Life. I come to Him and I will never be hungry. I believe in Him and cleave to Him and trust in Him and rely on Him and have faith in Him. I will never thirst any more (at any time). Never. (Personalizing John 6:35 using different translations)

    487. Jesus satisfies the deepest longings of my soul

    488. “Cancer is a word, not a sentence.” (Unknown) The truth is I will not die one single second before God has ordained. He thought me up before the foundation of the world and my days on earth are numbered by HIM, not cancer. I am in Good Hands because I am His child and am snug as a bug in a rug , knowing He is ALWAYS up to good in my life. Always and no matter what. Circumstances and emotions will not dictate my reality: the Word of God does. 🙂

  88. Paula says:

    489. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-F6DGGF4Qs
    “Your Hands”–I love this song. It’s one of my new favorites.

    490.”God is not disillusioned with me because He had no illusions about me in the first place.”–Coates

    491.
    “My dearly loved Child,
    I have loved you with an everlasting love. I have drawn you with living kindness. You are the apple of My eye. I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands. No longer will they call you deserted for I will rejoice over you. I will take great delight in you; I will quiet you with My love, and I will rejoice over you with singing. I will gather you into my arms and carry you close to my heart.

    I do not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men. I thought you would call me “Father” and not turn away from following Me. For I know the thoughts and the plans I have for you plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

    Come unto Me and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. My presence will go with you and I will give you rest. I am with you when you are with me. If you seek Me, I will be found by you. I go before you and will be with you; I will never, no never, no, never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

    Look! I have been standing at the door and I am constantly knocking. If anyone hears Me calling him and opens the door, I will come in and fellowship with him and he with Me.

    For I, the Lord your God, am a sun and shield; I bestow favor and honor. No good thing do I withhold form those who walk uprightly. If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given you. Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you and you will honor Me. I am the helper of the fatherless. I will deal with all who oppressed you I am close to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit. Before you call I will answer; while you are yet speaking, I will hear. Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Though you are surrounded by troubles, I will bring you safely through them. I will clench My fist against your angry enemies.

    Let me have all your worries and cares, for I am always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are numbered. Fear not, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed; I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will uphold you with my victorious right hand. Now you don’t need to be afraid, for I have ransomed you; I have called you by name; you are mine. Now you don’t need to be afraid of the dark anymore, nor fear the dangers of the day; nor dread the plagues of darkness, nor disasters in the morning. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, your Savior, the holy One of Israel. The mountains may depart and the hills disappear, but My kindness shall not leave you. My promise of peace for you will never be broken.

    If your father and your mother should forsake you, I, the Lord, will take you up. I will not leave you as an orphan; I will come to you. Can a mother forget her little child and not have love for her own son? Yet even if that should be, I will not forget you. I am the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort. No mere man has ever seen, heard or even imagined what wonderful things I have ready for those who love Me.

    Now you are no longer a stranger to Me and a foreigner to heaven, but you are a member of My very own family, a citizen of My country, and you belong in My household with every other Christian. And so you should not be like a cringing, fearful slave, but you should behave like My very own child, adopted into the bosom of My family and calling to Me, “Abba, Father.” For My Holy Spirit speaks to you deep in your heart and tells you that you really are My child. And since you are My child, you will share My treasures for all I give to My Son, Jesus, is now yours too. He who overcomes will inherit all of this and I will be his God, and he will be My son.

    With My unfailing love,
    Your Father”

    (Letter using Scripture written by Glenda Reves)

    492. I am sick with a flu andfighting it with a low white blood count. I am blessed with simple comforts like a snuggly bathrobe, comfortable bed, the house was peaceful and quiet yesterday, Hannah happily jucing up carrots for me and cleaning up the mess, John patiently finding a pharmacy that carries the perscription oncologist ordered and also bringing back carnations for me, Joy cheerfully pitching in keeping things going with the running of the household while I rest and sleep. Happy that Nicholas gets to have this fun time with relatives in N.C.

  89. Paula says:

    492. God’s Relationship With Me
    From the book Taking Every Thought Captive by Alaine Pakkala

    God wants to have an intimate relationship with me.
    The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3

    God knows everything about me and He still loves me.
    O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar offIf I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. Psalm 139:1-2, 9-10

    God’s love for me is not influenced by anything I ever did or ever will do.
    Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. I John 4:10

    The creator of the universe loves me.
    Even as [in His love] He chose us [actually picked us our for Himself as His own] in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love. For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will [because it pleased Him and was kind intent] Ephesians 1:4-5 Amp.

    God is in control of everything in my life.
    But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold. Job 23:10

    God never makes a mistake.
    As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him. Psalm 18:30

    God understands fully even when no one else does.
    And she called the name of the Lord that spake unto her, Thou God seest me: Genesis 16:13

    God has a plan for the crooked places.
    But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring it to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive. Genesis 50:20

    I am important to God.
    How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. Psalm 139:17-18

    God wants to help me today.
    Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of righteousness and justice. Isaiah 41:10 Amp.

    I am not alone.
    If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. Psalm 139:9-10

    God is on my side.
    The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? Psalm 118:6

    God always makes the right decisions.
    Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 Amp.

    God is a good and righteous judge.
    But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.

    God hates sin.
    But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea. Matthew 18:6

    God spares me from His wrath because of what Christ did on the cross for me.
    But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

    God has realistic expectations of me today.
    Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in hart; and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

    God accepts me.
    Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. Psalm 139:16

    God forgives me when I sin.
    I have blotted out, as a thick cloud, thy transgressions, and as a cloud, thy sins: return unto me; for I have redeemed. Isaiah 44:22

    God knows when I am trying to follow Him and He is pleased.
    A bruised reed shall he not break, and the smoking flax shall he not quench: he shall bring forth judgment unto truth. Isaiah 42:3

    God really loves me.
    In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. I John 4:9

    God hides me in the shadow of His wings.
    He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: Psalm 91:4a

    God has good things planned for my life.
    For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

    God is concerned with meeting my physical, spiritual, and emotional needs.
    But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

    God knows all the “what ifs” of my life.
    Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them. Psalm 119:165

    God knows when I am overwhelmed.
    Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14

    God collects my tears. He weeps with me.
    Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book? Psalm 56:8

    God enjoys me.
    The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty: he will save he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing. Zephaniah 3:3

    God thinks that I am precious.
    You were bought with a price [purchased with a preciousness and paid for, made His own]. So then, honor God and bring glory to Him in your body. I Corinthians 6:20 Amp.

    God has adopted me as His child.
    When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up. Psalm 27:10

    God loves me with an everlasting love.
    Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3b

    God feels compassion towards me.
    He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young. Isaiah 40:11

    God wants to bless me.
    The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O Lord endureth forever: Psalm 138:8a

    God sees everything and hears when I pray.
    Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22

    God knows all about me, even my secret thoughts.
    Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite. Psalm 147:5

    God calls me His beloved.
    Put on therefore as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering; Colossians 3:12

    God chose me and brought me close to Himself.
    Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by right hand. Psalm 73:23

    God protects me.
    The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. Psalm 121:7

    (I am going back through my blog before I began counting my 1000 gift gratefulness list and finding some nuggets God blessed me with on this journey and adding them into my list now)

    493. Psalm 18:1-6 (Passage Esther D. and I memorized together when starting the Gerson Therapy)
    1 I love you, LORD, my strength.

    2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
    my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
    my shield[b] and the horn[c] of my salvation, my stronghold.

    3 I called to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
    and I have been saved from my enemies.
    4 The cords of death entangled me;
    the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
    5 The cords of the grave coiled around me;
    the snares of death confronted me. 6 In my distress I called to the LORD;
    I cried to my God for help.
    From his temple he heard my voice;
    my cry came before him, into his ears.

    494. This is the verse that has most often been in my mind in 2011: ”My soul, my soul, wait thou only upon God, for my expectation is found in Thee alone”

    496. “Today, will I surrender my fears, my future, my what ifs, my life to the God of the heavens? The sovereign one with whom there are no accidents. With whom truth gives way, shining its light on the very core of my fears. With whom His very Word, that which we can hold in our fingertips, and take into the inner places of our beings…..brings hope, love, truth, comfort, encouragement, courage, forgiveness, healing, strength and endurance…and the ability to surrender to Him.” By Stacy at http://hiswaynotmine.blogspot.com/

    497. http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/taste-see-articles/dont-waste-your-cancer
    This article has done me a world of good this year

    498. Back in Feb I journalled: ”At times I feel like I am drowning and huge waves are crashing over my head, one after another and when I can come up for air and get a breath, I am hollering out to God to “ H-E-L-P! I am so afraid! Please save me, Lord!”

    Oh my dear, precious Father-I can say now from experience YOU surely are my Lifeboat in the crashing waves around me. You are right here in the ocean with me in the midst of the storm. YOU are my guiding Lighhouse. You are my strong Tower, my Rock, my strength, my help, my salvation, my all in all, my Everything.

    499. Nancy Louise introducing me to the funny Glasbergen cartoons

  90. Paula says:

    500. I will not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, I will present my requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. (from Phil 4:6-7)

    501. And my God will meet all my needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. (from Phil 4:19)

    502.Disappointment –His Appointment
    http://www.homemakerscorner.com/appoint.htm

    “Disappointment — His Appointment”
    Change one letter, then I see
    That the thwarting of my purpose
    Is God’s better choice for me.
    His appointment must be blessing,
    Tho’ it may come in disguise,
    For the end from the beginning
    Open to His wisdom lies.

    “Disappointment — His Appointment”
    Whose? The Lord, who loves me best,
    Understands and knows me fully,
    Who my faith and love would test;
    For, like loving earthly parent,
    He rejoices when He knows
    That His child accepts, UNQUESTIONED,
    All that from His wisdom flows.

    “Disappointment — His Appointment”
    “No good thing will He withhold,”
    From denials oft we gather
    Treasures of His love untold,
    Well He knows each broken purpose
    Leads to fuller, deeper trust,
    And the end of all His dealings
    Proves our God is wise and just.

    “Disappointment — His Appointment”
    Lord, I take it, then, as such.
    Like the clay in hands of potter,
    Yielding wholly to Thy touch.
    All my life’s plan in Thy moulding,
    Not one single choice be mine;
    Let me answer, unrepining —
    “Father, not my will, but Thine.”

    Edith Lillian Young

    Job 23:14 For he performeth the thing that is appointed for me:
    and many such things are with him.

    503. “Sometimes on the Rock I tremble
    Weak of heart and faint of knee,
    But the Steadfast Rock of Ages
    Never trembles under me.”(Unknown)

    504. “The will of God has taken me
    where the grace of God can keep me,
    where the arms of God can support me,
    where the riches of God can supply my needs,
    where the power of God can give me strength.
    The will of God has taken me
    where the Spirit of God can work through me,
    where the wisdom of God can teach me,
    where the arm of God can protect me,
    where the hands of God can mold me.
    The will of God has taken me
    where the love of God can surround me,
    where the mercies of God can sustain me,
    where the peace of God can calm my fears,
    where the authority of God can overrule for me.
    The will of God has taken me
    where the comfort of God can dry my tears,
    where the Word of God can feed me,
    where the miracles of God can be done for me,
    where the omnipresence of God can find me.”

    (Unknown)

  91. Paula says:

    503. Yesterday marked my “2/3rds done with radiation, just 1/3rd to go milestone”. As of 12/8/11 I’ve completed 20 treatments: 10 more to go. Wahoooooooooo for progress! Yipeeeeeee for God giving me grace and strength in this battle against cancer. Hooray that God can make a mastectomy, chemo, and radiation effective if that’s His best choice for me. God can do ANYTHING. God can do EVERYTHING. NOTHING is too hard for Him… ABSOLUTELY nothing. IN CHRIST I am a victorious overcomer.

    504. Thank You Lord that there are no signs of cancer in my remaining right breast on the one-sided mammogram I had yesterday. I sure do appreciate that. Thank You Lord for a healthy right breast. Thank You Lord that I can completely give You the loss of my left breast along with those 11 lymph nodes and the disrupted nerves. Every cell in my body is YOURS.

    I am pulling out some of the quotes and “nuggets” God gave me during my jounalling my journey in 2011 and am counting them now in my 1000 Gifts gratefulness list as I reflect over God’s goodness to me this year.

    505.

    How I need God’s grace and help!

    Will I walk by faith or by sight through this? I choose faith.

    Will I walk in the Spirit or in the flesh? I choose to walk in the Spirit.

    Will I trust in the Lord and not lean on my own understanding, even when so many things appear out of control and so awful? Yes, I will choose to trust Him. HE IS IN CONTROL.

    506.

    Ephesians 3:20

    20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us (NKJV)

    20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us (NIV)

    20Now to Him Who, by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly, far over and above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]– (Amplified)

    20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. (NLT)

    20-21God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. (The Message)

    20 To him who by means of his power working in us is able to do so much more than we can ever ask for, or even think of: (Good News)

    507.
    1. “Wars are fought strategically. one battle at a time.
    2 . Wars are fought on more than one front.
    3. We must expect setbacks and defeats along the way.
    4. When we lose a battle, we must get back on track immediately, so we don’t lose the war.
    5. We will not win if we refuse to fight.”
    ——Carole Lewis

    508.
    My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in
    weakness. So, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so
    that the power of Christ may dwell in me…for whenever I am weak,
    then I am strong. 2 Cor 12: 9-10

    509.

    And my God will fully satisfy every need of yours according to His
    riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:19

    510.

    Personalizing Psalm 100

    Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth, worship the Lord with
    gladness; come before Him with joyful song.

    I CHOOSE to worship my Lord with gladness and joyfulness. It is a
    choice that does not depend on my circumstances or emotions. He is
    worthy of my thankful heart because of WHO HE IS. He can a put a song
    in my heart even when I don’t feel like singing, when I just feel like
    crying. He can help me to sing in worship to Him.

    Know that the LORD is God, it is He who made us, and we are HIS; we
    are his people, the sheep of His pasture.

    He is our Creator. He owns us. He is God and I am not. He can use
    His sheep’s lives however He chooses. It is His right. I am not my
    own. My husband and my children are His, they belong to Him.
    Everybody and everything is His. My Shepherd is loving and kind and
    good. Always. He knows what’s best for His sheep even when that
    means heartache for a season that we might grow more dependent on Him.

    Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise; give
    thanks to Him and praise His name.

    I do thank You and praise You, my Savior.

    For the LORD is good and His love endures forever.

    What comfort to know that this is His character, this is His heart.
    His love and care are beyond measure and they last forever.

    His faithfulness continues through all generations.

    This is the truth. My God is utterly, absolutely faithful. His ways
    and plans, and timing are different than mine and they are perfect.
    It is my choice to rest in Him and trust Him and to be fully
    surrendered to Him. He understands this weak old heart that sometimes
    trembles in fear and in doubt. Sometimes I have to confess that I am
    worried and much afraid and heavy hearted over and over and He
    forgives my sin of worry, He understands my anxious nature, and takes
    me unto His lap to snuggle there for loving and rest. He hears my cry
    for help and comfort. He answers even though my human heart does not
    always hear or understand what He is saying. His answer is not always
    “yes” to my prayers. Sometimes He seems even silent. Sometimes it is
    a loving “no” or “wait on the Lord, be of good courage, My child”.
    What a wonderful, marvelous God we serve! I can trust Him completely.

    511.
    I thank You and praise You , my God. I yield my life to You for You
    to do with as You see fit. I cry out to You like my children cry out
    to me when they are hurting or afraid, or in some need and want me to
    pick them up and hold them close. I hand you my fears and doubts and
    every single one of my failures and sins. I agree with you about my
    sin, all the many places/ways I am wrong. I confess it and acknowledge
    all those things including the ones I know about and those I am
    oblivious to that are not pleasing to You. I am sorry, I turn from my
    sin and turn to You. I choose to allow You to do all You want to do
    in my heart.

    512. I will sing to the Lord all of my life; I will sing praise to my God
    as long as I live. May my meditation be pleasing to Him as I rejoice
    in the Lord. Psalm 104:33,34

    513. To You I call, O my Rock; do not turn a deaf ear to me. For if You
    remain silent, I will be like those who have gone down to the pit.
    Hear my cry for mercy as I call to You for help, as I lift up my hands
    toward Your most holy place. Psalm 28 1,2
    514.Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
    Psalm 27:14

    515. Show me Your ways O Lord, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth
    and teach me for You are God my Savior, and my hope is in You all day
    long. Psalm 25:4,5

    516. I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry. He
    lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; He set my
    feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song
    in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and
    put their trust in the Lord. Psalm 40:1-3

    517. But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and
    more. My mouth will tell of Your righteousness, of Your salvation all
    day long, though I know not it’s measure. I will come and proclaim
    Your mighty acts, O Sovereign Lord; I will proclaim Your
    righteousness, Yours alone Psalm 71: 14-16

    518.

    “Piper observed, “The common feature of the
    faith that escapes suffering and the faith that endures suffering is
    this: both of them involve believing that God Himself is better than
    what life can give to you now, and better than what death can take
    from you later.” All to say, no matter what comes our way in this
    life, God wants to be our TREASURE.

    519.

    “Faith is utterly in love with all that God will be for us beyond the
    grave. Faith loves God more than life. Faith loves God more than
    family. Faith loves God more than job or retirement plans or ministry
    or writing books or building the dream house or making the first
    million. Faith says, “Whether God handles me tenderly or gives me
    over to torture, I love him. He is my reward (Heb 11:6), the builder
    of the city I long for (11:10), the treasure beyond the riches of Egypt
    (11:26), and the possession that surpasses all others and abides for
    ever (10:34).” –Piper

    520. Matthew 11:28-30 28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

    521. 2 Corinthians 4:7-5:10 (New Living Translation)
    7 We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure.[a] This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.

    8 We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. 9 We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. 10 Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.

    11 Yes, we live under constant danger of death because we serve Jesus, so that the life of Jesus will be evident in our dying bodies. 12 So we live in the face of death, but this has resulted in eternal life for you.

    13 But we continue to preach because we have the same kind of faith the psalmist had when he said, “I believed in God, so I spoke.”[b] 14 We know that God, who raised the Lord Jesus,[c] will also raise us with Jesus and present us to himself together with you. 15 All of this is for your benefit. And as God’s grace reaches more and more people, there will be great thanksgiving, and God will receive more and more glory.

    16 That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are[d] being renewed every day. 17 For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! 18 So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.

    522. 2 Corinthians 5
    New Bodies
    1 For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands. 2 We grow weary in our present bodies, and we long to put on our heavenly bodies like new clothing. 3 For we will put on heavenly bodies; we will not be spirits without bodies.[e] 4 While we live in these earthly bodies, we groan and sigh, but it’s not that we want to die and get rid of these bodies that clothe us. Rather, we want to put on our new bodies so that these dying bodies will be swallowed up by life. 5 God himself has prepared us for this, and as a guarantee he has given us his Holy Spirit. 6 So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. 7 For we live by believing and not by seeing. 8 Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord. 9 So whether we are here in this body or away from this body, our goal is to please him. 10 For we must all stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done in this earthly body.

    523. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10

    8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it (my thorn in the flesh) away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

    524. You are Holy (Prince of Peace)
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcq0QKRFVs8&feature=related

    525. Thanks in advance, Father that I’ll get a brand new body in Heaven and it’ll be much better than this one at it’s prime. I will be trading the temporary for the eternal on the day I meet Him face to face.

    526. Esther D. abundantly blessing me with fresh juice from carrots and greens. What a loving provision!

  92. Paula says:

    505. The bone-tired fatigue of the cancer treatment is only temporary

    506. Christmas fun

    507. The Weaving

    (Unknown author)

    My Live has been a weaving between my God and Me,

    The colors that He weaveth, He worketh steadily.

    Oft times He weveth sorrow and I in foolish pride

    Forget He sees the upper and I the underside.

    Not till the loom is silent

    And shuttles cease to fly

    Will God unroll the canvas

    And explain the reasons WHY

    The dark threads are as needful

    In the skillful weavers hand

    As the Threads of Gold and Silver

    In the Pattern He has Planned.

    I am continuing to go through my journaling that I did this year and am pulling out gifts He had for me to recount on my gratefulness list as I reflect back over 2111:

    607. I can well remember the joy, my deep contentment, and the sheer delight I felt many years ago looking into beautiful blue eyes gazing up at me when I got to nurse my sweet baby girls. The Lord blessed me with an abundant milk supply and I loved to watch my little ones being nourished and nurtured at my breasts, milk overflowing from their lips and dribbling down their chubby, lovely faces and round bodies. It’s sort of a picture to me of God’s lavish love: good measure, pressed down, and overflowing. I am so grateful that I got to have that privilege and those memories from that season of my life. Thank You Father, for that gift.

    608.This year I have often thought of the title of one of Barbara Johnson’s books because it applies to me: “Pain is inevitable but misery is optional: so stick a geranium in your hat and be happy”. Aint that the truth?! So much of life boils down to choice. 🙂 Job said, “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the Name of the Lord”. Amen to that. I will choose to praise and trust my great God Who never makes one single mistake. He has arranged and orchestrated every detail.

    609. “Some things are so important to God that they are worth interrupting the happiness and health of His children in order to accomplish them.”

    610. “Ask the Saviour to help you, comfort, strengthen and keep you, He is able to save you, He will carry you through. (Children’s song in the UK that Rosemary shared with me before my mastectomy)

    611.These are some Scriptures and thoughts that have been a special blessing to me the first few months of last year after being diagnosed with breast cancer. I printed them out and tacked up on the back of my front door to remind myself of what I want to be thinking about:

    Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 9

    God’s timing is always on time.

    Be still and know that I am God
    Psalm 46:10A

    Proverbs 3:5-6

    Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

    Psalm 27:14

    Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

    Psalm 34:4

    4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
    he delivered me from all my fears.

    Job 23:10
    10 But he knows the way that I take;
    when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

    26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
    28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.
    Romans 8:26, 28

    Isaiah 40:28-31
    28 Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?
    The LORD is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
    He will not grow tired or weary,
    and his understanding no one can fathom.
    29 He gives strength to the weary
    and increases the power of the weak.
    30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
    31 but those who hope in the LORD
    will renew their strength.
    They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

    Psalm 91
    1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
    2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.” 3 Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
    4 He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

    Psalm 23
    1 The Lord is my shepherd;
    I have everything that I need.
    2 He lets me rest in green meadows;
    he leads me beside peaceful streams.
    3 He renews my strength.
    He guides me along right paths,
    bringing honor to his name.
    4 Even when I walk

    through the dark valley of death,[a]
    I will not be afraid,
    for you are close beside me.
    Your rod and your staff
    protect and comfort me.
    5 You prepare a feast for me
    in the presence of my enemies.
    You welcome me as a guest, anointing my head with oil.
    My cup overflows with blessings.
    6 Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
    all the days of my life,
    and I will live in the house of the Lord
    forever.

    He is God and I am not.

    This battle is the Lord’s.

    “Prayers are instantly noticed in heaven. Wherever there’s a heart big with sorrow. Or a lip quivering with agony. Or a deep groan of sadness, the heart of God is open.” (Charles Spurgeon)

    IT’S A SETTLED MATTER:
    WE WILL CHOOSE TO TRUST GOD NO MATTER WHAT.

    1 Corinthians 16:13

    13 Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. 14 Let all that you do be done with love.

    TRUTHS FOR ME TO REMEMBER:

    (Berg)
    1. God is always good!…always!

    A. He will always meet my genuine needs…always!
    B. He will always forgive my sin…always!
    C. He is always up to something good in my life…always!
    D. He will always love me personally…always!
    E. He will always give me the grace I need…always!

    2.God is always great…always!

    A. He is always in control of all things…always!
    B. He is always present with me…always!
    C. He is always the same…always!
    D. He is always trustworthy…always!
    E. He is always wise in what He does…always!

    “God is who He says He is.

    He can and will do what He says He will do.

    I am who God says I am.

    God’s Word is alive and active in me.

    I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

    I’M BELIEVING GOD!”

    612. Nita praying Psalm 140:7 for us on the day of my mastectomy: “(Sovereign LORD, my strong deliverer,
    You shield my head in the day of battle. ) Lord, protect John and Paula’s minds and thinking as they go through this battle. Be their shield, help them remember what is true, help them keep their minds and thoughts steadfast on You. Strengthen Paula for this battle.”

    613. Deb setting up the Lotsa Helping Hands site for us, Nita coordinating and training folks at NTM to help. Thsi year so many people were the hands and feet and mouth of Jesus to us: juicing, produce washing, coffee brewing for coffee enemas when I was doing Gerson Therapy, providing meals, cleaning, laundry, baked goods, groceries, encouraging cards & emails, including the children with fun activities, etc . We are so rich in family and firends! Thank You Lord for these precious ones who have ministered to us!

    614. My Christian sisters at Healthy Living 4 Him

    615.

    Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that
    we may receive mercy and find grace to help in our time of need.
    Hebrews 4 :16

    Because of Christ, I can come to His throne of grace with boldness, I
    am His child. He has mercy and grace to help me in my times of need.

    616.

    Winston Churchill said:
    “Never give in. Never give in. Never, never, never, never-in nothing great or small, large or petty-never give in, except to convictions of honour and good sense. Never yield to force. Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy”

    617.
    Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that
    we may receive mercy and find grace to help in our time of need.
    Hebrews 4 :16
    Because of Christ, I can come to His throne of grace with boldness, I
    am His child. He has mercy and grace to help me in my times of need.

    I have a lot of needs and He has all the answers.

  93. Paula says:

    618. Counting more of the endless, One Thousand Gifts… (quoting the below summary by Ann Voskamp)

    “Thankful that God is…

    ■A Miracle Working God Gal 3:5
    ■A Covenant Making God Hbr 10:16
    ■A Father of Mercies & God of All Comfort 2Co 1:3
    ■The Author of Salvation Hbr 2:10
    ■Full of Power Rom 13:1
    ■A God Who Raises the Dead 2Co 1:9
    ■Mighty to Save Isa 63:1
    ■The Prince of Peace Isa 9:6
    ■The Light of the World Jhn 8:12
    ■Immanuel Isa 7:14
    ■Never Leaving Us or Forsaking Us Hbr 13:5
    ■Always Leading Us in Triumph in Christ 2Co 2:14
    ■Saying to Everyone, “Surely I Am am Coming Again.” Amen Rev 22:20
    Thankful that our Beloved can be believed in and makes us…

    ■Loved by God Jhn 3:16
    ■Delivered from the Powers of Darkness Col 1:13
    ■Redeemed from the Hands of the Enemy Psa 107:2
    ■Called with a Holy Calling 2Ti 1:9
    ■Free from Fear 1Jo 4:18
    ■Blessed with All Spiritual Blessings Eph 1:3
    ■Filled with All Joy & Peace in Believing Rom 15:13
    ■Imitators of Jesus Eph 5:1
    ■Exercise Our Faith & Patience Hbr 6:12
    ■Intercessors 1Ti 2:1
    ■Daily Overcome the Devil 1Jo 4:4
    ■More Than Conquerors Rom 8:37
    ■Thankful in Everything 1Th 5:18
    ■Bless the Lord at All Times. Psa 34:1“

    (Reviewing more gifts God gave me this past year as I look over my blog before I started my daily gratefulness list:)

    619.
    Philippians 4:11-12
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.

    Philippians 4:11-12
    The Message (MSG)

    Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.

    Philippians 4:11-12
    Amplified Bible (AMP)

    11Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be [a] content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am.

    12I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want.

    Philippians 4:11-12
    King James Version (KJV)

    11Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

    12I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

    Philippians 4:11-12
    New International Version (NIV)

    11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

    620.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNVCcph6cnI
    Day by Day

    1.Day by day, and with each passing moment,
    Strength I find to meet my trials here;
    Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
    I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
    He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,
    Gives unto each day what He deems best,
    Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,
    Mingling toil with peace and rest.
    2.Every day the Lord Himself is near me,
    With a special mercy for each hour;
    All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me,
    He whose name is Counselor and Pow’r.
    The protection of His child and treasure
    Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
    “As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,”
    This the pledge to me He made.
    3.Help me then, in every tribulation,
    So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
    That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation,
    Offered me within Thy holy Word.
    Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
    E’er to take, as from a father’s hand,
    One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
    Till with Christ the Lord I stand.

    621.
    2 Corinthians 12:8-10
    8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

    My take away:

    WAY more than three times–over and over and over–I begged and pleaded with the Lord to take away the cancer and the pain in my arm. Each time He said. “Paula, My grace is sufficient for you. It is all you need and it is more than enough. My power shows up extra-good in your weakness. So, now I can openly share that in myself, I am utterly weak that the power of God be magnified in me. I can rejoice in the Lord in the midst of my weaknesses and thank God for and praise Him through this journey of walking with Him through the storm of cancer and pain. He is with me through all the trials and troubles. When I am weak in myself, then I am strong in the Lord.

    I thank You and praise You and worship You with my whole heart, Lord.

    622.

    These are a few of the quotes from the book “A Bend in the Road” by David Jeremiah that were meaningful to me:
    ■“You can choose to lift up your eyes to the heavens, pour out your tears, grief and anger and say “God, I have no clue what this is all about or where it is leading, but I resolve to trust You and praise You with all of my heart, unconditionally.
    ■He will not abandon His work on you – of which your trial is a part (read Isaiah 49:15-16)
    ■There’s no need for me and God to stay up all night. God will be awake anyway so I need to go to bed and get a good sleep. (Psalm 121:3-4)
    ■You will be faced with a trial and God will give you 2 gifts: A scripture for your mind and a song for your heart
    ■There is nothing, no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has come past God, and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose.
    ■“God, You have allowed this in my life. I don’t understand it, but I know that it couldn’t have happened to me unless it was filtered through Your loving Hands. So, this thing is from You.”
    ■We become preoccupied with our circumstances but God is preoccupied with our character.”

    -“No matter how sharp the bend in the road, no matter how disruptive the moment (those unanticipated events, most of which one would usually have chosen to avoid had it been possible), everything that happens to us is for the eternal purposes of God. He is training us through the process. Like any worthy parent, He wants to teach us what we cannot learn any other way.”
    ■“The Father is never closer to the vine than when He is pruning it.”
    ■“We all ask ‘why’ questions. They’re a natural part of being human. But we can ask better questions–we can ask ‘what’ questions: ‘What
    Lord? What would You have me to do? ‘What are You trying to teach me?’”
    ■“I didn’t sign up for this! I know that I sang, ‘Wherever He leads. I’ll go’, but can’t we at least check the weather report first? How could He lead me into a storm like this one?’

    Just cling to the knowledge that you could be in no safer place than a storm of His making. You are safer and more secure in the tempest with Jesus than you could ever be in the calmest place without Him. That calm, you’ll come to realize, is an illusion, and the storm is for a good purpose and a short duration.”
    ■My crisis is important to God. He is using it to make me a more valuable servant in His kingdom.
    ■The only road that leads to the destination God desires for us has sharp bends.
    ■Life is difficult, but difficulty is the only path to wisdom. “

    623.
    “As an old man, looking back on one’s life. it’s one of the things that strikes you most forcibly–that the only thing that’s taught one anything is suffering. Not success, not happiness, not anything like that. The only thing that really teaches one what life’s about–the joy of understanding, the joy of coming in contact with what life really signifies–is suffering, affliction.”
    –Malcolm Muggeridge

    624. “One act of thanksgiving, when things go wrong with us, is worth a thousand thanks when things are agreeable to our inclinations.” (Unknown)

    625.
    Ephesians 5:20
    King James Version (KJV)

    20Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ

    626.

    “We see always what we are looking for, and if our mind has become trained to look for trouble and difficulty and all dark and dreary things, we find just what we seek. On the other hand, it is also possible to form the habit of looking always for beauty, for good, for reasons for thanksgiving and joy. Here too, we shall find precisely what we seek.” (JR Miller, 1840)

    627. http://myfamilytalk.com/faith-in-tough-times/god-always-makes-sense-pt3.aspx Excerpt by Dr. James Dobson in
    his book When God Doesn’t Make Sense

    628. “Suffering is like the little sheepdog that runs at your heels to get you to run into the loving arms of your Shepherd” –Joni Eareckson Tada

    629. Isa 33:2 O Lord, be gracious to us, we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

    2Co 1:3 Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort,

    2Co 1:4 He comforts us in all our trouble, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in every trouble, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

    630. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m3mcD1a-7HY&feature=related

    “Blessing in the Thorn” (Verona shared with me)

    631. (From Deb M’s email):
    “I brought a biography of Joni Eareckson Tada to read while here…called The God I Love…some things that I wrote down may give you food for thought during the night also…”I need to be caught up in God’s thoughts about me, not my thoughts about Him.”
    “Will I release myself to believe that the joy of the Lord is big enough to enrapture and enthrall me, despite my circumstances? I may never accept my situation (her paralysis), but I CAN embrace God. I can embrace Him as I think of His greater affliction. And as I embrace Him I can’t but help to love His will. I have faith not in my ability to accept this situation, but faith to embrace Christ, to trust Him BECAUSE of my problems.”
    “God permits things He hates to accomplish something He loves.” (the latter being my growing in my need of Him)”

    632. http://www.prayertoday.org/2004/PDF/Guides/Who-I-Am.PDF

    Who I Am In Christ

    633. “He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30

    634. Quotes from “When Life is Hard” by James MacDonald:
    “A trial is a painful circumstance allowed by God to change my conduct and my character.
    My conduct–that’s what I do. And then to a deeper level, my character–that’s who I am.
    Trials are about what God is adjusting in the actions I choose, and what God is doing to the character that helps me choose those actions.”

    “I’m fond of the saying that ‘God’s love is not a pampering love; God’s love is a perfecting love.’ God does not say, “Here, Billy. Have some more cupcakes. Take the one with extra icing.’ That’s not God. Your Grandma maybe, but not God.”

    “When life is hard, stop and ask God, ‘What do you want me to do?”

    635.
    5 More Heartfelt Responses Concerning God’s Will

    By Roy Lessin

    (If “for love’s sake” is the right motivation, why do something with a wrong motive?)

    Lord, my heart cries out in a love response to You. I can’t think of anything higher or greater than responding to Your will for love’s sake. May Your love move me on, compel me to reach out to others, and to seek Your heart more and more.

    (If what you’re seeking is moving you away from God’s heart, why pursue it?)

    Lord, I turn my back to all that would turn me away from You. I come to You, I run to You, I press in to know You more and to lay hold of the purpose of why You laid hold of me.

    (If the outcome is not God’s best, why settle for it?)

    Lord, I refuse to be content with a life that is run-of-the-mill, mediocre, or second-rate. I choose the best that love has to give—I choose You. I choose Your will. I choose Your best. I choose Your glory. I will continue in the race that You have set before me and run it with all my heart.

    (If God has told you to wait, why push forward?)

    Lord, I lay down my pushiness, my desire to control and manipulate people and circumstances in order to have things turn out the way I want them to. I wait upon You who does all things well. I wait on Your time, I wait on Your way, I wait on Your outcome.

    (If God has told you to go, why hold back?)

    Lord, where You send me I will go—thankfully, wholly, speedily, contentedly, peacefully, joyfully, lovingly.

    Let love be your greatest aim. 1 Corinthians 14:1 TLB

    637.

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    5 Heartfelt Responses Concerning God’s WillBy Roy Lessin

    (If God isn’t leading you to a certain place, why go there?)

    Lord, I am following You. I will not run around in circles trying to find my own way. I place my feet in Your footsteps. I take the place that You have prepared for me. I will faithfully remain where You have placed me until You make it clear it is time to move on.

    (If God hasn’t asked you to do a certain task, why perform it?)

    Lord, I will only carry what You ask me to lift. I lay down my agenda and my ideas of what I think needs to be done. I say “no” to all stress and striving and “yes” to the peace that comes from obeying what You are asking me to do.

    (If God hasn’t directed you to speak something, why declare it?)

    Lord, put Your words in my mouth. I want to speak words that are fitting for the moment—the right word, the true word, the edifying word, the anointed word, the word in due season—the word from Your heart to others.

    (If God wouldn’t be pleased with your choice, why choose it?)

    Lord, I choose those things that will bring a smile to Your face. My greatest pleasure is to please You.

    (If “for His glory” is the right reason, why do something for the wrong reason?)

    Lord, I love Your righteousness. I want to live right, think right, and act right. I want my motivation to be for Your sake, and my attitudes to be a reflection of who You are. May others want to know You more because of what they see of Your life in me.

    May the name of our Lord Jesus Christ be glorified and become more glorious through and in you. 2 Thessalonians 1:12 AMP

    Isa 33:2 O Lord, be gracious to us, we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

    638.Riding in the Back Seat and Letting God Drive
    Psa. 94:19 When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul

    Isa. 26:3-4 You will keep in him perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal.

    I love word pictures. My dear husband has lovingly reminded me at different times how little children ride in the back seat of a car as their Daddy drives. You don’t see them fretting, “Hey, watch out for that car over there, Dad”, “You missed our turn, are you sure you know where you are going?”, “Woa, slow down there, Dad–you are going way too fast!”, etc. Nope, you usually see them in the rear view mirror, happily occupying themselves with toys and books, interacting with siblings, singing song, and falling asleep. They leave all the driving to Daddy. I gotta stay in that back seat, stop telling God how to drive, resist inclinations to unbuckle my seat belt and jump up to the driver’s seat and yank the wheel from Him when we take the twisty turns, and instead, just rest peacefully, going along for the “ride” God is taking me on. God has an “Eternal Record” of being an expert driver and I can leave all the driving to Him, just like a child.

    639.

    In His Will

    “First, He brought me here; it is by His will I am in this strait place; in that fact I will rest.

    I am here—BY GOD’S APPOINTMENT

    Next, He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace to behave as His child.

    I am here—IN HIS KEEPING

    Then, He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons He intends me to learn, and working in me the grace He means to bestow.

    I am here—UNDER HIS TRAINING

    Last, in His good time, He can bring me out again—how and when He knows.

    I am here—FOR HIS TIME”

    -Andrew Murray

    Psalm 31:14-15a
    14 But as for me, I trust in You, O LORD;
    I say, “You are my God.”
    15 My times are in Your hand….”

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    640.
    Psalm 27:13-14
    13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
    That I would see the goodness of the LORD
    In the land of the living.

    14 Wait on the LORD;
    Be of good courage,
    And He shall strengthen your heart;
    Wait, I say, on the LORD!

    641.
    Revelation 21:4
    He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.
    642. “Jesus will meet you there”
    (Written and sung by Steven Curtis Chapman after the death of his young daughter)

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZ4hgnfhRvY

    643. “Our God is in Control”
    Steven Curtis Chapman

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7nn9Ay8gnA&NR=1

    644. Psalm 30:11-12
    11 You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
    You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,
    12 To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent.
    O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever

    645. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dD-ZdMOx_HY Jesus, Lover Of My Soul (It’s All About You)

    646. Psalm 62:8
    8 O my people, trust in him at all times.
    Pour out your heart to him,
    for God is our refuge.
    Personalizing for me:

    I will trust You at all times, Father… ALL TIMES.
    I will keep my eyes on YOU, not on my circumstances or emotions.
    I pour my whole heart out to you. I am not my own: I belong to You and I am so very glad that this is true.
    You indeed are my refuge. I run to You for safety, for comfort, for Your loving Arms to hold me close, just to be with You. I cling to You and Your Word. I will choose to stand on Your promises that never fail. It is a settled matter: Your ways are perfect always. Your way, not mine.

    647. Psalm 56:8
    You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle.You have recorded each one in your book.
    Personalizing it for me:

    Lord, not one of my sorrows or joys pass by without Your notice. You do see and care about all I am going through and all of my hope is in You. You’ve collected all my tears in a bottle and written down all my sorrows in a book. I don’t understand all this tough stuff that is going on in my life really, and I guess I wont fully understand and don’t have to, but somehow it must be Your best plan to allow all this–for your glory and honor and my good and that of others too. You have my full attention, Lord. What do you want to teach me? I am listening with my ears wide open and want You to mold and change me in all the ways You want to as You conform me in the image of Your Son. Please help me to get every last thing out of these life lessons you are personally orchestrating, none of them wasted. Not one. If it is possible, I’d like to “get it” as in all You want to teach me as quickly as possible without any stubborn hardness of heart or foolish wasting the precious time You give me. I’d just as soon not extend and repeat lessons unnecessarily-what a waste that would be. I want to be soft and pliable in Your hands. You have numbered my days and Heaven sure sounds extra good to me in so many ways right now. I do not want to cling to this old earth and this life but I do want You to show me how to fit in Your plans, bringing You honor, thanks, praise, and great pleasure every remaining day You have me here. I want to live fully, like I am alive in You because of who I already am IN CHRIST and all I already possess IN CHRIST. Teach me how to live my life in such a way that it is a sweet and lovely aroma to You. pleasing to You in every way–woa, I’m such a long ways from that goal. I’ve still got lots and lots of stinky ole’ “junk and garbage and stuff” left in my life I want you to pluck out and it looks like You’ve got a good hold and are using cancer to tug on some twisted roots on these “weeds” in my life. Thank You for the cancer and the treatment, Lord. I hate it but I thank You by faith.
    648. Isaiah 55:8-9
    8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
    declares the LORD.
    9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.
    649. Romans 8:38-39
    38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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    650.

    Excerpts taken from “I Arise Today”

    I arise today
    Through God’s strength to pilot me:
    God’s might to uphold me,
    God’s wisdom to guide me,
    God’s eye to look before me,
    God’s ear to hear me,
    God’s Word to speak for me,
    God’s hand to guard me,
    God’s way to lie before me,
    God’s shield to protect me,

    Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
    Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
    Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
    Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit down, Christ when I arise.

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    651. It is Well With my Soul

    http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/i/t/i/itiswell.htm

    652. “Child of My love, lean hard and let Me feel the pressure of thy care; I know thy burden, Paula, I shaped it; poised in My own hand, made no proportion in its weight to thine unaided strength; for even as I laid it on, I said, I shall be near, and while she leans on Me, this burden shall be Mine, not hers; So shall I keep thee within the circling arms of My own love. Here lay it down, nor fear to impose it on a shoulder which upholds the government of worlds. Yet closer come; you are not near enough; I would embrace your care so I might feel My child reposing on My breast. Thou lovest me? I knew it. Doubt not then; but, loving Me, Lean hard.” (Nancy H sharing prayer that was meaningful to her through trial)

    653. “When God permits His children to go through the furnace, He keeps His eye on the clock and His hand on the thermostat. His loving heart knows how much and how long.”

    –Warren Wiersbe

    1 Peter 1:6-7A
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    6 So be truly glad.[a] There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7 These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold….

    654. “This Thing is From Me.”

    “Life’s disappointments are veiled love’s appointments.

    My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds that arise.

    It is short – only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul, use them as a pillow on which to rest your weary head:

    “THIS THING IS FROM ME”
    Have you ever thought that all that concerns you, concerns Me too? For “he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of Mine eye” (Zechariah 2:8).

    I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the “enemy comes in like a flood,” that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you.

    Are you in difficult circumstances? This thing is from Me. I am the God of circumstances. Your surroundings and companions are only working out My will.

    Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? This thing is from Me, for I am your purse bearer, and I would have you draw from and depend upon Me. My supplies are limitless (see Philippians 4:19). I would have you prove My promises.

    Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am “The Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.” I have let earthly comforters fail you so that by turning to Me you may obtain everlasting consolation (see II Thessalonians 2:16, 17).

    Has some friend disappointed you? One to whom you opened your heart? This thing is from Me. I have allowed this disappointment to come so that you may learn that I am your best friend.

    Have your plans been all upset? Are you bowed down and weary? This thing is from Me. You made your plans, then came asking Me to bless them, but I would have you let Me plan for you and then I take the responsibility, for “this thing is too heavy for thee; thou art not able to perform it thyself alone” (Exodus 18:18). You are only an instrument.

    Have you longed to do some great work for Me, and instead been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? This thing is from Me. I could not get your attention in your busy days, and I want to teach you some of My deepest lessons. “They also serve who only stand and wait.”

    Some of My greatest workers are those shut out from active service, that they may learn to wield the weapon of all-prayer.

    Are you suddenly called to occupy a difficult and responsible position? Launch out on Me. I am trusting you with the “possession of difficulties,” and for “this thing the Lord thy God shall bless thee in all thy works, and in all that thou puttest thine hand unto” (Deuteronomy 15:10).

    This day I place in your hand this pot of holy oil; make use of it freely, My child. Remember, “interruptions are divine instructions.” The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things; therefore, “set your hearts unto all the words which I testify among you this day … for it is not a vain thing for you; because it is your life: and through this thing ye shall prolong your days in the land” (Deuteronomy 32:46, 47).”

    –Laura A. Barton Snow

    655.

    “If we had the least notion of God’s lovingkindness and tender mercy,
    His fatherly care for His poor children, His generousity, His beautiful
    plans for us; if we knew how patiently He waits for our turning to Him,
    how gently He means to lead us to green pastures and still waters, how
    carefully He is preparing a place for us, how ceaselessly He is ordering
    and ordaining and engineering His Master Plan for our good-if we had any
    inkling of all this, could we be reluctant to let go of our smashed
    dandelions or whatever we clutch so fiercely in our sweaty little hands?…
    If with courage and joy we pour ourselves out for Him and for others for
    His sake, it is not possible to lose, in any final sense, anything
    worth keeping. We will lose ourselves and our selfishness. We will
    gain everything worth having.”

    –Ekizabeth Elliot

    656.

    “I am strong for all things in the One Who continually infuses strength in me” Phil 4:13″At ALL times and in ALL circumstances, Christ is able and willing to provide the strength we need to be content. Contentment occurs when Christ’s strength is infused into my weak body,soul,and spirit. To INFUSE means to pour, fill, soak, or extract. Every morning when I dip my tea baginto boiling water, I witness infusion. How does God enable us to be content? He INFUSEScontentment into us through his Word. As it seeps into our minds, it transforms us. Just as a cup of tea gets stronger when we give it time to to steep, we become more content when we spend time in God’s word and allow it to seep into our lives, transforming us to be like Him.” From “Calm my anxious heart” by Linda Dillow ————————– 657. “According to Ephesians 2:10, you and I “are God’s workmanship,created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in
    advance for us to do.” When I am not pleased with the talents,
    gifts, and abilities God gave me, I remind myself that He is the
    Blessed Controller of all things (1 Timothy 6:15)If I believe this, I also must believe that God

    is the Blessed Controller of my “all things”. My appearance. My personality. My gifts and talents.In my heart of hearts I long to please God, and it pleases Him when I am content with how He created me. Perhaps you, too want to be content, yet you hear the voices that say,”Be successful. Be popular. Be beautiful. Be perfect.” Oh, my dear friend, stop listeningto the voices. Listen to God’s voice: Is not He your Father, your Creator, who made you and formed you? Deut 32:6 Your hands shaped me and made me…Remember that you molded me like clay…Did you not…clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and sinews? Job 10:8-11″ By Linda Dillow in “Calm my anxious heart”658.”The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
    Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than
    the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures,
    than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more
    important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a
    company…a church…a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every
    day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change
    our past…we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.
    We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the
    one string we have, and that is our attitude…I am convinced that life is
    10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with
    you…we are in charge of our attitudes.”–Charles Swindoll659.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ
    Blessings: By Laura Story

    “We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
    Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
    We pray for healing, for prosperity
    We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

    All the while, You hear each spoken need
    Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

    Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
    What if Your healing comes through tears
    What if a thousand sleepless nights
    Are what it takes to know You’re near?

    What if trials of this life
    Are Your mercies in disguise?

    We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
    We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
    We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
    As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

    And all the while You hear each desperate plea
    And long that we’d have faith to believe

    Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
    What if Your healing comes through tears?
    What if a thousand sleepless nights
    Are what it takes to know You’re near?

    And what if trials of this life
    Are Your mercies in disguise

    When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
    We know the pain reminds this heart
    That this is not, this is not our home
    It’s not our home

    Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
    What if Your healing comes through tears?
    And what if a thousand sleepless nights
    Are what it takes to know You’re near?

    What if my greatest disappointments
    Or the aching of this life
    Is the revealing of a greater thirst
    This world can’t satisfy?

    And what if trials of this life
    The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
    Are Your mercies in disguise?”

    660.

    http://www.biblestudycharts.com/HH_Leaning_On_The_Everlasting.html

    (“Leaning on the Everlasting Arms”: Hymn and History)

    661.
    http://www.truewoman.com/?id=1340
    Joni’s example to me is a gift from God

    662. From the American Cancer Society website:

    Cancer is so limited…
    It cannot cripple love.
    It cannot shatter hope.
    It cannot corrode faith.
    It cannot eat away peace.
    It cannot destroy confidence.
    It cannot kill friendship.
    It cannot shut out memories.
    It cannot silence courage.
    It cannot reduce eternal life.
    It cannot quench the Spirit.

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    663. My additions:

    Some more “CANT’S” of Cancer:

    -It can’t rob us of making the most of every day: even the hard days after chemo can have splashes of joy in them.
    -Cancer is very weak compared to the love we share with family and friends.

    –Even though cancer is a nightmare, it CAN’T take away all my hopes and dreams for the future
    –Even though the treatment of cancer has taken away my hair and that’s been hard for me, it CAN NOT take away a genuine smile

    on my face because God is always up to something good in my life

    –It CAN’T MAKE ME have a “victim’s mentality”: I CAN grow to be a stronger and more compassionate person through this

    (and grow in many other ways)

    Cancer CAN’T take away the song in my heart and on my lips that praises God for His goodness, faithfulness, and love.

    Cancer can’t take away my sense of humor UNLESS I let it. I will not let it rob me of laughter.

    Cancer is a very ugly thing but it can’t take away all the beautiful things that we CAN still enjoy.

    I really love working in my lttle garden but was too sick to clear out the jungle it had become, plant it, weed it, water it,

    or pick from it most of the time this year. My sister and daughters did it for me.

    I’ve been enjoying the veggies and lovely flowers and the ability I have right now to help care for this cheery, bright spot

    of beauty and have a new sesnse of gratefulness and appreciation. There were so many big and small blessings I took for

    granted before cancer….

    Cancer can’t make me a grouchy grump even if I am feeling very sick and miserable. The choice to have a good attitude,

    a sweet spirit, and to rise above my circumstances is mine.

    Sadonna said:
    “Cancer can not take even ONE day from me that God intends for me to have!”

    Amen.

    664. “Suffering nourishes grace, and pain and joy are of the same heart — and mourning and dancing are but movements
    in His unfinished symphony of beauty of beauty.” (Voskamp)

  94. Paula says:

    667.Isaiah 61:3
    To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

    668. “If life gives you lemons, then learn how to make lemonade!”
    This morning I am picturing any remaining cancer cells in my body as little bitty lemons for the Lord and I together to squeeze and make into lemonade. That would be just like my Lord who brings “beauty from ashes” and “joy from mourning” to teach me to make lemonade out of the lemons in my life. May He bring His refreshing sweetness out of this lip- puckering sour stuff. May He conform me to the image of His Son. May He do a truly lovely work in my heart, making it soft and pliable in His Hand. I have cancer but my position is not a “cancer victim”. My position is His beloved daughter. I am praying that He would take the stark ugliness of cancer and transform it, make it into a tool/ a means of working out something beautiful for Him.

  95. Paula says:

    669. Pam sending me the Beth Moore clip “The Hairbrush”
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xtk5WgzZcYA&feature=youtube_gdata_player

    Going back through gifts from journalling this year:
    670.

    Yes, Father–be to me what You are…

    My Abba-Father–my Daddy who couldn’t love me more than You already do. I love, love, LOVE being Your daughter!
    My refuge, my fortress, my deliverer, my strength, my all in all
    My Great Physician, my healer, my protector, the lover of my soul
    My Living water, my bread of Life
    My salvation, my forgiver, my intercessor, my cleanser of all unrighteousness
    My life
    My fount of every blessing, bind my wandering heart to Thee…
    My source, my hope, my peace, my joy, my Savior
    My inheritance, my provider
    My giver of every good thing
    My strong tower of safety
    My contentment and satisfaction
    My giver of all wisdom
    My quencher of every thirst I’ll ever have
    My counselor and friend
    My sun and shield
    My redeemer
    My king
    My creator
    My good shepherd
    My Bridegroom
    My ever-present help in time of trouble
    My beloved

    My everything!

    671.
    Personalizing Phil 3:8 for me:

    There are many things I have held as precious and dear, such as being in excellent health; free of cancer, disease, and pain, and my personal belief system of the best way to achieve that through prevention using natural resources. I assumed I would happily and healthfully live to a ripe old age and forgot to count many, many blessings and took them for granted until they were taken away from me. I am learning day by day, that compared to knowing Jesus Christ my Savior, all these are totally insignificant. The very most important thing in all of life is to Know and love Him more and more as He really is.

    672.

    Personalizing Deut 31:6 for me on chemo day #4 from a whole bunch of various Scripture translations quoted: “ Be strong and courageous, Paula! Do not be afraid or terrified because of ANYTHING going on right now–NOT ONE SINGLE THING happening in your life , for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you or your dear family. Be fearless! Don’t be scared or worry or fret about cancer or the treatment of cancer because the LORD your God is the one who marches with you. He won’t let you or your family down, and he won’t abandon you guys. Be brave and strong! Don’t be afraid of the known and unknown side effects of the chemo (not the ones you are having, the ones you might have, or the ones you will never have), or be anxious about any of those many other drugs the doctors have prescribed in the past, those you are taking now or those you will take in the future. Worry is a big waste of time, God has MUCH better for you as His beloved daughter. You can rest easy about the upcoming year of IV Herceptin every 21 days , the radiation, and every other challenge ahead of you. The LORD your God will always be at your side, and he will never abandon you. Don’t tremble! Don’t be overwhelmed or disheartened because of the constant invisible inflated BP cuff/tourniquet sensation on your arm that’s been with you 24/7 since your mastectomy in May that no measures have relieved thusfar. The Lord your God is the one who is going with you. He won’t abandon you or leave you. Remember every minute of every day that God gives you to be strong in the strength of the LORD. Take courage, Paula! Don’t be intimidated by any of this medical stuff or the doctors. Don’t give any one of Satan’s fiery darts of fear, or discouragement, or doubt, or despair a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you: no Sir-ee! REMEMBER! Be strong, courageous, and firm; fear NOTHING for it is the Lord your God Who goes with you; He will not fail you or forsake you. Do ye as a daughter of God who is snuggling up in His love and resting in Him , and be ye comforted (Be ye strong, and be ye encouraged); do not ye dread in heart, neither dread ye at the sight of the nurse who cometh with the chemo, for thy Lord God himself is thy leader, and he shall not leave thee, neither forsake thee. Take courage, be brave. Take heart, Paula Girl—God is ALWAYS with You and has EVERYTHING under control. ”

    673.

    “The same everlasting Father
    Who cares for you today will take care of you
    tomorrow and every day.
    Either He will shield you from suffering,
    or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it.
    Be at peace then and put aside
    all anxious thoughts and imaginings.”

    –Francis de Sales

    674. http://www.fathersloveletter.com/video.html

    675.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xwzItqYmII&feature=related

    I Can Only Imagine

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wutmEjdbedE&feature=list_related&playnext=1&list=PL84B8FC03E4564A87

    Open the Eyes of my Heart

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfASgMH7FHw

    I’m Trading my Sorrows

    676. “Don’t be consumed by what you don’t have, just bring what you do have to Jesus, and watch Him do what only He can do. And my God will meet all your needs. No matter what you are facing right now, Jesus says to you, I am enough. I am enough. I am more than enough.”

    –From “God’s Shelter for Your Storm” By Sheila Walsh

    677.

    Romans 15:13
    May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope.

    678.

    “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword…..yet in all these things we are MORE THAN CONQUERORS through Him who loved us.” Romans 8:35,37

    Personalizing Romans 8:35, 37:
    Can anything EVER separate me from Christ’s love? Anything at all? Does it mean God no longer loves me or has deserted me in any way if I have trouble or distress or if calamity strikes and bad things seem to keep happening? What about all the prayers that He seems to be answering opposite of what I am praying for? How does aggressive cancer fit in this equation? Shall a diagnosis or prognosis or overwhelmingly hard circumstances, suffering, or pain become a wedge between me and my Lord, or shall these trials serve to press me in nearer and nearer to His loving heart toward me? How about side effects from chemo or surgery with complications or radiation looming ahead, or medical statistics or bad news or the threat of death, shall these things in any way separate God and me? No way Jose! Despite and in the midst of all these things and more, I will trust Him for He is completely worthy of my trust. In Him I am more than a conqueror. More? YES MORE than a conqueror! Overwhelming victory: sweet, sweet victory is mine through Christ, who could not love me more than He already does.

  96. Paula says:

    679.

    Kathy H’s reminder of a message in “Hungry Heart”: “Let the realization of the soul be compared to the condition of men groping about in the dense fog; still we know that it is clear daylight above the fog, and all we want it to get high enough. Now the fact is, we are risen with Him. Then may we set our affection on things above where the Lord Jesus sits at the right hand of the Father; and though the secret power is unseen, faith in Him will lift our spirit into the clear light where He is.” “The verses included are Eph 5:8 “Ye were once darkness, but now are ye light in the Lord” and Col 1;12 “Giving thanks unto the Father, who hath made us fit to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light.”

    680. Time at a Christmas party yesterday with people I haven’t seen in a long time. So fun having Bonnie at our table.

  97. Paula says:

    681. Memories of sweet little Ellie Skees http://ellieskees.blogspot.com/2007/12/angels-are-singing-tonight.html who ran to Jesus whom she loved 4 years ago today on 12/19/07. She enjoyed this rendition of “Over the Rainbow” by Iz (me too) which was played at her memorial service: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_DKWlrA24k&ob=av2n.

    682. Thinking about Heaven as I looked through some old posts in Ellie’s blog today:

    “No one’s in a hurry. There’s no schedule to keep.
    We’re all enjoying Jesus, just sitting at His feet.

    If you could see me now, I’m walking streets of gold.
    If you could see me now, I’m standing strong and whole.
    If you could see me now, you’d know I’ve seen His face.
    If you could see me now, you’d know the pain is erased.

    You wouldn’t want me to ever leave this place, If you could only see me now.

    My light and temporary trials have worked out for my good,
    To know it brought Him glory when I misunderstood.
    Though we’ve had our sorrows, they can never compare.
    What Jesus has in store for us, no language can share.

    You wouldn’t want me to ever leave this perfect place

    If you could only see me now
    If you could see me now
    If you could only see me now”

    ————————————
    “Look for Me At Jesus Feet”

    Don’t wait near the gates of pearl,
    Don’t wait on the streets of gold,
    Don’t wait by the walls of jasper,
    Nor among the many sites untold,
    For the precious Holy One to see,
    And there I’ll be through the countless ages,
    Wait for me at Jesus feet.

    —————————
    Haste thee on from grace to glory,
    Armed by faith and winged by prayer,
    Heaven’s eternal day’s before thee,
    God’s own hand shall guide thee there.
    Soon shall close thy earthly mission,
    Swift shall pass thy pilgrim days,
    Hope shall change to glad fruition,
    Faith to sight, and prayer to praise.

    ——————————

    683. My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
    And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.
    My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father’s hand.
    I and my Father are one.
    John 10: 27-30

    684. Just three more radiation treatments to go. Hooray that I’ll be finished on 12/22!

    685. Someone is secretly leaving “On the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, etc days of Christmas” surprises for the girls by our door each morning. It warms my Mama heart to watch their delight. Thank You Lord, for this dear gesture of love and care by somebody very special–we have no idea who is doing such a kind thing.

    687. My dear sisters Kathy, Betsy, and Heidi being there for Mom in so many ways and now while she is having more health problems.

    688. “I will give thanks to the Lord with all my heart; I will tell of all Thy wonders. I will be glad and exult in Thee; I will sing praise to Thy name, O Most High.”

    ~~~ Psalm 9:1-2

  98. Paula says:

    689. Excerpt from article by Dave Dravecky:

    But God loves who we really are – whether we like it or not.
    God calls us, as He did Adam, to come out of hiding.
    “Come to me now,” Jesus says.
    “Acknowledge and accept who I want to be for you:
    a Savior of boundless compassion, infinite patience,
    unbearable forgiveness, and love that keeps no score of wrongs.
    Quit projecting onto me your own feelings about yourself.
    At this moment your life is a bruised reed and I will not crush it,
    a smoldering wick and I will not quench it.
    You are in a safe place.
    BRENNAN MANNING (ABBA’S CHILD)

    “God’s grace is an incredible source of fuel for endurance. It encourages us to keep going even when we stumble because we know He understands and knows our weaknesses – yet He still loves us. HE LOVES US EVEN ON OUR WORST DAY!!! This was a huge source of fuel for me to continue walking on my journey with Him knowing …

    “If we have only the will to walk, then God is pleased with my stumbles.”
    CS LEWIS

    Sometimes we are so sick and tired of stumbling that we don’t want to walk anymore. What a blessing it is to realize that all we need to have is the will to walk with Him, and God is pleased with us – even when we stumble. That’s an incredible expression of grace. That is a tremendous motivation to endure.”

    The LORD makes firm the steps
    of the one who delights in him;
    though he may stumble, he will not fall,
    for the LORD upholds him with his hand.
    PSALM 37:23-24

    690. I just have two radiation treatments left: today and tomorrow. After this, I hope never, ever, ever to have any more chemo or radiation, or breast surgery. The planned Herceptin for a year and hormone blockers for 5 years is all that’s is left on the agenda if all remains stable with no further evidence of disease. Surely 2012 will be better. Please, Lord?

  99. Paula says:

    691. Today is #30 out of #30 of my radiation treatments. Yahooooooooooooooo and wahoooooooooo! I am thankful for Dr Lester, Dr Looper, Dr Gossain, and all their excellent staff who gave me wonderful care http://www.cancercarecenter.md/ . Rebecca, Amy, Heidi, Paula, and Brandy were super as were the receptionists and office folks. What a great team!

    692. Naps. I appreciate my family lovingly allowing me mostly quiet, undisturbed rest when I’ve needed it even during the daytime and when I hit the sack early. John, Nicholas, Joy, and Hannah have really taken up the slack when I didn’t feel well and helped me in a million ways this year as we’ve fought cancer as a family: I am so grateful .

    693. The roughest stuff in this cancer battle is all hopefully behind me now… onward and upward to rebuilding my health! If there are more hard things ahead in this battle, I will face them one at a time with God’s help and strength. He will see me all the way through it all.

    694. Quotes from “The Red Sea Rules” that Sonia shared with me from hers and Linda’s reading:

    “God doesn’t waste suffering. If He leads us into impossible spots, He will deliver us in His own time, in His own way, and for His name’s sake. Our job amid the difficulty is to learn our Lord’s simple but submissive prayer: “What shall I say? Save me from this hour? No, Father, glorify Your name.”

    “God sometimes raises difficulties in the way of His people,” said Matthew Henry. “that He may have the glory of subduing them, and helping His people over them.”

    The Lord devises ways of turning difficulties into deliverances and problems into praise. He gives beauty for ashes and an attitude of worship for the spirit of heaviness. He will glorify His name in the lives of His children, whatever their afflictions. He will gain honor for Himself over our adversarial situations. In the process, He will leave behind such blessings as make the burdens melt away like wax in the sunshine.”

    695 I will remember to breathe in deeply all the beauty that God has created around me in my world too. http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=ThFCg0tBDck

    696. The joy of the meaning of Christmas! “[Glory in the Highest] Now there were in the same country shepherds living out in the fields, keeping watch over their flock by night. And behold, an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. Then the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.” Luke 2:8-11

  100. Paula says:

    #697 on my gratefulness list today is this:

    Isaiah 26:3-4 “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee.Trust ye in the Lord for ever: for in the Lord JEHOVAH is everlasting strength.”

    WHAT kind of peace, Paula? PERFECT peace. Complete, absolute peace. God “guarding” the inclination of my mind with constant peace. God keeps people with their minds set on Him, secure and steady on their feet, even if bad things happen.
    WHY perfect peace? Because of a mind is “stayed” on God, thoughts “fixed” on Him, leaning on Him, hoping confidently in Him, depending on Him, trusting Him no matter what.
    WHY trust in the Lord and for how long? The reason why I can trust in Him FOREVER is because the Lord is everlasting strength, an everlasting Rock, the Rock of ages. In the Lord I have a sure thing. He never gets caught off guard like I do. He is completely trustworthy and knows what he is doing in my life and why He allows the things He does in my life. NO mistakes, nada, goose egg, zero “ooopsies” on God’s part. I mess up plenty but He never does. As I think about the character of God, I know this to be true. Trusting Him is a choice and that is what I choose.

    698. From a missionary with liver cancer, fighting the Good Fight:
    A lady in the Yembi Yembi tribe in PNG died. She was a believer. At her funeral, one of the brothers said this …

    “Some of you have swallowed (believed) that our sister was killed by black magic, some of you have swallowed that her spirit is floating around the village (Yembi Yembi belief), but I say you have swallowed false talk. I stand on this book (Bible) and this book says that God marked her days and only he has the power to close fingers (end life).

    YES–I “swallow”, as this tribal brother in the Lord and the missionary with liver cancer did too, that only God has the power to “close my fingers” (end my life on this earth) and bring me to Heaven. I don’t have to be afraid or worried about when or if cancer will kill me. I will do the best that I can with what I’ve got and leave the results to God. HE is the One who has numbered my days, not cancer.

    699. He is God and I am not. Good thing, huh? :0)

    700.Celebrating today with a date out to lunch with John after seeing my GYN doc- I’m done, done, done with radiation!

    701. Joy starting to feel better and her progress finishing up Algebra

    702. Jan sharing today’s blonde joke with me. She cracked me up the way she whispered the punch line.

  101. Paula says:

    703. What a RELIEF to have a malignacy-free path report on my right breast! Whew. Thank You Lord for this tremendous blessing ! A breast without cancer is a gift for me to appreciate and never take for granted again.

    704.“Confession is the act of inviting God to walk the acreage of our hearts. “There is a rock of greed over here, Father. I can’t budge it. And that tree of guilt near the fence? Its roots are long and deep. And may I show you some dry soil, too crusty for seed?” God’s seed grows better if the soil of the heart is cleared.”
    ― Max Lucado, Grace for the Moment: A 365-Day Devotional Journal

    705. 1 Peter 1:13

    Therefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

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  103. Paula says:

    706. I am alive and happily enjoying Christmas 2011 with my precious family: a gift.

    707.“For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6 NKJV

    708. “But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; He is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
    Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
    “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom His favor rests.”
    -Luke 2:10-14

    709. “Your present condition is from the Lord. He has not given you a stone, a serpent, or a scorpion. What He has given you may seem hard, but it is for your lasting good. Trials may surround you, BUT GOD will bring good out of the apparent evil (Gen 50:20). Even now, infinite wisdom is fulfilling your wish. Amid fiery trials your faith is honoring God. Every circumstance of your affliction is made subservient to the perfection of your soul.” Charles Spurgeon on Luke 11:12

    Luke 11:10-13
    10 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 11 If a son asks for bread[a] from any father among you, will he give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent instead of a fish? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will he offer him a scorpion? 13 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!”

  104. Paula says:

    710. Chapter on happiness by Joanna Harris in her excellent book ”Grace in Time of Need” http://joyoharris.blogspot.com/2011/03/happiness.html
    http://www.deeperroots.com/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=732&osCsid=ca66bc409b39b7e01e1b896024cbaf5f

    711.
    John 1:16
    New King James Version (NKJV)

    16 And of His fullness we have all received, and grace for grace.

    John 1:16
    Contemporary English Version (CEV)

    16Because of all that the Son is, we have been given one blessing after another

    John 1:16
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    16 From his abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another.

    John 1:16
    Amplified Bible (AMP)

    For out of His fullness (abundance) we have all received [all had a share and we were all supplied with] one grace after another and spiritual blessing upon spiritual blessing and even favor upon favor and gift [heaped] upon gift.

    712. Along with other nice gifts and expressions of love, I got an awesome manicure and pedicure from Joy on Christmas day. I now have pretty flowers painted on my nails

    713. A rip-roarin’ family game of Clue. I think the last time I played was about 40 years ago!

    714. The many joys of the Christmas season, a good day with family yesterday

    715 Hymn: http://www.youtube.com/embed/MBDwpLLXMTA

  105. Paula says:

    716. Pam and Terry sent me a very beautiful song, written by Janice Rogers Edmiston, out of the deepest heartache of her life. It was written to be sung to the music of “A Few of My Favorite Things” from the Sound of Music, one of my girls favorite movies. This is now one of my new favorite songs.

    Joy thru my teardrops, and gains thru my losses
    Beauty for ashes, and crowns for my crosses;
    He binds my wounds, and He dries all my tears
    Calms every storm and He conquers my fears.

    He gives me hinds’ feet to walk on high places,
    He floods my soul with His heavenly graces;
    When I am weak then His strength makes me strong
    I know I can trust Him, He’s never been wrong.

    Trials may come and temptations assail me
    Though I may falter, He never will fail me;
    So Satan I bind you in His holy name
    For at the cross Jesus’ blood overcame!

    When the doubt comes, when I’m lonely
    When my heart is sad;
    I’ll lift up mine eyes to my Savior above
    And Jesus will make me glad.

    When in my heart there is sadness and sorrow
    Jesus has promised a brighter tomorrow;
    Victory is mine, yes, it’s already won
    I’ve only to claim it by faith in God’s Son.

    All of my cares I will cast down before Him
    Even in trials my heart will adore Him;
    He bears my burdens, He comforts my soul
    Oh why should I worry when He’s in control?

    Lord in the time of deep grief and emotion
    I will yet serve You with constant devotion;
    You have not failed me one step of the way
    That is the reason I’ll trust You and say:

    I will praise You! I will praise You!
    Jesus Christ my King;
    For You fill my heart with a song in the night
    Yes, You make my heart to sing!

    717. “It’s not too much” by Joni http://www.joniandfriends.org/radio/5-minute/its-not-too-much/

    718. Fresh starts and forgiveness when I mess up

    719. Kathy G sharing her friend’s good writing which also contained “That’s my King” http://www.ignitermedia.com/mini-movies/4/Thats-My-King

    720. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, inluding getting back on track with healthy eating and exercise today and not waitng for the New Year

  106. Paula says:

    721. The blessing of Joy and Hannah having a few fun days away at grandparents

    722. Only my left chest and back were burned during radiation, not the rest of me. In the past I have cared for burn patients with the majority of their bodies severely burned. Some of them screamed in pain when their dressings were changed. They would gladly exchange their burns for mine. My skin hurts and it looks like an ugly mess to me but it is temporary. God will grow me back some new skin. I can be happy for the many people who only get a mild sunburn type reaction from radiation even though that wasn’t what happened to me, it could be much, much worse. God has helped me through every single thing that I did not want to do in fighting cancer, gave me the courage to do it, and it is behind me. I can press forward now. In God’s economy I can be brave, hopeful, and unafraid. I choose to live in God’s economy.

    723. A precious friend emailed me this: “but God is faithful through my discouraging responses and I am thankful for His grace and that His mercies are new every morning.”

    I got her permission to quote her here. That’s what I feel like too. I mess up all the time. I’m so glad for 1 John 1:9 and that He does forgive , cleanse us from all unrighteousness, and pull us out of our pits, even though we often keep crawling back to where we don’t want to be in our responses , etc. He has so much better for us than the flesh. I love that quote ,”When Satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.” There is therefore now NO condemnation in Christ Jesus. I have been lamenting over this exact thing of “my discouraging responses” in my own life. Like Paul, so often I do what I don’t want to be doing and don’t do what I should be doing. I’m glad God included that in the Bible. God alone truly is my hope–not just with the cancer thing but with all my thoughts, attitudes, actions.

  107. Paula says:

    724. “God is in control, and therefore in EVERYTHING I can give thanks – not because of the situation but because of the One who directs and rules over it. “–Kay Arthur

    725

    1 Thessalonians 5:18
    Thank [God] in everything [no matter what the circumstances may be, be thankful and give thanks], for this is the will of God for you [who are] in Christ Jesus [the Revealer and Mediator of that will]. (AMP)

    Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus (NLT)

    In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (NKJ)

    726. “If my life is surrendered to God, all is well. Let me not grab it back, as though it were in peril in His hand but would be safer in mine!” –Elizabeth Elliot

    727 “Anyone can have peace when the sun is shining and everything is going great. But the peace that God offers is peace that controls our hearts and keeps us calm, even when everything around us is raging. “ The peace OF God is mine in Christ. http://jamesmacdonald.com/blog/?p=10339#more-10339

    727.” Fear Not, I am with you” song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOMASMquh84

    728.. I will Praise You in the Storm song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHdcyue0bSw

  108. Paula says:

    729. Chat with Esther M re: analogies about prayer gleaned during her ladies Bible study:

    1.magnifying glass – God’s power covers the earth. Prayer focuses and magnifies His power on a particular situation or a specific life. That life or situation, consistently exposed to His intense power, is changed by it. The power belongs to God. Prayer focuses the power of God. God’s specific and intervening power is released into circumstances and individual lives by prayer.
    2.signature/check – Imagine that a business man is going to set up a corporation. He is the boss. He is sovereign over every decision about the corporation, and there are many options for how to set things up. One decision to make is this: Will he require one signature on a check or will he require two signatures on a check? He decides that it requires two signatures. From then on, two signatures are required. Why? Because the business man CHOSE to need them. Andrew Murray: “God’s intense longing to bless seems in some sense to be graciously limited by His dependence on the intercession that rises from earth. He seeks to rouse the spirit of intercession that HE may be able to bestow His blessing on mankind. God regards intercession as the highest readiness to receive and to yield themselves wholly to the working of His almighty power.” The Almighty God has chosen to condition the release of His intervening power on the prayers of His people!!!!!!
    3.Things happen when we pray that wouldn’t happen if we did not pray. (Ken Johnson quote passed along from Marilyn to Esther to me to you)
    4.Prayer is not overcoming God’s reluctance, but laying hold of God’s willingness. Ro 10:12 “God richly blesses all who call on Him.”
    730. I had two anniversaries on Dec 30th: a happy one and a sad memory one . 22 years ago yesterday I married my best friend (that’s the very HAPPY one! John is a great husband.). Yesterday also marked my one year “cancerversary”: the day I went from thinking I was very healthy to discovery of breast cancer. Actually, God used that nightmarish mammogram to get me some help and for that I am grateful. Whatayear! Ladies–anybody due for a mammogram or a thermogram they are putting off? My advice is to delay no longer. Mine on 12/30/10 revealing aggressive multifocal stage 3 breast cancer was done exactly ONE year to the month after a normal one that revealed only fibrocystic breast disease. We have much to praise Him for! Friends, don’t forget to be faithful with monthly self breast exams. I was lax and sporatic about doing mine.

    731. Our family saw “Courageous” http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1630036/ showing at a church last night. It was excellent and a blessing for me to count. It increases my desire to be the wife and mother God wants me to be. I looked up the “Resolution” mentioned in the movie:

    The Resolution Message for men: “I do solemnly resolve before God to take full responsibility for myself, my wife, and my children. I WILL love them, protect them, serve them, and teach them the Word of God as the spiritual leader of my home. I WILL be faithful to my wife, to love and honor her, and be willing to lay down my life for her as Jesus Christ did for me. I WILL bless my children and teach them to love God with all of their hearts, all of their minds, and all of their strength. I WILL train them to honor authority and live responsibly. I WILL confront evil, pursue justice, and love mercy. I WILL pray for others and treat them with kindness, respect, and compassion. I WILL work diligently to provide for the needs of my family. I WILL forgive those who have wronged me and reconcile with those I have wronged. I WILL learn from my mistakes, repent of my sins, and walk with integrity as a man answerable to God. I WILL seek to honor God, be faithful to His church, obey His Word, and do His will. I WILL courageously work with the strength God provides to fulfill this resolution for the rest of my life and for His glory. As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. —Joshua 24:15″

    I might possibly adapt the above into my version as helpmeet to John and Mom to Nicholas, Joy, and Hannah I can use–will think about that.

    732 “Behavior wags the tail of feelings, we do, therefore we feel.” David Reynolds

    Talking to myself through my application of that quote: Paula Girl: consistently line your thoughts up with God’s Word, then ACT, doing the right thing, God’s way whether you feel like it or not. You thereby will not be ruled by fickle emotion or on an emotional rollercoaster ride based on”how things are going at a particular point in time” or the simple fluctuation of hormones affected by drugs used in the treatment of cancer. You, Paula, can CHOOSE to be happy and at peace based on the truths in the Bible and operate like that, even during the times when your circumstances are not happy or peaceful. This is not “fake”, it is allowing the Lord to do a genuine work in my heart.

  109. Paula says:

    733. A New Beginning: A New Year’s Inspiration: http://www.worshiphousemedia.com/mini-movies/16526/New-Years-Inspiration

    734 Psalm 37:4
    Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.

    Delight: to have great pleasure and enjoyment, enrapture

    Can it be that He wants me to delight in Him so that the deepest desires of my heart are no longer the things/circumstances that I think I want but rather that HE HIMSELF becomes the desire of my heart? Therefore, the more I would delight in Him, the more He would give me of HIMSELF. Father, please teach me to truly be delighting myself in You. that I would have more of You.

    735. ”It’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.” (Abraham Lincoln) I am thankful for the life in my years and the years in my life.

    736. These are some thoughts from Chuck Swindoll that were a blessing to me today:
    “He (God) only promises to reveal Himself to us, when we seek Him. That’s because He doesn’t want us to know the future – He wants us to know Him. He is our future. When we know Him, He guides us into the future He has for us.”
    “In place of our exhaustion and spiritual fatigue, God will give us rest. All He asks is that we come to Him…that we spend a while thinking about Him, meditating on Him, talking to Him, listening in silence, occupying ourselves with Him – totally and thoroughly lost in the hiding place of His presence.”

  110. Paula says:

    737. “No matter how far away from God you’ve gone, when you surrender your life to the Lord, a path is carved from where you are to where you are supposed to be, and He puts you on it. If the path you’ve been on is crooked, He will make it straight. If you are headed in the wrong direction, He will turn you around. If you have come to a standstill, He will get you moving. If you are going around in circles, He will correct your course and cause you to arrive at your destination. The simple act of giving your life to Him will immediately put you on the correct path and aim you in the right direction. As you take one step at a time, holding God’s Hand and letting Him lead, He will get you where you need to go.” (From “Just enough light for the step I’m on: trusting God in the tough times” by Stormie Omartian)

    738. The $5 entrance fee special at Lego Land which allowed the kids an extra- fun day yesterday

    739. Answered prayer that my radiation burns are healing up nicely. Thank You God for the new skin you are giving me!

    740. Psalm 17:8 “Keep me as the apple of the eye, hide me under the shadow of thy wings”. THAT’S where I want to be and stay, Lord.

  111. Paula says:

    741. Psalm 138: 1-3 (KJV)
    1I will praise thee with my whole heart: before the gods will I sing praise unto thee.

    2I will worship toward thy holy temple, and praise thy name for thy lovingkindness and for thy truth: for thou hast magnified thy word above all thy name.

    3In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.

    Personalizing Psalm 138:1-3 for myself a la Paula, combining a variety of translations:

    I will praise You and give thanks to You with my whole heart, O Lord–ALL of it-nothing held back. Thank you! Everything in me says “Thank you!”
    Before the gods, in the presence of angels, and before people I will sing praises to You and of You. I will worship and bow down toward Your holy temple, and praise Your name. I will thank You for Your unfailing lovingkindness, Your faithfulness, and Your truth; for You have magnified Your word above all Your name. Most holy is Your name, most holy is Your Word. All your promises are backed by the honor of Your name. You are true to Your Word. In the day when I cried out and asked for Your help, You answered me. As soon as I pray, you answer me. Before I even think of what I’m going to pray about or speak it in my heart or out loud, You know all about it and have the answer. The moment I called out, you stepped in; you made my life large with strength. Yes, You made me bold with strength in my soul, you encourage me by giving me all the strength I need. You give me courage.

    ———————-
    742. Quotes from Elizabeth Elliot :
    “Faith is not an instinct. It certainly is not a feeling – feelings don’t help much when you’re in the lions’ den or hanging on a wooden Cross. Faith is not inferred from the happy way things work. It is an act of will, a choice, based on the unbreakable Word of a God who cannot lie, and who showed us what love and obedience and sacrifice mean, in the person of Jesus Christ.
    When ours are interrupted, his are not. His plans are proceeding exactly as scheduled, moving us always (including those minutes or hours or years which seem most useless or wasted or unendurable) “toward the goal of true maturity” (Rom 12:2 JBP).

    “God never witholds from His child that which His love and wisdom call good. God’s refusals are always merciful- “severe mercies” at times but mercies all the same. God never denies us our hearts desire except to give us something better.”

    We have ample evidence that the Lord is able to guide. The promises cover every imaginable situation. All we need to do is to take the hand he stretches out.
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    743. Quotes from Joni:

    God is more concerned with conforming me to the likeness of His Son than leaving me in my comfort zones. God is more interested in inward qualities than outward circumstances – things like refining my faith, humbling my heart, cleaning up my thought life and strengthening my character.

    Sometimes God allows what he hates to accomplish what he loves

    We will stand amazed to see the topside of the tapestry and how God beautifully embroidered each circumstance into a pattern for our good and His glory.

    Whatever troubles are weighing you down are not chains. They are featherweight when compared to the glory yet to come. With a sweep of a prayer and the praise of a child’s heart, God can strip away any cobweb.

    It is a glorious thing to know that your Father God makes no mistakes in directing or permitting that which crosses the path of your life. It is the glory of God to conceal a matter. It is our glory to trust Him, no matter what.

    Real satisfaction comes not in understanding God’s motives, but in understanding His character, in trusting in His promises, and in leaning on Him and resting in Him as the Sovereign who knows what He is doing and does all things well.

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    744. Leaning on the Everlasting Arms http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVjwy9JXkBU&feature=related

    745. Excitement and anticipation about flying to AZ next Wednesday to visit my family and friends for a week–yeah!

  112. Paula says:

    746. Turning North Go-To Scripts http://lysaterkeurst.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/TurningNorthGoToScripts.pdf

    “If you fnd yourself stuck in a defeating

    mess, try replacing your old thoughts

    with these empowering thoughts. I call these “Go-to scripts.” In other words,

    these statements can become our new patterns of thought as the Messiah

    touches our mess and turns it into a great message of hope to this world.

    1. I was made for more than to be stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat.

    Deuteronomy 2:3, “You have circled this mountain long enough. Now

    turn north.”

    2. When I am considering a compromise, I will think past this moment

    and ask myself, how will I feel about this choice tomorrow morning?

    1 Corinthians 6:19, “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,

    whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought with a price.

    Therefore honor God with your body.”

    3. When tempted, I either remove the temptation or remove myself from the situation.

    1 Corinthians 10:13-14, “…God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can

    bear. But when you are tempted, he will provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

    Therefore, my dear friends, fee…”

    4. I don’t have to worry about letting God down because I was never holding Him up –

    God’s grace is sufficient.

    2 Corinthians 12:9-11, “But he said to me, ’My grace is sufcient for you, for my power is made

    perfect in weakness… for when I am weak, then I am strong.’”

    5. I have these boundaries in place not for restriction but rather to defne the parameters of

    my freedom.

    Romans 6:19-20, “I put this in human terms because you are weak in your natural selves. Just as

    you used to ofer the parts of your body in slavery to impurity and to ever-increasing wickedness,

    so now ofer them in slavery to righteousness leading to holiness.”

    These are taken from Lysa TerKeurst’s new book

    Made to Crave

    – which can be purchased wherever

    books are sold. Visit http://www.MadetoCrave.org for more information on this book.

    Lysa TerKeurst helps everyday women live an adventure of faith through following Jesus Christ. As

    president of Proverbs 31 Ministries, Lysa has led thousands to make their walk with God an

    invigorating journey. Visit http://www.LysaTerKeurst.com for more daily thoughts from Lysa.

  113. Paula says:

    747. E.M. Bounds — “Prayer has in it the possibility to affect everything which affects us.” Prayer is a gift from Him to me. God is challenging me to pray more and worry less.

    748. I can Only Imagine http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xwzItqYmII&feature=related Heaven is going to be even better than anything I can imagine. It’s for real and I will go there in God’s perfect timing: not one moment before or after.

    749. Here I am to Worship http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoxopsRSfdU&feature=related

    750, It is always possible to be thankful for what is given rather than resentful over what is withheld–one attitude or the other becomes a way of life. (Elizabeth Elliot).

    751.

    Matthew 6:19-21
    19 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
    752. I am rich with wonderful people in my life.

  114. Paula says:

    753. What struck me most in Acts 16:16-34 is Paul and Silas’ response after they were stripped , severely beaten, and thrown into an inner dungeon in prison with their feet clamped in the stocks. Those guys were up at midnight praying and singing hymns to God! What a response! You betcha the other prisoners were listening with ears wide open. Can you imagine what it must have been like to be there when the massive earthquake hit, the prison was shaken to it’s foundation, doors flew open, and chains fell off every prisoner?! I wonder what lasting impact that experience must have had on all those in prison. We know the jailer and his entire household rejoiced because they all believed in the Lord Jesus and were saved. Wow.

    Thank You, Lord for this example of men responding to an awful situation with the grace that YOU gave them and the fruit that resulted from that. YOU did that work in Paul and Silas’ hearts when they were unjustly punished for doing what You called them to do and you supernaturally worked and intervened and brought forth the fruit. Paul and Silas were the open vessels for You to use and You had full reign to do what You wanted to do on that day in the lives of all involved. Still today the account of that event impacts hearts like mine. Teach me to walk closely with You , Father through the rough things and watch You work.

    754. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LA2CpQWg2pA&feature=results_video&playnext=1&list=PL5563B94194A94C54

    This song is rockier than I personally like:if you prefer to skip it, the words are below. My “gift” is gleaned from the challenge in the lyrics ”This is your life, are you who you want to be?”. My response is, ”No, I am not. I have so much growing I need to do. I praise the Lord though that by God’s grace and enabling power I have his fresh starts 24/7/365 and by His grace I can change, I am changing, and I will continue to change–all becausemy Father is so patient and loving even though I sure do struggle and mess up a lot.” He never, ever gives up on me. He picks me up, brsuhes me off, forgives me, and gives me fresh mercies every day. I pray that He will continually conform me to the image of His Son.

    This is Your Life
    By Switchfoot

    “Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
    Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken

    Don’t close your eyes,
    don’t close your eyes

    This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
    Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have

    Don’t close your eyes
    Don’t close your eyes

    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
    When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

    Yesterday is a kid in the corner
    Yesterday is dead and over
    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
    When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

    Don’t close your eyes
    Don’t close your eyes
    Don’t close your eyes
    Don’t close your eyes

    This is your life are you who you want to be
    This is your life are you who you want to be

    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, are you who you want to be
    This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
    When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

    And you had everything to lose”

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    755. I’m almost all packed for my trip to see family and friends in Tucson. I leave tomorrow–yipeee! I’m very excited and happy about going! Thank You Lord for this gift and all the details revolving around it!

  115. Paula says:

    756. I flew into Tucson yesterday and am having a marvelous time with my Mom and my sisters and their families. I can see that the week is going to FLY by! Thank You, Lord and thank you dear, precious family at home that made it possible for me to come.

    757. My Father in Law gave me John Hagee’s book, “The Seven Secrets: Unlocking Genuine Greatness (Thanks, Dad!). It was one of the 2 books I read on the plane and am enjoying it. Here is quote from the book that is meaningful to me:

    “Have you surrendered to despair because of your past or the inevitable situations in your life? Stop it! The greatest days of your life are before you. The past is over. Stop living life looking in the rear view mirror. Look forward. Press on! The best is yet to be, God never consults your past to determine your future.”–Hagee

    758. Thank You Lord for dirty dishes: a symbol of both Your provision of food for my family and the appetite and health to want it. Money can’t purchase that last part.

    759. Someday Isle by Dennis Waitley

    There is an island fantasy
    A “Someday I’ll” well never see

    When recession stops, inflation ceases
    Our Mortgage is paid, our pay increases

    That Someday Isle where problems end
    Where every piece of mail is from a friend

    Where the children are sweet, already grown
    Where all the nations can go it alone

    Where we all retire at forty-one
    Playing Football in the island sun

    Most unhappy people look to tomorrow
    To erase this day’s hardship and sorrow

    They put happiness on lay-away
    And struggle through a blue today

    But happiness cannot be sought
    It can’t be earned, it can’t be bought

    Life’s most important revelation
    It’s the journey that means as much as the
    destination

    Happiness is where you are right now,
    Pushing a pencil or pushing a plow

    It’s knocking on doors and making your calls
    It’s getting back up after your falls

    It’s going to school or standing in line
    Tasting defeat, tasting the wine

    If you live in the past you become senile
    If you live in the future your on Someday I’ll

    The fear of results is procrastination
    The joy of today is a celebration

    You can save, you can slave, trudging mile after mile
    But you’ll never set foot on your “Someday I’ll”

    When you’ve paid all your dues and put in your time
    Out of nowhere comes another Mt. Everest to climb

    I have decided Today to make it my Vow
    To take Someday I’ll and make it NOW

    ———–

    My gift in this poem is the exhortation to stop procrastinating, period. I will make every day count that God gives me.

    760. 2 Corinthians 3:18

    18 But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.

  116. Paula says:

    761. I praise the Lord for an extraordinarily wonderful time with Mom, Bets, Veikko, Jason, Heidi, and Jenny in Tucson–such a huge gift from the Lord! What a great week! Home sweet home for me tomorrow night

    762. Pastor Todd, Pastor Tim, and the Congregation at Desert Son Community Church and the opportunity I had to share some of the things the Lord has been teaching me with them. What a loving Body of Christ!

    763. Fresh pecans from Dan’s trees

    764. Energy and health to enjoy all the fun activities here

    765. The blessing of special time with Ernestina, Sue, and Terri

    766. A precious time with Jenny in the hammock under the dessert sky snuggled in a blanket together, hide and go seek with her and Haddle in their great big house, games galore, the joy of doing little projects for Mom, painting Ben’s Bells http://www.bensbells.org/, shopping, watching the DVDs Flywheel and Fireproof together thanks to the Mateers loan. Hopefully we’ll get to “Facing the Giants” today too–one of my favorites.

    767. Good food and memories, laughing our heads off together

    768. Fragrant home made goats milk soap from Terri

  117. Paula says:

    769. Great time catching up with Mollie, Mary, and Amanda in Asian Restaurant

    770. Precious memories with Bets planting a letterbox http://www.atlasquest.com/, going to the nursery she works at at beeing the gorgeous cacti and petrified wood, just being together with her and rest of the family has been a treasure to me.

    771. Veikko beating his Marathon times every time and great run in Phoenix–amazing!

    772. Home sweet home for me today

    773. Good start for Joy and Hannah in Upwards Basketball last night

    774. “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10) He holds my past, present, and future. I can completely rest in His love.

    775. The quails and bunny and beautiful dessert and mountains Bets and I saw on our walk

    776. Julie sending me yesterday’s and today’s jokes which tickled my funny bone

  118. Paula says:

    777. I serve a great big God. I serve a risen Saviour. I serve One who could not love me more than He already does.

    778. 1 Peter 4:12 “Think it not strange concerning the fiery trials you go through.” God has an excellent purpose for every single trial I will ever face and He promises to be with me through them all.

    779. Paul’s response to the hard things he went through: “In all these things we are more than conquerers” (Rm 8:37)

    780. Warm hugs and kisses and open arms and a wonderful husband and children that I love who were waiting for me to return home to on Tuesday night. It was a great vacation and great to be home.

  119. Paula says:

    781. “More often than not, the thorn we want gone is the very thing God is using to accomplish something good in us. Paul’s weakened condition made room for the strength of Christ, a strength he would need for all that lay ahead, a strength that would give him a larger capacity to enjoy the blessings that God had in store for him. Weakness in God’s people is always a blessing in disguise, but it’s hard to see it as such when we are feeling it keenly. We look for any escape, any way we can find back to the strength of self-sufficiency and daily tranquility. While we are anxiously looking for a way out, what we don’t see is that our thorn isn’t our real problem. What is actually making us anxious is our heart’s demand to be free of it. If we’d just stop resisting, we’d find grace to live peacefully with our difficult spouse, our multiple sclerosis, or our unemployment. If we are willing, we will find that we really don’t need the thorn removed–divine grace is sufficient. God will prove that to us if we let Him.” from a devotional called “Trust”

    782. Come to the Quiet http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2R-Vpo26ys An old favorite of long ago rediscovered

    783. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OqY9-QCepuQ

    My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine; For Thee all the follies of sin I resign; My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou; If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now. I love Thee because Thou hast first loved me, And purchased my pardon on Calvary’s tree; I love Thee for wearing the thorns upon Thy brow; If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now. In mansions of glory and endless delight, I’ll ever adore Thee in heaven so bright; I’ll sing with the glittering crown on my brow, If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.

    784. Uneventful flight for John today–over the border to Mexico tomorrow for a week’s ministry trip

    785. Special time with each of my kiddos today–these precious times are treasures to us. Every day I am alive is a gift to us from God. I will not take any of them for granted any more.

  120. Paula says:

    786. “No ifs, ands, or buts, dear God. I trust you with the road ahead!” (From Sue’s sig line)

    787. “I can not, but HE CAN.” (Andy Stanley)

    788. Psalm 63:8 My soul followeth hard after thee, Thy Right Hand upholdeth me.

    789. But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you,
    for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
    Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,
    so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
    That is why, for Christ’s sake,
    I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.
    For when I am weak, then I am strong.
    2 CORINTHIANS 12:9-10

    790. Don coming through cardiac bypass surgery with flying colors

    791.

    My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
    PSALM 73:26

    792. “I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
    PHILIPPIANS 4:13

    793. Love and kindness between my children

    794. Beautiful music by the Talbets recc by Kathy (Thx, Kathy!):
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EqS2uXMR8k
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3FPY3RZ9Pk

  121. Paula says:

    795. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sG94EKGDcU Healing is in Your Hands by Christy Nockels

    796. Psalm 34:6

    6 In my desperation I prayed, and the LORD listened;
    he saved me from all my troubles. (NLT)

    This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
    And saved him out of all his troubles. (NKJ)

    This suffering person cried out:
    the LORD listened and saved him
    from every trouble. (CEB)
    6 When I was desperate, I called out,
    and God got me out of a tight spot. (The Message)

    797. A fruitful ministry trip in Mexico for John–my Sweetheart back home with us tomorrow

    798. Esther so generously making me fresh veggie juice that floods my body with cancer-fighting nutrients and God’s marvelous provision with organic veggies

    799. A few ruby red grapefruit left from Mom’s tree (yummers) in my fruit bowl–lingering memories of a precious family time in Arizona

    800. A cute zebra shirt that fits and suits my Hannah beautifully at the M.B.

    801. Daughters that will scratch their Momma’s itchy back pretty much whenever I want

    802. “When everything seems to be falling apart, that is when God is putting it back together exactly how He wants it”

    803. Lunch with Ruth B at one of my favorite restaurant today (Sweet Tomatoes)

  122. Paula says:

    804. Ruth’s gift of the country sign I look forward to hanging up: “Count your blessings. Recounts Ok”. Love it!

    805. The fun of being able to go to the girl’s basketball game today /special time with Nicholas sharing the political rally this week and his opportunity to do some political volunteering coming up

    806. Borrowed the “Made to Crave” DVD and watched it last night. The principles make sense to me. “God made us capable of craving so we’d have an unquenchable desire for more of Him, and Him alone, Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our misguided cravings to the only one capable of satisfying them.”–Lysa Terkeurst

    807. Grace to follow through with ACTION on what I am learning

    808. He is with me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_cq6SJitIY

    809.

    Isaiah 12:2-5
    King James Version (KJV)

    2Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the LORD JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation.

    3Therefore with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation.

    4And in that day shall ye say, Praise the LORD, call upon his name, declare his doings among the people, make mention that his name is exalted.

    5Sing unto the LORD; for he hath done excellent things: this is known in all the earth.

    Isaiah 12:2-5
    The Message (MSG)

    2“Yes, indeed—God is my salvation.
    I trust, I won’t be afraid.
    God—yes God!—is my strength and song,
    best of all, my salvation!”

    3-4Joyfully you’ll pull up buckets of water
    from the wells of salvation.
    And as you do it, you’ll say,
    ”Give thanks to God.
    Call out his name.
    Ask him anything!
    Shout to the nations, tell them what he’s done,
    spread the news of his great reputation!

    5-6“Sing praise-songs to God. He’s done it all!
    Let the whole earth know what he’s done!
    Raise the roof! Sing your hearts out, O Zion!
    The Greatest lives among you: The Holy of Israel.”

    810. John: a faithful, loving, godly husband and dad to come home to us after a week away.

    811. “The Perserverence Principle: It’s always too soon to quit” (John Hagee in “The 7 Secrets: Unlocking Genuine Greatness”)

    812. By faith I give God all my mountains and say, “Mountains, get out of my way.”. Matt 17:20: NOTHING is impossible to them that believe.”

    813.

    People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
    Love them anyway.If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
    Do good anyway.

    If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
    Succeed anyway.

    The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
    Do good anyway.

    Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
    Be honest and frank anyway.

    The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
    Think big anyway.

    People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
    Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

    What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
    Build anyway.

    People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
    Help people anyway.

    Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
    Give the world the best you have anyway.

    814. The Don’t Quit Poem; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Igj_-rxX70A&feature=fvst

    Paula

    815. If God be 4 me, who can be against me? Rm 8:31

  123. Paula says:

    815.

    I have just started to memorize and meditate on Psalm 34 in NKJV. This is what I have down so far:
    Psalm 34:1-3
    New King James Version (NKJV)

    I will bless the Lord at all times;
    His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
    My soul shall make its boast in the Lord;
    The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
    Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
    And let us exalt His name together.

    I looked at Psalm 34:1-3 in the KJV, The Message, the Amplified Bible, The New Living Translation, NIV and combined them for me to think about it some more and personalize it for myself:
    1 I will bless and extol God, my precious Lord every chance I get, all the time ; my lungs expand with his praise continually overflowing from my lips.
    Paula, do you and will you really choose to bless God at ALL times? Even and most especially when things are not going well? Will you allow Him to do His work in you so there is a continual overflow of praise, The Life of Christ filling up your life and flowing out to those around you? Nothing fake–just the genuine real McCoy? You can not do this work in yourself but He surely can.
    2 I live and breathe God; I will boast only in the Lord, I will glory in the Lord
    Be humble and confess your pride. Even if things aren’t going well, and you are afflicted, or feeling helpless hear this, take heart, be happy, be glad, rejoice:

    ..,letting go of all pride and self life, not seeking to impress others, boasting only in the Lord, immersing myself in God to listen to Him, HEAR Him, be glad in Him. 3 Join me in spreading the news; magnify and glorify Him with me, come, let us tell of His greatness
    together let’s get the word out and exalt His name.

    –Let’s MAGNIFY Him, GLORIFY Him, lift Him up and tell of His greatness!

    816. “Beautiful” By Mercy Me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8WnAq0o2Xl8

    “You’re beautiful.

    You are treasured.

    You are loved.

    You are His. “

    817. “Above All” : http://www.godvine.com/Cute-5-Year-Old-Kaitlyn-Maher-Sings-Above-All-219.html

    818. Somebody’s birthday card that touched my heart: http://www.godvine.com/Man-Gives-his-Wife-a-Touching-Birthday-Gift-Before-Dying-of-Cancer-1033.html

    819. On Bets’ frig: “God gave you a gift of 86, 400 seconds today. Have you used one to say ‘Thank you’”? (William Ward )

  124. Paula says:

    820. Beautiful account below Julie sent me that touched my heart (Can’t wait to see ya soon, Julie!):

    “I don’t think anyone’s truly equipped to go out in front of 1 billion, 2 billion, 3 billion people on an Olympic stage, and you’re scared of your mind, on a 200 by 100 surface of ice. You wonder why you do this because you’re so nervous. On two 10-inch lengths of quarter inch wide steel. “Get me through this, just get me through this.” And you’re to manipulate those edges for 4 and 1/2 minutes, and do triple jumps, and athleticism, and not make a mistake. It’s impossible.

    But I found a way to be just good enough to win the gold medal. The more I look back on it, I think that’s been unbelievably awesome. Like “that was me?” I always thought if I could be really good on the ice I could become famous. But I think I’m probably more known now for my health problems than I am for anything I ever did on skates.

    When I was very little, I suffered from a disease that stopped me from growing. I was in and out of hospitals for years and I was never really home.

    And so what ended up happening was I came back from being in and out hospitals and I ended up doing the skating club thing just by accident. And I found skating, which kind of took on a life of its own.

    And it progressed and pretty soon I’m competing, pretty soon I’m living away from home. All my role models and the people that were teaching me how to live day-to-day were older skaters. So there was a lot of it that was terrific, but a lot of it that really wasn’t guiding me in any real direction.

    It wasn’t until I suffered the devastation of my mother losing her battle to cancer that something was awakened in me. I knew I needed something more, something better. I think I needed to have some strength and my mother was my source of strength. When she was living I would disappoint her. But when she when she was gone, I just didn’t ever want to be less than she thought I could be.

    I was happy to just work, I was happy to just entertain. I’d do well and that was good enough. Skating had given me life as a child and it gave me kind of a strength is an adult. But what was about to happen really changed my life forever.

    Cancer, it put me into a phase of my life where I just needed to kind of sort it all out. “I just survived something, why?” I survived something that took the most important person in my life off the planet, that was my mother. She died of cancer and I survived. What’s my purpose now? What do I need to do?

    And a big part of that dust settling was getting with Tracie, and she brought me to the church. She took me to a minister, a man named Ken Durham. And the first thing he said to me, which was extraordinary was, he goes, “you have to understand that Christianity is a faith of history. These things actually happened.” And I go, “OK, that’s a good starting-off point.” And just study what has happened and see how that resonates in your own life. And it grew, it was like “OK, I get it. “

    When you survive testicular cancer and you want to start a family, you don’t know what the issues are going to be. And I prayed that I would someday become a father. Tracie and I, we got engaged, and married, and then my son was born nine months and two days after we got married. So I guess there was a plan there.

    I thought I’d paid my health dues when I had cancer, but this was another whole issue. I have a brain tumor. How do I tell my wife? And we have a 14-month-old son. How do I tell my wife that I have a brain tumor.

    I had just gotten the news an hour before. I met them at the hotel and she goes, what’s going on? And I said, I have a brain tumor. And she took my hands and without hesitation, she just started to pray. And it was in that moment I knew where I was going to put everything.

    My trust, my faith, everything. So the most powerful moment in my life. From that moment forward, we just said, “whatever it is, whatever it takes, we’ll face this. “When they’re going to do a biopsy, they tell you we’re going to drill a hole in your head, and then we’re going to take a needle down through your brain, and take a piece of the tumor. They said, “we seem to have found a safe corridor to do this.” And I go, “well I’m not using most of it.” But they tell you all the things that can go wrong in that surgery.

    And I remember waking up and looked at the clock and it was 10:20. I knew where I was and then the next thing I saw was my wife come in with a smile on the face. She said, “they know what it is.”

    And they found out that that brain tumor was one that I was born with you, one that I’ve had since birth, which inhibited my growth as a young child. That was the mysterious illness I had that they never diagnosed, that got me into skating.

    Who would I be without a brain tumor? I’m 5 foot 4, if I were 5′ 8″-if I would have grown those years-5′ 10″, where would I be, who would I do? I could choose to look it as debilitating. I could choose to focus on the suffering. I choose to look at that brain tumor as the greatest gift I could’ve gotten because it made everything else possible.

    I didn’t see past it this time. I didn’t think I would survive. At one point I was starting to really feel weak. And one nurse in particular, I was up at 3 o’clock in the morning, and I was uncomfortable, and she goes, can I get you anything? And I just said, “no, I’m just a little scared.”

    And she said, “do you pray?” I said, “yes.” And she said, “what do you say when you pray?” I go,” I just thank God for all the blessings in my life.”

    “ Do you ask him for anything?” “No, I just want him to know I’m grateful. I’m grateful. “

    “Well, who is God to you?” I said, “well I guess he’s my father.” “Oh, you’re a father, right?” “Yes.” “If one of your children were hurting, wouldn’t you want him to come to you for comfort and strength?” “Yes.”

    So I changed the way I pray now. I ask, uninhibitedly I ask. I ask to heal. I ask for strength. I ask for courage.

    I ask for another child. Want to talk about miracles? After surviving a pituitary brain tumor, it’s impossible, practically impossible. I did six injections a week for two years. No luck, we’re not meant to have another child. We gave it to God. A month later we found out that Max was on his way, Miracle Max.

    When I look back and I see all those little moments in my life where I needed a great deal of strength, I understand that through a strong relationship with Jesus you can endure anything. I just learned that the only true disability in life is a bad attitude. God is there to guide you through the tough spots. God was there every single time, every single time.

    My name is Scott Hamilton and I am Second.”

    http://www.iamsecond.com/seconds/scott-hamilton/#.TyLOInoTpgY.facebook

    821. Working on my memorization and meditation:

    Psalm 34:4-5
    New King James Version (NKJV)

    4 I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
    And delivered me from all my fears.
    5 They looked to Him and were radiant,
    And their faces were not ashamed.

    Comparing some translations and combining them to think about:

    I looked for the Lord, I sought Him, I prayed to Him, and He answered me. And He took away all my fears, He delivered me, He freed me. They looked to Him for help (and I can too) and their faces shined and were radiant with joy. Their faces will never be darkened with the shadow of shame.

    822. Met a very nice group of people at a cancer support meeting that I attended for the first time last night. I even won a fun prize that I am saving for a great birthday gift for Joy in June in a BINGO game that gave ideas about stress relief with each number called)

    823. Sharon sharing today’s joke that made me laugh and being so kind to consult her daughter-in-law who is an ENT Dr on my behalf for some input and ideas on some issues I am having (I saw an ENT locally as well and would appreciate prayer for wisdom and healing of a persistent cough and weird noises that come out of my throat at night–might possibly be laryngopharyngeal reflux caused by the cancer treatments or something else)

    824. Kathy done with radiation treatments too—yipeeeeee. Thank you, Lord, You got ub both through!!!!

    825. My sister-in-law Kelley having second mastectomy yesterday (prophylactic) with bilateral reconstruction: surgery went well, thank you Lord.

    826. Gonga deal on yogurt and almond milk yesterday–God’s special provision for some fun variety with the kid’s breakfasts

    827. Nicholas’ excitement re: voting for the first time yesterday as an 18 year old. Praise that we can trust the Lord with however the election turns out in November

  125. Paula says:

    828. “He Wants it all Today”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUMRqJCV9Q4

    829. “God gives the very best to those who leave the choice up to Him.”–a nugget from Cherrie along with jugs of alkaline water

    830. Letting and Learning Devotion: http://psalm119greaterthangold.net/letting-and-leaning

    831. “Oh, my friend, it’s not what they take away from you that counts – it’s what you do with what you have left. ” ~Hubert Humphrey

    832. A stumbling block to the pessimist is a stepping stone to the optimist.
    Eleanor Roosevelt, Former First Lady

    833. David Beckham via Kris Carr’s Crazy, Sexy Cancer Tips (book was a gift from Jacki):“Impossible is a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is an opinion not a fact. Impossible isn’t a declaration it’s a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing.”

    834. “SET BACKS ARE ONLY OPPORTUNITIES TO REVIEW THE LESSON”.835. “I WILL NOT BE ASHAMED OF MY SCARS. MY SCARS ARE THE BRUSH STROKES IN THE MASTERPIECE THAT IS MY LIFE.”

    836. “That which does not kill us makes us stronger.” – Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

    837. Sweet times with the Lord walking on the Riverwalk as I work on Scripture memorization and meditation

  126. Paula says:

    847. Lots of fun yesterday cheering on our girls and their Upward Basketball team mates (“The Fevers”). Joy and Hannah are brand-new novices in the sport but we see improvement and are happy they are learning some valuable lessons (I am too) while they are having a good time in this great atmosphere of Christ-like sportsmanship. Thanks Lord, for Coach Gene and Coach Bill!

    848. Refreshing cold snap this weekend going from shorts weather still in February to needing to cover my tomatoes and bringnig one potted plant inside due to freeze warnings

    849. “A hero does not have to win. A hero does not have to be larger than life. A hero can be an ordinary person who overcomes extraordinary events with dignity and grace.”

    850. “Today’s Mighty Oak Is Yesterday’s Nut That Held Its Ground”

    851. “Sometimes “courage” means that little voice on the end of the day saying “I will try again tomorrow” .

    852. “Success Is Getting What You Want. Happiness Is Wanting What You Get” By Dale Carnegie

    853. “WE ARE NOT AT OUR BEST WHEN WE ARE PERCHED AT THE SUMMIT;
    WE ARE AT OUR BEST CLIMBING – EVEN WHEN THE WAY IS STEEP.”

    854. “Sometimes we stare so long at our balloon in the sky we forget our ice cream is melting on our plate.Enjoy your ice cream…………….. “
    855.

    1 John 4:16-18
    New King James Version (NKJV)

    16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

    17 Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

    856.

    Romans 12:9-13

    New King James Version (NKJV)

    9 Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. 10 Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; 11 not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; 12 rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; 13 distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality.

    Praising the One Who is my salvation, my strength, my strong tower of defense, my hiding place, my refuge and ever present help in time of trouble, and my song,

  127. Paula says:

    856. Beth shared a link to chapter 1 of Laura Story’s new devotional on Blessings and I enjoyed it: http://laurastorymusic.com/free/blessings-chapter-1/ Her song “Blessings” has really ministered to me this past year..

    Esther M sharing these quotes/notes from ladies Bible Study which were an encouragement to me:

    857. S.D.Gordon, Quiet Talks on Prayer

    “In its simplest analysis prayer – all prayer – has, must have, two parts.

    First, a God to give…

    Second, a man to receive.

    Let it be said that God can do nothing for the man with shut hand and shut life.

    There must be an open hand and heart and life, through which God can give what He longs to.

    An open life, and open hand, open upward, is the pipeline of communication between the heart of God and this old befooled world.

    Our prayer is God’s opportunity to get into the world that would shut Him out.”

    858.Jennifer Dean Quotes from chapter 9

    “In His Word, God makes extravagant promises about prayer.

    He stands behind His Word. He does not distance Himself from those lavish promises in His Word as some Christians try to do.

    Mark 11:24, John 14:14, John 15:7 , John 16:23, Matthew 21:22, Mark 9:23

    You won’t find Him saying, “I didn’t really mean that – the way it sounds. I exaggerated to make a point.”

    Does your experience in prayer match God’s descriptions of prayer’s power given in His Word?

    James 5:16

    Is that how you would describe your prayer life – powerful and effective?

    Prayer impacts lives and situations on the earth.

    True prayer works.

    Perhaps we think prayer doesn’t work like the Bible says it will work.

    Why not? Could it be because we have tried to make prayer work on our terms and that the failure is not with prayer, but with our way of praying?

    Every promise to answered prayer in verses is linked to a relationship.

    The person who is abiding in Christ has desires that are God-shaped.”

    859,Quote from Andrew Murray, Abide In Christ

    “Believer, abide in Christ, for there is the school of prayer – mighty, effectual, answer-bringing prayer.

    Abide in Him and you shall learn what to so many is a mystery; That the secret of the prayer of faith is the life of faith – the life that abides in Christ alone.”

    860. Jennifer Dean Quote:

    “Dear Friend, put away childish things – little, flesh-shaped desires; short-sighted, earth-bound understanding.

    Yield yourself to His bigger agenda.

    Let Him do more than you can ask or even think.

    Let Him do His full and mighty work in you.

    Then every prayer promise is yours.”

    861. Since I put in my prayer requests in my blog last week I have been feeling significantly better, cough amazingly greatly reduced (it’s been going on since the end of Nov), less congestion, and I’ve had multiple nights of excellent sleep. I was so exhausted–it’s made a huge difference to sleep well and I am greatly encouraged. 🙂 I feel like I’ve had a major turn-around of progress in the respiratory issue and sleep improvement. THANK YOU all from the bottom of my heart for praying! How I hope this will continue!

    862. I am so grateful that I am tolerating the Herceptin well and it is not messing up my heart or other parts which it can do—I just want it to royally mess with any rogue her2 cells that dare to linger. My one year of IV Herceptin will be done in June–right around the corner. I am praising God that as far as I know, all this cancer treatment has been and will continue to be highly effective for me. To the best of my knowledge, I’m doing downright terrific and I am going to operate on the assumption that all is well in the cancer department. Hooray that, by God’s grace, I am a thriving survivor! I praise God that HE is in charge of my life, not cancer. The thought that I will not die one single second before it’s God’s perfect time to take me Home Sweet Home to Heaven brings me peace. Thank You Lord for my health exactly as it is and that I can trust You completely!

    863. Sister-in-law Kelley healing well from mastectomy and reconstructive surgery done 2 weeks ago. Prayer request: unexpected news of path report this week: invasive cancer in very early stages on second mastectomy in the breast not expected to have cancer

    864. Kids all doing very well with school work, extra curricular activities, sports, and volunteer work, including some challenging Fl Virtual School on-line classes and Nicholas’ dual enrollment classes at college. I PTL for graduation from High School in the horizon for him this year. I praise God we have been able to continue home schooling through even this difficult past year. Thank You Lord for John and the kids taking over so much for me when I was ill and being so wonderful!

    865. I am very grateful for the progress in the tourniquet sensation in my arm gained through prayer and therapy. There are still issues but I see definite improvement and I expect that to continue. Thank You Lord for my left arm. Thank You Lord for the therapy that Lisa is doing. I had an appointment with her yesterday, we are working at home on things we learn there, and it is making a difference. What a relief! I am so thankful that the skin that was a mess from radiation healed up beautifully.

    866. Thank You Lord that You are really, really helping me in walking in the victory that is mine in Christ in my eating and exercise plan. Again, thanks for praying! I have a ways to go to get back to my ideal weight and the level of physical fitness I desire but every day I am making good progress with God’s help. I resumed my 100% raw vegan diet (exclusively raw fruit and veggies with a few raw nuts) about a week ago, increased my exercise markedly and dropped 10 pounds in my first week back on the plan I was on for years—Yippeeeeee!!!!!! I feel so good eating this way. I’ve been waking up the last few days thinking , “Wow, I sure am feeling marvelous, Thank You Lord!” My joints took a big hit from the chemo and they are doing great this week. Supplements have really helped with chemo induced neuropathy symptoms too. Thank You, Lord. 2012 is my year of rebuilding and restoring my health, God willing. A physical goal I am working toward is to be in my ideal weight range, trim and physically fit, totally cancer-free and full of vitality and vibrant health. Accountability is a wonderful tool with weight loss and exercise and the Lord is providing that through my precious family and some dear friends. I plan to let you know here periodically of my progress and sure appreciate continued prayer! I am weak but He is strong.

    867. I am grateful for the fact that NOTHING is too hard for God…absolutely nothing.

  128. Paula says:

    868. Enjoyable ladies meeting last night. What a blessing to be able to walk there and back effortlassly with friends. Thank you Lord for all the exercise I am getting now (am loving my brisk walks, biking, and rebounding) and my returning stamina! Please help me to never take any of this for granted again, Father–all gifts from you to treasure.

    Esther M sharing notes from ladies Bible study:

    869. Chapter 7 – Hearing from God (Jennifer Dean)

    God speaks to us by revealing the truth in His Word at progressively deeper levels. Only He can do that. No matter how wonderful you may think a speaker or write is, he or she cannot reveal truth to your understanding. If someone’s words have produced new insight in you, it is because God Himself has revealed it. Information comes from outside sources. Revelation comes from God within you. I Cor 2:19-16

    God wants you to hear Him. He has put everything in place so that you and I will be able to hear Him speaking in the present tense. He speaks from within directly into our understanding. (This is NOT a ‘new age’ spiritualism that is permeated all through current books, movies, and the culture. This is hearing the Lord God Himself who in O.T. times dwelt with the people in a Tabernacle, but who in these days dwells within each believer and we hear His voice the more we listen and obey His voice… Are you spending more time with Him in His word than in the things of the World?)

    Thou hast given me an open ear. Psalm 40:6

    He wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. The Sovereign Lord has opened my ears. Isaiah 50:4-5

    870. The Institute for Creation Research – Henry Morris the 3rd

    A “spirit of revelation” is made available to us. This revelation (literally, “to take off the cover“) is not new doctrine or truth. Revelation is implemented by the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 2:10), having the source of His revelatory work from Jesus Christ on behalf of Christ (John 16:13-15).The Greek language of the phrase “the eyes of |our| understanding being enlightened” (Ephesians 1:18) could be translated “the vision of your deep thought will be made to shine,” or paraphrased in a more colloquial expression, “the light comes on!”

    830. “My Everything” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAqTXxqIqrk

  129. Paula says:

    31 Days of Praying for Your Husband
    http://www.reviveourhearts.com/articles/31-days-of-praying-for-your-husband/
    ■by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
    “She does him good . . .” (Proverbs 31:12a)

    Bless your husband by praying for him! The Apostle Paul instructed all Christians to pray for one another (Ephesians 6:18). This includes wives’ responsibility and privilege to pray for their husbands. Earnest prayer for your husband is good for him, for you and the spiritual health of your home (Proverbs 31:11-12).

    Satan desires to destroy your husband, especially his character and his leadership in your relationship. Trust God through prayer as you daily surrender your husband and marriage to the Lord’s wise, loving care.

    Day 1
    Pray that your husband will grow spiritually and consider his accountability before the Lord. Pray that he will guard his heart by developing spiritual disciplines—Bible reading and study, prayer, meditation, scripture memorization, etc. (2 Peter 3:18; Prov. 4:23)

    Day 2
    Pray that your husband’s relationship with God and His Word will bear fruit in his life. Pray that he will be a man of wisdom and understanding, fearing the Lord. (Prov. 3:7, 9:10; Ps. 112:1)

    Day 3
    Pray that your husband will be humble and quick to agree with God about his sin. Pray that his heart will be tender toward the voice of the Lord. (Ps. 51:2-4; Micah 6:8)

    Day 4
    Pray that your husband will grow in leadership skills in your relationship—protecting and providing for you. Pray that he will lead you wisely and love you sacrificially, so that God will be glorified in your marriage. (Eph. 5:25-29; Col. 3:19)

    Day 5
    Pray that your husband will be faithful to his wedding vows. Pray that he will have a desire to cultivate your relationship as a sign of his loyalty and commitment to you, and as a picture of Christ’s love for the Church. (Prov. 20:6; Gen. 2:24)

    Day 6
    Pray that your husband will love righteousness and hate wickedness, especially the evils of the culture. Pray that he will recognize and avoid wickedness in his own life, and if necessary, take a clear, strong stand against evil. (Prov. 27:12; John 17:15; 1 Cor. 10:12-13)

    Day 7
    Pray that your husband will safeguard his heart against inappropriate relationships with the opposite sex. Pray that his heart will be pure and undivided in his commitment to you. (Prov. 6:23-24, 26; Rom. 13:14)

    Day 8
    Pray that your husband will work hard to provide for your family, to the best of his ability. Pray that the character qualities necessary for a successful career and ministry will be a growing part of his character—persistence, decisiveness, strength, an analytical mind, organizational skills, positive relationships with people, determination, etc. (Rom. 12:11; 1 Cor. 15:58)

    Day 9
    Pray that your husband handle finances wisely, will have discernment concerning budgeting and investments, and will be a good steward of his money in regard to giving to the Lord’s work. Pray that money will not become a source of discord in your family. (Prov. 23:4-5; Rom. 12:13; Heb. 13:5)

    Day 10
    Pray that your husband will cultivate strong integrity, and not compromise his convictions. Pray that his testimony will be genuine, that he will be honest in his business dealings, and will never do anything that he needs to hide from others. (Prov. 20:7; 1 Tim. 1:5, 3:7; Eph. 6:10-12)

    Day 11
    Pray that your husband will have a humble, teachable spirit and a servant’s heart before the Lord. Pray that he will listen to God and desire to do His will. (Prov. 15:33; Eph. 6:6)

    Day 12
    Pray that your husband will yield his sexual drive to the Lord and practice self control. Pray that your sexual intimacy together will be fresh, positive, and a reflection of selfless love. (Prov. 5:15, 18; 1 Cor. 7:3; Song of Solomon 7:10)

    Day 13
    Pray that your husband use practical skills to build your family and make wise decisions for your welfare. Pray that he will serve unselfishly. (Gal. 5:13; Phil. 2:3-4)

    Day 14
    Pray that your husband will speak words that build you and your family, and reflect a heart of love. Pray that he will not use filthy language. (Prov. 18:21; Eph. 4:29)

    Day 15
    Pray that your husband will choose his friends wisely. Pray that God will bring him men who will encourage his accountability before God, and will not lead him into sin. (Prov. 13:20; Prov. 27:17)

    Day 16
    Pray that your husband will choose healthy, God-honoring activities. Pray that he will not live in bondage to any questionable habits or hobbies, but that he will experience freedom in holiness as he yields to the Spirit’s control. (1 Cor. 6:12, 10:31; 2 Tim. 2:4)

    Day 17
    Pray that your husband will enjoy his manliness as he patterns his life after Christ and strong men in the faith. Pray for his physical, emotional, mental, social and spiritual strength. (Eph. 3:16; 1 Peter 2:21; 1 Cor. 10:11)

    Day 18
    Pray that your husband will have an eternal perspective—living in light of eternity. Pray that he will reject materialism and temporal values and put God first in his life. (Matt. 6:33; Deut. 6:5; Eph. 5:16; Ps. 90:12)

    Day 19
    Pray that your husband will be patient and a man of peace. Pray that he will not give in to anger, but will allow the Holy Spirit to control his responses. (Rom. 14:19; Ps. 34:14)

    Day 20
    Pray that your husband will yield his mind and thoughts to the Lord. Pray that he will not entertain immoral or impure thoughts, and that he will resist the temptation to indulge in pornography. (Prov. 27:12; 2 Cor. 10:5)

    Day 21
    Pray that your husband will learn how to relax in the Lord and, in his greatest times of stress, find joy and peace in his relationship with God. Pray that he will submit his schedule to the Lord. (Neh. 8:10; Prov. 17:22; Ps. 16:11)

    Day 22
    Pray that your husband will practice forgiveness in your relationship and with others. Pray that he will recognize any roots of bitterness, and yield any resentment and unforgiving attitudes to the Lord. (Eph. 4:32; Heb. 12:15)

    Day 23
    Pray that your husband will be a good father—disciplining his children wisely and loving them unconditionally. If he is not a father, pray that he will find a young man to mentor in the things of the Lord. (Eph. 6:4; Col. 3:21; 2 Tim. 2:1-2)

    Day 24
    Pray that your husband will have a balanced life—that he will balance work and play. Pray that he will fear God, but also gain favor with people he knows at work and church. (Luke 2:52; Prov. 13:15)

    Day 25
    Pray that your husband will be courageous in his stand against evil and injustice, and that he will stand for the truth. Pray that he will protect you and your family from Satan’s attacks. (Ps. 31:24; Eph. 6:13; Ps. 27:14)

    Day 26
    Pray that your husband will discover and live his God-given purpose. Pray that he will offer all his dreams to the Lord, and pursue only those goals that will bring God glory and count for eternity. (Jer. 29:11; 1 Cor. 10:31)

    Day 27
    Pray that your husband will understand the importance of taking care of his body—the temple of the Holy Spirit—for the glory of God. Pray that he will practice self-control by making wise food choices, and get sufficient exercise to stay healthy. (Rom. 12:1-2; 1 Cor. 6:19-20, 9:27)

    Day 28
    Pray that your husband will be a man of prayer. Pray that he will seek and pursue God in purposeful quiet times. (1 Thess. 5:17; Luke 22:46; James 5:16)

    Day 29
    Pray that your husband will surrender his time and talents to the Lord. Pray that his spiritual gifts will be manifest in his career, at church, and in your home. (Eph. 5:15-16; 1 Cor. 12:4, 7)

    Day 30
    Pray that your husband will serve God and others with pure motives. Pray that he will obey the Lord from his heart, and glorify Him in everything. (1 Cor. 10:13; John 7:17-18; Col. 3:23-24)

    Day 31
    Pray that your husband will recognize the lies of the Enemy in his life. Pray that his attitudes and actions will be guided by the truth as he brings his thoughts into captivity to the Word of God. (John 8:44; 2 Cor. 10:4-5)

  130. Paula says:

    833. http://www.thehighcalling.org/faith/living-our-litanies
    (A blessing shared by Verona)
    Living Our Litanies
    by Charity Singleton
    “The very night I finished radiation, I joined a gym. It was on my list, right before, “Get Pizza for Dinner.” When I mentioned the pizza to the manager who was registering my gym membership, he said lots of people do that. Go hog wild the night they join a gym.

    But it wasn’t like that for me. Eating pizza wasn’t hog wild. It was just a way to keep living.

    Although cancer treatment is no picnic, the days and months following the treatment have been hardest for me in the past. While I am seeing doctors and having blood tests and being radiated every day, I feel like I’m fighting the disease. When it stops, I feel like a sitting duck for cancer to return.

    After my first and toughest cancer treatment, I stopped planning, lived one day at a time for months on end, telling every person who invited me to dinner or asked me to a movie for the upcoming weekend that I wasn’t sure if I could make it. I might not be alive then was what I was thinking, as if never planning anything was much of a life.

    This time around, I am trusting the Lord for something different. Not only am I planning, I’m planning big and long, not because there are any guarantees but because the abundant life Jesus promised me starts here and now and has nothing to do with fear and doubt.

    A few weeks before my surgery last August, my friend Kelly was watching the Cars 2 movie with her sons and decided she and I should plan a trip to Italy. So, a few weeks ago, Kelly texted me and said she had started her Italy savings fund. Italy is officially on the list.

    So is attending the Festival of Faith and Writing at Calvin College this Spring and taking another crack at writing a book and training this silly puppy of mine to quit jumping.

    This is not a bucket list. These aren’t things I have to do before I die. These are things I have to do if I want to keep on living. This litany is really just a prayer in disguise: Lord, keep me hoping.

    If this list of mine really is about living, though, it can’t just have the big things on it. Trips to Italy and writing books can motivate for a while, but those goals are so far away, and I have a lot of living to do in the meantime.

    My litany needs to include things like writing letters to my nieces and nephews, reading good books, memorizing Scripture, walking Tilly every day. I need to write down every single one of those things on the list, and then I need to hand it to Jesus. Is this what you want my life to look like?

    Past experience tells me it would be easier to make a different kind of list, to number one by one all the things cancer has taken from me. Don’t get me wrong; I’ve made those lists in the past.

    In her post, “How Our Litanies Shape Us,” Stephanie Smith talks about this kind of catalog of complaints and what that can do to a soul.

    If a litany of naming all things good and beautiful directs us into grace, then a litany of complaints deforms us. I have been cataloging my complaints and I am afraid they are becoming ingrained in my living. But counting faults and keeping score is tiring. And I don’t like the fact that I so willingly spend myself on counting and collecting injuries, when I could find freedom in simply letting them go.

    As I was finishing up a recent appointment with my oncologist, he mentioned the new doctors he was hiring for his practice, and I asked him if there was a retirement in his near future.

    “Oh, I don’t know. I still want to work, I just want lots of time off in the summer,” he said, kind of chuckling.

    “Well, then, I just need to plan my cancer recurrences for the Spring or Fall then, huh?” I teased.

    “No, you just need to retire from cancer recurrences altogether,” he said. “It’s very possible that’s what you’ve done.”

    We shook hands, and I left.

    Breathing hope into others, I thought. That’s going on the list, too.”

    834. Eph 1:3

    Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, 4 just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, 5 having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, 6 to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved.

    835. .Wonderful time of fellowship with Dave who came over for dinner last night

  131. Paula says:

    833. You don’t have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body.
    C. S. Lewis

    __________________
    834. ” There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.”
    Harry Crews

    835. The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitude.
    William James

    836. I have learned from experience that
    the greater part of our happiness or misery
    depends on our dispositions
    and not on our circumstances.
    Martha Washington

    837. “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.” Elizabeth Kubler Ross
    __________________
    838. “Some People Grumble Because The Roses has Thorns. Be Thankful Instead That The Thorns Have Roses” Unknown
    839. If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or fight …. ~Lance Armstrong

    840. 31 Days of Prayer for Your Child

    Quote and prayer guide below is from: http://hsbapost.com/2009/11/01/31-days-of-praying-for-your-child/

    “Never underestimate the power of prayer. Out of all the things we do for our children on a daily basis, prayer is the most powerful tool we have. Comedian Tim Hawkins has this great routine where he talks about the Scripture verse concerning a “hedge of protection” that we can pray around people. He said that he is not satisfied with a hedge. He is afraid that the devil can jump right over that hedge. He said he wants to power up his prayers and build a concrete wall, a moat and some razor wire so that nothing can get over that bad boy to his kids.
    Exactly the way I feel too. I want my spiritual knees to be so calloused that Satan shakes in his boots when he even thinks about coming near my boys. Don’t even think about coming near my sweet little twin nieces? We’ll put some Kung Fu spiritual hurting on you.

    31 Days of Prayer for Your Child

    1 salvation “Lord, let salvation spring up within my children, that they may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory” (Isaiah 45:8, 2 Timothy 2:10).

    2 growth in grace “I pray that they may ‘grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ’” (2 Peter 3:18).

    3 love “Grant, Lord, that my children may learn to ‘live a life of love,’ through the Spirit who dwells in them” (Ephesians 5:2, Galatians 5:22).

    4 honesty and integrity ” May integrity and honesty be their virtue and their protection” (Psalm 25:21, NLT).

    5 self-control ” Father, help my children not to be like many others around them, but let them be ‘alert and self-controlled’ in all they do” (1 Thessalonians 5:6)

    6 a love for God’s Word ” May my children grow to find your Word ‘more precious than gold, than much pure gold; [and] sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb’” (Psalm 19:10).

    7 justice ” God, help my children to love justice as you do and to ‘act justly’ in all they do” (Psalm 11:7, Micah 6:8).

    8 mercy ” May my children always ‘be merciful, as [their] Father is merciful’” (Luke 6:36).

    9 respect (for self, others, authority) ” Father, grant that my children may ’show proper respect to everyone,’ as your Word commands” (1 Peter 2:17a).

    10 strong, Biblical self-esteem ” Help my children develop a strong self-esteem that is rooted in the realization that they are ‘God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus’” (Ephesians 2:10).

    11 faithfulness “‘ Let love and faithfulness never leave [my children],’ but bind these twin virtues around their necks and write them on the tablet of their hearts” (Proverbs 3:3).

    12 courage “May my children always ‘Be strong and courageous’ in their character and in their actions” (Deuteronomy 31:6).

    13 purity “‘Create in [them] a pure heart, O God,’ and let their purity of heart be shown in their actions” (Psalm 51:10).

    14 kindness “Lord, may my children ‘always try to be kind to each other and to everyone else’” (1 Thessalonians 5:15).

    15 generosity “Grant that my children may ‘be generous and willing to share [and so] lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age’” (1 Timothy 6:18-19).

    16 peace, peaceability “Father, let my children ‘make every effort to do what leads to peace’” (Romans 14:19).

    17 joy ” May my children be filled ‘with the joy given by the Holy Spirit’” (1 Thessalonians 1:6).

    18 perseverance ” Lord, teach my children perseverance in all they do, and help them especially to ‘run with perseverance the race marked out for [them]‘” (Hebrews 12:1).

    19 humility ” God, please cultivate in my children the ability to ’show true humility toward all’” (Titus 3:2).

    20 compassion ” Lord, please clothe my children with the virtue of compassion” (Colossians 3:12).

    21 responsibility ” Grant that my children may learn responsibility, ‘for each one should carry his own load’” (Galatians 6:5).

    22 contentment ” Father, teach my children ‘the secret of being content in any and every situation. . . . through him who gives [them] strength’” (Philippians 4:12-13).

    23 faith ” I pray that faith will find root and grow in my children’s hearts, that by faith they may gain what has been promised to them” (Luke 17:5-6, Hebrews 11:1-40).

    24 a servant heart ” God, please help my children develop servant hearts, that they may serve wholeheartedly, ‘as to the Lord, and not to men’” (Ephesians 6:7, KJV).

    25 hope ” May the God of hope grant that my children may overflow with hope and hopefulness by the power of the Holy Spirit” (Romans 15:13).

    26 the willingness and ability to work hard ” Teach my children, Lord, to value work and to work hard at everything they do, ‘as working for the Lord, not for men’” (Colossians 3:23).

    27 a passion for God ” Lord, please instill in my children a soul that “followeth hard after thee,” a heart that clings passionately to you (Psalm 63:8, KJV).

    28 self-discipline ” Father, I pray that my children may develop self-discipline, that they may acquire ‘a disciplined and prudent life, doing what is right and just and fair’” (Proverbs 1:3).

    29 prayerfulness ” Grant, Lord, that my children’s lives may be marked by prayerfulness, that they may learn to ‘pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests” (Ephesians 6:18).

    30 gratitude ” Help my children to live lives that are always ‘overflowing with thankfulness,’ ‘always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ’” (Colossians 2:7, Ephesians 5:20).

    31 a heart for missions ” Lord, please help my children to develop a heart for missions, a desire to see your glory declared among the nations, your marvelous deeds among all peoples” (Psalm 96:3).”

  132. Paula says:

    I was looking over my cumulative “1000 gift list” and discovered I’ve made plenty of goofs along the way numbering my gifts. It started all the way back with two #60s plus other repeats. I’m busy and it’s too much trouble for me to worry about getting the numbers straightened out so I’ve decided it doesn’t matter to me. I’m actually beyond the number it says I’m on so I’ll reach 1000 before it looks like it. I plan on going way beyond 1000 (I love this habit of my gratefulness list!) and can see I am just getting started recognizing and thanking God for how He LAVISHES me in His blessings every day. If you guys reading this haven’t started your own gratefulness list, what do you think about starting TODAY? You are going to LOVE it!

    841.Sue’s new sig line: “Every experience God gives us, every person He puts into our lives, is the perfect preparation for a future only He can see.” Corrie ten Boom

    842.Salad picnic lunch in the sun with Esther D. after arm therapy –bringing back last year’s “Gerson Gals” memories. Yum on salad dressing of freshly squeezed OJ with pinches of basil, oregano, tyme, marjoram

    843. “Jesus+Nothing=Everything” – Tullian Tchividjian

    844. Women agonize… over cancer; we take as a personal threat the lump in every friend’s breast. ~Martha Weinman Lear, Heartsounds

    845.The most important thing in illness is never to lose heart. ~Nikolai Lenin

    846. . Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death. ~Author Unknown

    847Know, then, whatever cheerful and serene
    Supports the mind supports the body too.
    ~John Armstrong

    848.Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. ~Winston Churchill

    849.Some days there won’t be a song in your heart. Sing anyway. ~Emory Austin

    850.The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. ~C.C. Scott

    851. My response is to get down on my knees before the
    Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all
    heaven and earth. I ask Him to strength you by his
    Spirit – not a brute strength but a glorious inner
    strength – that Christ will live in you as you open the
    door and invite Him in. And I ask Him that both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in with all
    Christians the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love.
    Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length!
    Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full
    in the fullness of God.
    EPHESIANS 3: 14-19 (THE MESSAGE)

    14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,[a] 15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
    Ephesians 3:14-19 New King James Version (NKJV)
    852. Delightful anticipation over Joy, Hannah, and I camping together this weekend.

  133. Paula says:

    853. Yesterday I was preoccupied and deep in thought when driving the kids home from Spanish lessons and on my way to pick up a gracious gift of wood for camping from precious friends Sue and Kirk. I must have been on auto-pilot mode because I never did even see a school bus stopped with the arm thingamabopper out when I drove by but the officer behind me who flipped on his flashing lights and siren did. I thank God that no children were crossing and I did not hurt or kill anybody. The reality that I potentially could have sure shook me up. I ordinarily am a very careful, safe driver.I could have killed an innocent kid crossing, lived with the heavy weight of that guilt from carelessness, and then gone to jail for it too. I thank God for His mercy and the policeman’s grace which I did not deserve. I deserved an almost $300 ticket I did not receive. I got to share a bit of the Lord’s goodness when he compared my drivers license with a full head of hair and me in a “Fight Like a Girl” with a pink ribbon cap with very short hair sticking out yesterday. He wanted me to step out of the vehicle, away from the children and tell him what was on my mind preoccupying me so much that I did not see the stopped school bus. He was a very compassionate man whose father died of cancer. Thank you Lord for protecting the children and taking care of us too. Please help me to be more careful and fully engaged, alert, and paying good attention when driving.Please help me to be a very safe driver and not be careless again. Please free me from all fearful thoughts. The Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need. The Lord is my Rock and I shall not fear.

    Sometimes I also think about how I deserve hell too after I die because I am a dirty rotten sinner that messes up plenty but I’m saved forever by grace alone and heading to Heaven because of that…a free, undeserved gift of Eternal Life because Jesus died on the cross to pay for my sins and was raised from the dead. That I have a free ticket to Heaven because of simple faith plus nothing is amazing…simply amazing! Help me to live for Your honor and glory and praise, dear Father.

    854. “We were made for victory. Sometimes we just have to find our way to that truth.” (In “Made to Crave”)

  134. Paula says:

    855. A super fantastic camp out with Joy and Hannah over the weekend complete with a good climbing tree on our site

    856. Joe and his team’s help

    857. A beautiful group of cancer survivors at the fun belated Valentines Day Party last night and a special Mother/Daughter time with Joy

    858. Double rainbow on the way home Monday

    859. Enjoyable time with Mom O and Alan

    860.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwNSDRe4FJc
    “Healing the Broken”: Song

  135. Paula says:

    862. “Go-To” scripts on pp 215-216 of “Made to Crave: Satisfying your deepest desire with God. not food”” by Lysa Terkeurst (Direct qutes):

    “ 1.God has given me power over my food choices. I’m supposed to consume food.
    Food isn’t supposed to consume me:

    2 Cor 12: 9-10

    His grace is sufficient. His power is made perfect in weakness. When we are
    weak, then we are strong.

    2. I was made for more than to be stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat.

    Deut 2:3
    “You have circled this mountain long enough. Now turn north.”

    3. When I am considering a compromise, I will think past this moment and ask
    myself, “How will I feel about this choice tomorrow morning?”

    Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,
    whom you have received from God? You are not your own: you were ought at a
    price. Therefore honor God with your body. 1 Cor 6:19-20

    4.When I am tempted, I either remove the temptation or remove myself from the
    situation.
    So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall. No
    temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful: He
    will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,
    he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. Therefore, my
    dear friends, flee. 1 Cor 10:12-14

    5. When there’s a special event, I can find other ways to celebrate rather than blowing my healthy eating plan.

    See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. Rev 3:8

    6. Struggling with my weight isn’t God’s mean curse on me, but an outside indication that internal changes are needed for me to function and feel well.

    Forget the former things: do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. is 43: 18-19

    7. I have these boundaries in place not for restriction but rather to define the parameters of my freedom.

    I put this in human terms because you are weak in your natural selves. Just as you used to offer the parts of your body in slavery to impurity and to ever increasing wickedness, so now offer them in slavery to righteousness leading to holiness. Romans 6:19″

    863. Stories of success and hope like this to inspire me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vr4CZjBRnA and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fM41J2o6xw8&feature=relmfu

    864. Fun lunch date with John at Chinese restaurant

    865. A sparkling van vacuumed by Joy

    866. Nice chats catching up with Carrie, Nita, Jan, Kelley, Nancy, and Kath

    867. Sometimes He Calms the Storm: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ti1SULYteI

  136. Paula says:

    868. “You are my Beloved Child. I chose you before the foundation of the world, to walk with Me along paths designed uniquely for you. Concentrate on keeping in step with Me, instead of trying to anticipate My plans for you. If you trust that My plans are to prosper you and not to harm you, you can relax and enjoy the present moment.” – Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

    869. On Sunday afternoon our family came within about a literal 2 seconds from a potentially terrible, high sped head-on collision We were on our way home from church and someone coming from the opposite way was trying to pass another car and still in our lane and coming directly toward us in a blink of the eye. We barely saw it coming, it all happened so fast. God gave John quick reflexes and probably there were a bunch of angels involved in working things out so precisely. I’ve never been so close to a near crash like that and can only imagine the horrific details of what would have been had God not intervened. I don’t see how any of us could have survived it had that accident happened.. Thank You Lord for your protection and that our times are in YOUR Hands and You’ve numbered each of our days.

    870. Last Friday night my daughters had their final game in the Upwards Basketball season. I’ve never been so excited at a sports event in all my life as watching these young ladies. The whole team pulled together for an outstanding game and they beat an undefeated team: 13 to 12. All the girls improved tremendously over these last months and it was a joy to watch their sportsmanship and see them play their hearts out.

    871. Direst quote from: http://www.truewoman.com/?id=2032

    “No situation is so desperate that God cannot redeem it.
    If ever there was a situation that seemed hopeless, it was Esther’s. Orphaned as a girl, taken into a Persian harem, married to a cruel, arrogant, alcoholic husband, then faced with an edict intended to exterminate her entire race. It was a desperate situation, both for her and for her people. Her plight seemed hopeless. But the heavenly Kingdom rules over the earthly kingdom.
    When we are in the midst of that earthly drama, facing dire circumstances, we must keep reminding ourselves of this ultimate reality: Heaven rules! As Pastor John Piper reminds us, “In every situation and circumstance of your life, God is always doing a thousand different things that you cannot see and you do not know.” Never forget that. Write it on the tablet of your heart. And learn to wait for God to act, to wait on His time. The fact is, all the pushing, nagging, screaming, yelling, badgering, manipulating, whining, and shaming in the world won’t solve your problems. Those tactics may help you get your way in an immediate sense, but they will not win victories for the Kingdom of God. Making things happen is His role in your situation, and He is sure to act in His perfect time, according to His good, sovereign, and eternal will. It will be worth the wait, I assure you.”

    872. I am thankful to be well enough that I have been able to be super busy with things other than medical appointments lately

  137. Paula says:

    873. I’m doing terrific and keeping very busy these days. A big thanks to those praying for me and my dear family! I am still receiving IV Herceptin every 21 days and looking forward to that being wrapped up in June. Then I’ll be able to get rid of my surgically implanted port–yea! As far as we can tell, thusfar things are looking A-OK in the cancer department–hooray!

    874. I am very grateful that I was selected to participate in a special opportunity to learn how to Fly Fish and be part of a retreat soon with some fellow breast cancer survivors from across the state of Florida. Next weekend is an amazing gift and answer to prayer and I’m very excited! http://castingforrecovery.org/

    875. 1212 is my year to work on getting back in shape. lose weight that I gained during treatment, and build back my health, God willing. Today I hit my 30 pounds bites the dust milestone–wahooo! I still have a ways to go to get to my ideal weight range but it’s coming along well. I am following a 100% raw, low fat vegan diet (nothing cooked and no food with or from a source with a face on it…just raw fruits, veggies, and seeds) and am part of an on-line ”Raw Food Boot Camp” program for three months, that’ll be finishing up for me in June. I always feel like a million bucks eating this way and like the food plan very much. Six years ago I got down to my goal weight using this raw diet and support group ( here is a link to my before and after story/photos from 6 years ago: http://www.rawfoodbootcamp.com/Before_After.php if you are interested)
    I got down to my ideal weight range before with God’s help and I can do it again, only this time for keeps–yo yo weight loss/gain is for tyhe birds! The principles in the “Made to Crave” book that I’ve mentioned before here and the support and accountability I’ve been having have been wonderful tools that God is using. I am encouraged, exercising lots, am loaded with energy and stamina, and doing very well–all blessings I do not take for granted.

    876. I am grateful for the Mama duck and her 15 new babies paddling behind her in a line that my daughter and I saw on our walk.

    877. We went and saw “No legs, no arms, no worries Nick” tonight. It was a blessing. http://www.northlandchurch.net/calendar/details/nick_vujicic

  138. Paula says:

    878. Here I sit with my port hooked up to my infusion of Herceptin at the Cancer Institute. After today, I have just two more to go, hooray the end of this chapter in my treatment plan is in sight for June! Then I’ll just have my 5 years of an oral hormone blocker left as long as I remain cancer-free. I am thanking God that as far as I know I’m doing terrific and responding very well to cancer treatment. Cancer can be sneaky and tricky and doesn’t play fair and yet in the face of uncertainty and the unknown future I keep coming back to just WHO is in charge around here: GOD! He is teaching my heart to snuggle up in His love and rest and trust.

    879. I like this illustration in Living the Praying Life”:

    “When Jennifer picked up her toddler son, Stinson, from pre-school, he came out holding onto a red helium–filled balloon.

    She warned him not to let go of the balloon or it would go up into the sky.

    She turned away for a moment, and when she turned back there was Stinson’s red balloon floating up into the sky.

    Oh, I’m sorry you lost your balloon Stinson”, Jennifer said to him.

    “I didn’t lose it, Mommy! I gave it to Jesus!” he replied.

    The person who is living a praying life learns that nothing you give to Jesus is lost.

    Giving the thing you love best to the One you love most is what brings exuberant joy, the hallmark of a praying life.

    Do you have any red balloons you are clutching?

    Is there anything you need to give to Jesus – just because you love Him?

    Let go and experience His joy.”

    880. We are God’s Gift of Grace
    To One Another
    By Jan DraveckyMay our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father,
    who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement
    and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you
    in every good deed and word.
    2 THESSALONIANS 2:16 (NIV)

    What a privilege to extend God’s gift of grace to one another. As our hearts have been encouraged by His grace – we have all been called to share His grace with others.Grace is God’s love applied to our human condition. It is seen in a helping hand for the weary, in compassion for the broken, understanding for the confused, tenderness for the wounded, acceptance for the fallen and a loving embrace for the returning prodigal.God’s grace is …

    *Grace is powerful beyond our imagination. It is the most amazing act of grace in all of history. It compelled the King of Heaven to become a man and die a terrible death on behalf of the human race.

    *Grace is water for the thirsty, food for the starving, a helping hand for the weak, tender compassion for the sick and shelter for the homeless. The gift of God’s grace is the single greatest gift we can offer a pain-wracked world.

    *Grace is God’s love in action. The expression of God’s grace is the most precious commodity in all of creation. It Makes God’s love real to even the hardest, most wretched, wounded and hopeless heart.

    *Grace isn’t shocked by the depth of human brokenness or sinfulness. It doesn’t turn away in disgust or judgment from the sinner or the soul in pain. Instead it embraces the one made in the image of God no matter how marred the image may be.

    *Grace does not excuse wrongdoing. It does not excuse sin. Instead, it chooses to love the sinner.

    *Grace doesn’t judge or condemn. It knows that all people are broken and in need of mending so it does not presume that one is better than the other.

    *Grace places no expectations on its recipients. It is given freely – no strings attached.

    *Grace embraces us right where we are. It doesn’t sit on the sidelines awaiting our arrival at an acceptable position before it is given.

    *Grace takes the high road in human relationships. It chooses to reach out rather than to rather than to retaliate. It chooses to forgive, accept and embrace rather than turn away in anger, contempt or indifference.

    *Grace is gentle and unassuming. It creates a safe place for the wounded and downtrodden to uncover their wounds so that they can be healed.

    *Grace has no limits. We need only ask God to provide it. He never tires of our requests because He knows our need. Because we know …

    For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
    The LORD gives grace and glory;
    No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
    MATTHEW 11:40 (NIV)

    “The King will reply,
    ‘Truly I tell you,
    whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine,
    you did for me.’
    MATTHEW 25:40 (NIV)

    881. I had my socks blessed off at the Casting For Recovery Retreat. Wow, did we ever have fun!

  139. Paula says:

    882. Here I sit hooked up to my FINAL , “every 21 days for a year IV Herceptin”. Woooohooooo! This is it!! Today is my last cancer treatment infusion. Now I just am on the daily pill of a hormone blocker for 5 years. My heart is full of praise and thanks to God for holding me close and seeing me through every step of the whole way. :0) I am so very happy to be finishing this up!

    883. Romans 8:15 in the Message: “This resurrection life we have received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a “what’s next, Papa?” That’s how I want to live my life!

    884. Sarah Young’s devotional on June 7th from “Jesus Calling”: “My presence with you is a promise, independent of your awareness of Me. Many things can block the awareness, but the major culprit is worry…..Who is in charge of your life? If it is you, then you have good reason to worry. But if it is I, then worry is both unnecessary and counterproductive.”

    885. The Message version of Ps. 31:15 says “Hour by hour I place my days in your hand”.
    886. This is a short video last October from an event I was blessed to be a part of from the STYLE FOR A CAUSE event held for COMPASSIONATE HANDS AND HEARTS BREAST CANCER OUTREACH. In it I am the one wearing a pink scarf and hugging the hairdresser toward the end. At the time I was bald and lashless and eyebrowless from chemo and fried from radiation. I praise the Lord I’ve got hair and feeling downright terrific now!

    http://animoto.com/play/89BVDd3RvZB8sUHMSUoHMQ

    887. CHANGE FOR A DOLLAR. – a heartwarming video:

    http://www.flickspire.com/m/Share_This/changeforadollar?lsid=161f9da9b7692b6854ca64548e80ab61

    888.

    “Be open to the possibilities … that these circumstances hold more than what I see right now.

    Be open to the possibilities … of God’s promise to grow good things in hard places.

    Be open to the possibilities … of discovering new hope.

    Be open to the possibilities … one day at a time.

    When I look ahead, I have a choice: fear the future or stretch my imagination to embrace God’s possibilities each morning.”

    —CAROL KUYKENDALL

  140. Paula says:

    889. “Think about it.
    If God knows everything, the cancer diagnosis did not surprise Him.
    If God sees everything, He saw the bad news coming.
    If God has power over everything, He could have stopped it.But He didn’t.

    There are so many hidden meanings in those words. He could have, but He didn’t. What that says to me is that He is in control, in every aspect of the universe, He is in control.

    He is in control.
    Errant cancer cells are not.
    Toxic medicine is not.
    White- Coated doctors are not.
    Herbs and vitamins are not.
    You are not.
    I am not.”

    Quote from “When God and Cancer Meet” by Lynn Eib

    890. James 4:8 “I will come near to God and He will come near to me.”

    “I will…

    TRUST- in HIS timing

    RELY- on HIS promises

    WAIT- for HIS answers

    BELIEVE- in HIS miracles

    REJOICE- in HIS goodness

    RELAX- in HIS presence”

    (On a card given to me at the ladies retreat at Cappernium Inn http://capernaumministries.com/gallery/ this summer. It was a precious time with the Lord and sisters in Christ)

    891.”You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in Your book.” Psalm 56:8

    Joni Eareckson Tada said, “Every tear you’ve cried will be redeemed. God will give you indescribable glory for your grief, not with a general wave of the hand, but in a considered and specific way. Each tear has been listed, each will be recompensed. I’ve cried a few times over not having the use of my hands. I think it’s ironic that on the day in Heaven when I finally get back the use of my hands so I can dry my own tears…I won’t have to: ‘He will wipe every tear from our eyes’” (Rev 21:4)

    892. I love the word picture I have in my mind of the poster our friends Verona and Darrell (who are living in the realities of cancer) saw of a dog in the middle of a long jump. It says, “Live like someone left the gate open”. I like that! God truely has “left the gate open” to live fully with the freedom we have in Christ.

    893.”If the Gospel is not the best news you have ever heard, then you have misunderstood the Gospel.”

  141. Paula says:

    893.Jeremiah 17:7-8 Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is. For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit

    894. Quote from “Jesus Calling” :“When you face unexpected demands, there is no need to panic. Remember that I am with you. Talk with Me, and listen while I talk you through each challenging situation. I am not a careless God. When I allow difficulties to come into your life, I equip you fully to handle them. Relax in My Presence, trusting in My Strength.
    2 Corinthians 12:9
    “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness”

    895.”The flower that blooms with adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.”

    896.”Faith is God’s invitation to make the impossible possible. He is glorified when we are enabled to do what we are unable to do” (unknown author)

    897.”In the midst of an ever-changing world, the good news is that the life of faith is anchored by the power, provisions and the promises of God. Circumstances may change, but the future is as sure as the character of God himself. No matter what happens, those who trust in God hope in his word” (Unknown author)

    898. Psalm 119:114
    “You are my refuge and my shield; your word is my source of hope”
    899. This song is running through my mind today:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExnTlIM5QgE

    “In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song; this Cornerstone, this solid Ground, firm through the fiercest drought and storm. What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled, when strivings cease! My Comforter, my All in All, here in the love of Christ I stand.”

  142. Paula says:

    Just 100 to go for my first 1000 gifts recorded!

    900. Phil 4:13 did me a world of good yesterday as I considered throughout the day how the fact that I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me applies in ALL areas of my life http://jpoliver.com/wordpress/archives/1140

    901. These are the questions and answers it boils down to for me:

    “Will I trust God completely through whatever He allows in my life”? Yes I will.
    “Who is in charge and complete control around here?” God, that’s Who.
    “What am I supposed to do with thoughts of fear, doubt, worry as I see so many in the grips of cancer reoccurrences”? Bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ and recognize the truth of a whole Bible full of verses teaching me how He wants me to live. I am not going to die one day before God lovingly brings me Home to Heaven and what a great day that’ll be!

    902. “That which does not kill us makes us stronger.”–ha, ha
    – Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

    903 . Have you surrendered to despair because of your past or the inevitable situations in your life? Stop it! The greatest days of your life are before you. The past is over. Stop living life looking in the rear view mirror. Look forward. Press on! The best is yet to be, God never consults your past to determine your future.”–Hagee

    904. From the excellent book “When God and Cancer Meet” by Lynn Eib:
    “I hate the term ‘cancer victim’ . It somehow implies cancer is the victor. It wins; we lose… While we can do little to choose whether we get cancer, we can do a lot to choose whether we are it’s victims. I don’t just mean whether we live or die. I mean how cancer affects us in the deepest parts of who we are. I believe cancer cannot conquer our spirit unless we choose to become victims .”

    905. Psalm 57:10 ”For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies.”

  143. Paula says:

    906. “I can’t tell you how, when, or where God will bring a blessing through your trial of suffering. But I can tell you why–because His Word promises He will. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose”.
    God will bring a blessing through your trial because you matter greatly to Him and He longs to show you that. He may bless you with physical healing, or He may bless you by healing you emotionally of some deep-seated hurts. He may bless you spiritually with the joy of knowing Him in a way you never have before. Or He may bless others through you in unimaginable ways.
    My blessing from cancer is certainly not the one I sought, but because God knows me and loves me, He knew how to bless me.”
    (Quote from When God and Cancer Meet by Lynn Eib)

    907.Joy’s happy and thrilling adventures with ChaCha Kath and ChCha Pris in Vermont this week

    908. Kelley’s good biopsy report on her lymph nodes

    909.
    Let Him be the unfaltering faithful God, willing to strengthen us for any and every circumstance.
    Let Him be the incredibly sovereign God, wise enough to know how and when to answer every prayer.
    Let Him be the mighty awesome God that he is, powerful enough to heal us at any and every level–powerful enough to heal…our body, mind, and spirit.”
    (Quote from When God and Cancer Meet by Lynn Eib)
    910.

    911. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2f1ItK-Alg&feature=youtube_gdata_player
    “That’s My King”: “Wow, what a God we serve! Preach it, Brother!” 🙂

    ***************
    912. “Blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit” (Jeremiah 17:7-8).

    913. Yesterday we put an offer in on a lovely short sale home in a great neighborhood. We made it above the asking price as 3 other prospective buyers were also submitting their best offers at the same time. We did not get it as someone else’s offer was higher. I am confident that house was not the house for us even though it looked like the best one yet. I am praying for Him to open and shut doors for a home for our family according to His will so I am counting this “no” as a loving gift. I am asking God for the house of HIS choosing —HIS BEST for us in HIS time. We’d sure appreciate prayer about this.

    914.
    Saw this blurb:

    Excerpt from the new Thoughts to Make Your Heart Sing by Sally Lloyd-Jones

    In the beginning, God sang everything into being—for the joy of it—and set the whole universe dancing.

    God was in the center, at the heart of everything.
    Like the dance of the planets before the sun—turning, spinning, circling, wheeling, revolving, orbiting around and around—God made everything in his world and in his universe and in his children’s hearts to center around him—in a wonderful Dance of Joy!

    It’s the Dance you were born for.

    “The morning stars sang together, and all the sons of God shouted for joy.” JOB 38:7 (KJV)

    915. Joy flies home from Vt today! Yippeeee! I am so happy that she had this grand adventure with her ChaChas and am so happy to have our Sunshine Girl back with us. We missed her. 🙂

    916.
    Copied and pasted from http://www.cancerpatientadvocate.com/ I highly reccommend Lynn Eib’s books to anyone facing cancer or has a loved one going through it.

    “Dear friend, I wish you well on your-or your loved one’s-journey with cancer.
    I wish you a heart that has found the right attitude-a positive, realistic attitude.
    I wish you a mind that has found peace-by replacing worries with better thoughts and by focusing on the present and not on the “what-ifs” of the future.
    And I wish you a soul that has found hope-a hope based on the God of all Creation, who gives life true meaning.

    God can make blessing come from cancer when God and cancer meet, but we have to let Him choose the blessing.

    On the fifth anniversary of my cancer surgery, I wrote the following poem summing up what my journey with cancer has taught me:

    When your world is crashing down around you, trust Him.
    When what is unfolding doesn’t make sense, trust Him.
    When you see no light at the end of the tunnel, trust Him.
    When your silent tears spill down, trust Him.
    When the pain refuses to subside, trust Him.
    When your heart screams, “Why?” trust Him.
    When you have more questions than answers, trust Him.
    When the devil tells you otherwise, trust Him.
    When it’s the last thing you feel like doing, trust Him.
    When there’s simply nothing else to do, trust Him.

    Be encouraged: God can be trusted in all things . . . even cancer”.
    ____________________________

    Copyright Lynn Eib 2002. Excerpted from When God & Cancer Meet: True stories of hope & healing.

  144. Paula says:

    917. “Live every day like its your last . . . one day you’ll be right.”

    918. Thinking through “Hope” and what it means to me and the fun of adding to Sharon’s collection with a creative card made by Joy

    H olding on tight to Jesus no matter what things look like
    O ptomism because God is always up to something good in my life
    P erserverence in the midst of sorrows and joys
    E ncouragement in His Word

    919. “Being diagnosed of cancer comes with a lot of uncertainties. It comes with a baggage that is bound to test your very character. Cancer is not the end of your life; it actually marks a new beginning. You should not let this disease rule over your life. It has to be fought, not feared. It can be handled and it can be battled with. Many people have done it, many people have survived it, and so can you…you are not alone in this fight.” —Unknown author

    920. From Ovie’s note:
    “God’s Word is an immovable anchor in times of storm.” “We learn more in our valley experiences than on our mountaintops.” “No Christian has ever been called to ‘go it alone’ in his or her walk of faith.” “Prayer is life’s greatest time saver.” “The dark moments of our life will last only so long as is necessary for God to accomplish His purpose in us.” “Trusting God means looking beyond what we can see to what God sees.” “Adversity is a bridge to a deeper relationship with God.”…..Touch Ministries.

    922. “No one can go back and make a brand new Start. Anyone can start from
    now and make a brand new Ending.”

    923. Isaiah 41:10 New Life Version

    Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will give you strength, and for sure I will help you. Yes, I will hold you up with My right hand that is right and good.
    Isaiah 41:10 Amplified Version
    Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.
    Isaiah 41:10 New King James
    Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’

    Isaiah 41:10 New Living Translation
    Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

    Isaiah 41:10 King James Version
    Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

    This morning I am thinking through living in such a way that I am “fearing NOT” and how I can start from now and create a brand new ending,

    924. “When praying for healing, ask great things of God and expect great
    things from God. But let us seek for that healing that really matters,
    the healing of the heart, enabling us to trust God simply, face God
    honestly, and live triumphantly.”
    ~ Arlo F. Newell

    925. From the Sacred Journey by Charles Foster: “Arrival is less important than the journey. This is because if the journey is a walk with Yahweh-man, there is an important sense in which you have arrived already. Yes, intimacy develops, but do you ever say of a relationship, “I’ve arrived”? Along the road there may be moments of epiphany but if not, that’s fine. Ecstasy isn’t of the essence of relationship. But expect things to happen. Your incremental shuffle along the road is an incremental edging forward of kingdom borders—it’s a restoration of broken things and a making of new things.”

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    926. Quotes from “I’ll Take Routine, Please” by Karen http://breastcancerandfaith.blogspot.com/

    “The visits to the oncologist’s office remind us without any doubt that we definitely had cancer, but we’re just coming back to see if “it’s” come back. Strange thing, that cancer. We come back to see if it has returned. Our limited minds conjure up all sorts of scenarios on the way to the office.

    And what if it does come back? What will I do then? I don’t honestly know. But I guess for now – today – I’ll just keep doing what I do every day; I’ll trust in the Lord to take me through each struggle, every valley and every storm. Because when you really stop and think about it, even our most challenging days, our troubling pasts, and our difficult moments are all part of His plan to draw us closer to Him. Nothing surprises God. Praise God that our routine days – as well as those that weigh us down – remind us that we’re in this together, with Him holding our hand. “

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    927. Direct quotes from Sarah from her blog http://sarahkathryndavis.blogspot.com/:

    “Pretty much I love the life God has given me…however trying it may currently be. My life is not my own and I know now more than I ever have God has bigger and better plans for me than I could have ever imagined ”

    “I can’t tell you that I’ve gotten a clear message about how God is gonna use me in all this……I can only hope that my struggle will be for his glory and for his name sake. I hope that when people look at me they don’t see me but they see Jesus because without him I would have been dead a long time ago.
    … in times of trial is when my faith has been tested and I have cried out “Why me?”……I did not ask for this burden but I know that my father’s will is greater than my own and I trust him with everything I am.”
    Luke 22:42
    “Father if you are willing take this cup from me; yet not my will, but your be done”

    ”…like a wise woman once told me,’ don’t cheat someone out of their blessing and it blesses people to bless you.”

    “The way I see it is if you don’t think I’m gonna make it then your not on my team and I need people who believe in me to be on my team.”

    “…I will walk in there tomorrow morning not of my own strength but because my father walks with me and he has promised never to leave me even when I feel alone.”
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    928. Einstein says “Coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous.”

    929. “Be yourself. Everyone else is taken.”

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    930. “If God sends us stony paths, He provides strong shoes.” — Corrie ten Boom
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    931. Poem and excerpt below are from He Provides the Shoes, Walking with God through Breast Cancer By Karen Holmes
    http://www.breastcancerandfaith.com/book_excerpts.htm

    LOOK CLOSELY

    CHEMOTHERAPY
    implies more than you think.
    Look closely now,
    and don’t even blink.
    If we “dissect” the letters,
    what do we see?
    MOTHER in the midst of
    CHE-MOTHER-APY!

    It’s a robber of strength;
    our dignity is lost,
    We guard our children,
    no matter the cost.
    Our bodies betray us;
    instinctively we reckon,
    We’re MOTHERS first,
    and cancer survivors second.

    “As expected, but nonetheless extremely emotionally upsetting, shortly after my first dose of chemotherapy, my shoulder-length thick curly hair began to fall out in small clumps. The entry below describes my feelings surrounding my own head-shaving ordeal, an act meticulously performed by my lovely beautician (p. 50):

    “Then I heard her click it on and the telltale buzzing sound began. I had the crazy thought that it was like some great mutant insect descending on my head intent on destroying my hair like some biblical plague. I clenched my teeth to shore up my resolve, and then I forced myself to open my eyes and watch with a sort of fascinated horror as the shaving of my head commenced. When it was over I felt as if I’d been through a rite of passage: ‘Your head has been shaved! You’ve now entered the Land of Cancer. Please exit to your left.’”
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    932. Nicholas and I leave on Wednesday for his long awaited high school graduation gift: a trip to Washington D.C. for the Values Voter Summit. Thank YOU Lord for this gift of special time with my son. Nicholas loves politics and the time in D.C. will be a dream come true for him. I am so grateful that I am strong, healthy, and able to share this adventure with him, doing something of great interest to him.

    933.
    Deuteronomy 31:6–my personal application relating to cancer is in parenthesis below. I know it is out of context but a comfort for me to consider God’s heart in the recorded “fear nots” of the Bible and how I might apply them to my life, particularly when anxious thoughts bug me.
    King James Version (KJV)

    6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them:(hey, cancer cells could be applied here) for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    The Message (MSG)

    6 “Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them (anxious thoughts) a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    New International Version (NIV)

    6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, (ANYTHING) for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    Good News Translation (GNT)

    6 Be determined and confident. Do not be afraid of them. (Future “What ifs”, uncertainties about the unknown) Your God, the Lord himself, will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.”

    934. Joy’s and Hannah’s extraordinarily fun time with Miss Daisy and 4 other girls yesterday learning baking skills at her “Cupcake Bakeoff”. Neato!

    934. We leave for our week’s all-expense paid vacation on the beach in N.C. tomorrow http://www.littlepinkhousesofhope.org/ . It’s like a hug from God to our family! What a sweet blessing. I can’t wait! 🙂

    935. Nicholas and I had a delightful time together last week on a trip to Washington D.C which was my conservative politics-loving son’s high school graduation gift. The Values Voters Summit and our adventures in DC were wonderful and memorable http://www.frcaction.org/get.cfm?i=PG12H02. We were thankful to Eric and Cheryl for their gracious hospitality and the Lord worked out everything for smooth transportation navigating the Metro.

    936. more time this morning thinking through
    Deuteronomy 31:6
    King James Version (KJV)

    6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    Good News Translation (GNT)

    6 Be determined and confident. Do not be afraid of them. Your God, the Lord himself, will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    Amplified Bible (AMP)

    6 Be strong, courageous, and firm; fear not nor be in terror before them, for it is the Lord your God Who goes with you; He will not fail you or forsake you.

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    The Message (MSG)

    6 “Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.”

    937. “The primary goal in our life is to love the Lord with all of the mind, soul, and heart. Idolatry is when we love anything above God. Our problem is that we love other things more than we love God. All of our sin flows out of idolatry. Our idolatry leads to multiplied sin and misery.

    Do you believe that Jesus Christ is enough? What is it in your life that means more to you than God?

    Your idol is whatever you’re willing to sin to get. Your idol is whatever you’re willing to sin because you don’t have. That’s your functional God. If unbelief and idolatry are our primary problems, what is the solution? We as Christians have good news!

    We are justified! Justification can be defined in two basic ways: Just as if I’d never sinned, and just as if I’d always obeyed. Christ’s perfect record has been applied to my account. We are forgiven and righteous.

    So the primary question of the Christian is not, “What would Jesus do?” The primary question should be, “What did Jesus do?”

    People will never do enough to cause us to love them. Our ability to love others is rooted in Christ’s love. We don’t love others based on their performance. If we do, we will continue to struggle. Only Jesus can rescue us from idolatry. He came to save sinners. There is no room for self-help in loving others. Only God’s love is able to transform us.”

    Quote from: http://www.truewoman.com/?id=2242

    938. Quote from Kathy Geiger I just re-read in my blog from October of last year:
    “…I also know that He does not give us more than we can bear at any one time because He does expect us to lean hard on Him and trust in His goodness and grace. He knows exactly what we are going through and is going through it with us every second of every day. He wants nothing but what is best for us and that best is Himself so He will use anything to draw us closer to Himself so that we get to trust Him more and lean on Him harder.”

    939. An old note from Nita:
    “…I read in the book on Margins – God says He is omnipotent. Either He is or He isn’t. God says that He is omniscient. Either He is or He isn’t. God is love. Either He is or He isn’t. There is no middle ground.”

    940. A reminder from Lillie’s reading that blessed me last year when I first read it and today when I read it again:

    “God loves to bless you. He has even declared that ‘blessings shall come upon you and overtake you.’ This means that you can’t run fast enough to escape them! When you turn one corner, there is a blessing waiting for you. When you turn another corner, you run smack into another blessing!

    941.
    “There are things known
    and there are things unknown
    and in between are the doors.”

    Jim Morrison

    942. Kelley’s kidney surgery went smoothly this week and she is recovering well. She’ll be home from the hospital soon thankfully.

    943. God’s tender care of Mom with her health issues and dear sisters in Arizona who are helping her in countless ways

    944. A vibrant double rainbow and my two delighted, budding photographers, Joy and Hannah, having a grand time taking pictures of it arching over the lake.

    945. Scooter’s soccer injuries being less serious than originally thought

  145. Paula says:

    934. We leave for our week’s all-expenses paid vacation on the beach in N.C. tomorrow http://www.littlepinkhousesofhope.org/ . It’s like a hug from God to our family! What a sweet blessing. I can’t wait!

    935. Nicholas and I had a delightful time together last week on a trip to Washington D.C which was my conservative -politics-loving son’s high school graduation gift. The Values Voters Summit and our adventures in DC were wonderful and memorable http://www.frcaction.org/get.cfm?i=PG12H02. We are thankful to Eric and Cheryl for their gracious hospitality and the Lord worked out everything for smooth transportation navigating the Metro, PTL.

    936. I read this this morning again :
    Deuteronomy 31:6
    King James Version (KJV)

    6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    Good News Translation (GNT)

    6 Be determined and confident. Do not be afraid of them. Your God, the Lord himself, will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    Amplified Bible (AMP)

    6 Be strong, courageous, and firm; fear not nor be in terror before them, for it is the Lord your God Who goes with you; He will not fail you or forsake you.

    Deuteronomy 31:6
    The Message (MSG)

    6 “Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.”

    937. “The primary goal in our life is to love the Lord with all of the mind, soul, and heart. Idolatry is when we love anything above God. Our problem is that we love other things more than we love God. All of our sin flows out of idolatry. Our idolatry leads to multiplied sin and misery.

    Do you believe that Jesus Christ is enough? What is it in your life that means more to you than God?

    Your idol is whatever you’re willing to sin to get. Your idol is whatever you’re willing to sin because you don’t have. That’s your functional God. If unbelief and idolatry are our primary problems, what is the solution? We as Christians have good news!

    We are justified! Justification can be defined in two basic ways: Just as if I’d never sinned, and just as if I’d always obeyed. Christ’s perfect record has been applied to my account. We are forgiven and righteous.

    So the primary question of the Christian is not, “What would Jesus do?” The primary question should be, “What did Jesus do?”

    People will never do enough to cause us to love them. Our ability to love others is rooted in Christ’s love. We don’t love others based on their performance. If we do, we will continue to struggle. Only Jesus can rescue us from idolatry. He came to save sinners. There is no room for self-help in loving others. Only God’s love is able to transform us.”

    Quote from: http://www.truewoman.com/?id=2242

    938. Quote from Kathy Geiger I just re-read in my blog from October of last year:
    “…I also know that He does not give us more than we can bear at any one time because He does expect us to lean hard on Him and trust in His goodness and grace. He knows exactly what we are going through and is going through it with us every second of every day. He wants nothing but what is best for us and that best is Himself so He will use anything to draw us closer to Himself so that we get to trust Him more and lean on Him harder.”

    939. An old note from Nita:
    “…I read in the book on Margins – God says He is omnipotent. Either He is or He isn’t. God says that He is omniscient. Either He is or He isn’t. God is love. Either He is or He isn’t. There is no middle ground.”

    940. A reminder from Lillie’s reading that blessed me last year when I first read it and today when I read it again:

    “God loves to bless you. He has even declared that ‘blessings shall come upon you and overtake you.’ This means that you can’t run fast enough to escape them! When you turn one corner, there is a blessing waiting for you. When you turn another corner, you run smack into another blessing!
    941.
    “There are things known
    and there are things unknown
    and in between are the doors.”

    Jim Morrison

    942. Kelley’s kidney surgery went smoothly this week and she is recovering well. She’ll be home from the hospital soon thankfully.

    943. God’s tender care of Mom with her health issues and dear sisters in Arizona who are helping her in countless ways

    944. A vibrant double rainbow and my two delighted, budding photographers, Joy and Hannah, having a grand time taking pictures of it arching over the lake.

    945. Scooter’s soccer injuries being less serious than originally thought

    950. God’s provision of a nice, used Honda Civic at a good price to replace a van that died

    951. God’s answered prayer of Dave getting to visit Lu at last. God’s timing is always on time.

    It sure has/is doing me a world of good to count some of my blessings with this 1000 gifts gratefulness list!

    Paula

    952. It is mind boggling to me that God arranged such a loving gift for us and that we were one of the 8 families selected for this all expenses paid retreat here on Oak Island, N.C. It’s a very beautiful place! The beach area reminds me very much of family vacations camping in Rhode Island as a kid. The Little Pink Houses of Hope organization also has other beach retreats for families and singles throughout the year in North and South Carolina and Delaware –amazing, amazing, AMAZING. There are all sorts of activites planned for any families wanting to do them–all totally optional–they said they want the vacation to be custom fit to whatever each family needs: for some it’ll be just to rest and relax on their own for those who want that, or lots of group fun for those like our family who are thrilled about all the options available and plan to join in lots of the planned activities.

    Last night there was a delicious catered meal with a fabulous chef cooking up our meals right in front of us. We each chose from a large selection of a pasta bar, along with salad, and cookies for dessert, My pasta was sauteed with red peppers, onions, mushrooms, broccoli, peas, and topped with marinara sauce. Nicholas and John enjoyed the chicken and shrimp in their pasta dishes, Hannah got her favorite: plain pasta with lots of olives and Joy really enjoyed her chicken pasta alfredo.

    This morning we have group games on the beach (egg tossing and shaving cream are mentioned–HA), lunch of pizza and salad at a volunteer’s house.The 4 BR/2 Ba beach house (which is a cheery sunshiny yellow with two big porches) that we are staying at this week is exremely comfortable and absolutely wonderful in every possible way . It is well stocked in snacks, treats, and breakfast items especially selected to match our preferences and outstanding LPHOH group lunches and dinners are all provided for. I have decided to officially be off my diet this week –guilt-free–and resume it Oct 1st ! My goal is to be back to my ideal goal weight range by the end of the year after packing on the pounds during cancer treatment. I still have a ways to go but I am thankful for the progress I am making losing weight and on my way to getting trim and fit with God’s help. This week I am taking a break: relaxing and enjoying everything, including the food.

    There is a date night at a nice restaurant on Wednesday for couples while the kids are involved in other fun activities at the Rec Center. Afternoons are free times for exploring, relaxing, whatever. I so love being at the ocean and hope to do lots of walking on the beach. Last night after the group get-together the girls and I had a rip roaring time laughing and playing table games while John watched a movie and Nicholas did one of his favorite things: catch up on politics on TV. Today there is a top Bravo chef cooking contest finanilist giving us a cooking lesson and then making us dinner at the Country Club, Another evening will be an aquarium visit with dinner right there with the fishes (we’ll take a ferry over and our group will be the only ones at the aquarium at that time). We have an opportunity to learn stand-up paddleboarding and surfing–can’t wait! This week is full of adventures! They also offer golfing, kayaking, and fishing on a boat which will all be a blast. I am loving every part of this week! There is a family session with a professional photographer and fitness classes I am planning on too which will help offset the splurges. Can you tell I’m REALLY excited about this week?! Yippeeeeeeee and hoooray for all the fun we are having!

    Anyway, “WOW God, I can hardly believe You, dear Lord, have blessed our family in this way is all I gotta say! I am so grateful to Him and all the folks with the Little Pink Houses of Hope organization. What giving, beautiful hearts all these folks have: the LPHOH founder and volunteers, all the home owners who have donated their lovely vacation homes for the week to us families, all the activities and food and gift bags, a beyond my hopes and dreams brand of good times! The verse I am thinking of is that God brings joy from mourning and exchanges beauty for ashes.The gift of this week surely is “good measure, pressed down, and overflowing” from God’s Hand..

    It has been such a challenging and difficult time battling breast cancer and yet He has blessed our socks off with His grace and help and mercy and love throughout every detail, including during the toughest of times and has even had unexpected gifts and surprises along the way like this week. I am feeling strong and fit and healthy now and am cancer-free as far as I know and so very grateful to be here with my dear husband, precious children, and some new friends, making incredible memories we will treasure the rest of our lives. Thank You, Father!

    Wow, are we ever having FUN!!!!!!!

  146. Paula says:

    953. “Choose joy, moment by moment, Paula…the kind that has nothing to do with circumstances and emotion and everything to do with God and His goodness. Because the joy of the Lord is my strength: I can choose joy like my weather, like my very own sky. Like my very own oxygen.” (adapted quote from aholyexperience.com)

  147. Paula says:

    954. Beth K sharing her beautiful treasures from the Lord with me. Here is one He gave her after a long study on the wisdom of God“:
    “ When there are things I do not know about my life’s situation, I must focus on the things that I DO know about my God. I need to glance at my problem and gaze at my Savior. I need to pay attention to God—NOT what I fear—for His love casts out my fear (1 John 4:18). He is my shield, my light, my salvation, my strength and song. He is for me! Whatever my problem is, for this very trial, I have Jesus! …What DO I know and what do I NOT know (about my situation), and am I content with what I DON’T know because of WHO I DO know and because of WHAT I know about Him?”

    955. The blessing of being able to volunteer to put out literature for the Women of Faith conference this weekend in exchange for two free tickets for Esther and I. We had a wonderful time together! A few snippets from the weekend that blessed me:

    -” Contentment is a state of being we can learn”.””Feelings often don’t make good leaders” (Marily Meberg)
    -”When I am critical of others, ask God, ‘Is that in me, Lord?’” (Patsy Clairmont)

    -Psalm: Chapter 16:11
    You direct me on the path that leads to a beautiful life.
    As I walk with You, the pleasures are never-ending,
    and I know true joy and contentment.

    -”She did what she could: 5 words of Jesus in Mark 14 that will change your life” (Elisa Morgan) …Remembering that before she did what she could by pouring out her lavish gift on Jesus, she sat at His feet.

    -I enjoyed Amy Grant’s concert at the conference
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOxebzBMAJs
    Amy Grant – Better than a Hallelujah

    ~Lyrics~

    God loves a lullaby
    In a mothers tears in the dead of night
    Better than a Hallelujah sometimes
    God loves a drunkards cry,
    The soldiers plea not to let him die
    Better than a Hallelujah sometimes

    We pour out our miseries
    God just hears a melody
    Beautiful the mess we are
    The honest cries of breaking hearts
    Are better than a Hallelujah

    The woman holding on for life,
    The dying man giving up the fight
    Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes
    The tears of shame for what’s been done,
    The silence when the words won’t come
    Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes

    We pour out our miseries
    God just hears a melody
    Beautiful the mess we are
    The honest cries of breaking hearts
    Are better than a Hallelujah

    Better than a church bell ringing,
    Better than a choir singing out
    (singing out)

    We pour out our miseries
    God just hears a melody
    Beautiful the mess we are
    The honest cries of breaking hearts
    Are better than a Hallelujah

    We pour out our miseries
    God just hears a melody
    Beautiful the mess we are
    The honest cries of breaking hearts
    Are better than a Hallelujah

    (better than a Hallelujah sometimes)
    better than a Hallelujah
    (better than a Hallelujah sometimes)

    Mandesa sang this song at the conference :

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emgv-VRtMEU

    Another I like: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4AAALBo2DKs

    956. Soaking up fresh air and sunshine and time in the Word and prayer and remembering old times with my Gerson Gal Buddy while relaxing on flannel sheets under a tree at Langford Park

    957. Sage advice from my old friend Nina, mama to 12 kids in her FB status:

    “True rest – NO MORE WORRYING! There are 3 elements of FAITH that must be realized for it to be FAITH. 1) BELIEVE that God can do anything and can answer any problem. 2) DESIRE Him to handle the problem His way. 3) This is the one we don’t do when we worry… ACT right now AS IF God IS at work taking care of the problem, because HE IS. Our part is to be fully involved in our place of responsibility, have no anxiety, trust Him with NO thought of working it out yourself and simply FOCUS on God alone, with gratefulness and love. Apply this to what you worry about… and REST in HIS amazing provision for you.”

  148. Paula says:

    958.
    Going to the Party
    By Randy Alcorn

    “Imagine someone takes you to a party. You see a few friends there, enjoy a couple of good conversations, a little laughter, and some decent appetizers. The party’s all right, but you keep hoping it will get better. Give it another hour, and maybe it will. Suddenly, your friend says, “I need to take you home.”
    Now?

    You’re disappointed–nobody wants to leave a party early–but you leave, and your friend drops you off at your house. As you approach the door, you’re feeling all alone and sorry for yourself. As you open the door and reach for the light switch, you sense someone’s there. Your heart”s in your throat. You flip on the light.

    “Surprise!” Your house is full of smiling people, familiar faces.

    It’s a party–for you. You smell your favorites–barbecued ribs and pecan pie right out of the oven. The tables are full. It’s a feast. You recognize the guests, people you haven’t seen for a long time. Then, one by one, the people you most enjoyed at the other party show up at your house, grinning. This turns out to be the real party. You realize that if you’d stayed longer at the other party, as you’d wanted, you wouldn’t be at the real party–you’d be away from it.

    Christians faced with terminal illness or imminent death often feel they’re leaving the party before it’s over. They have to go home early. They’re disappointed, thinking of all they’ll miss when they leave. But the truth is, the real party is underway at home–precisely where they’re going. They’re not the ones missing the party, those of us left behind are.”

    959. Joy and I took turns reading aloud last evening on a bench by the lake. The wind made it delightfully cool jacket weather and we saw the beautiful colorful changes of a brilliant sky as the sun went down–a lovely gift of a Mother/Daughter Time.

    960. Joy sharing this lovely song with me (Come to Jesus): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_4g8_e16dc

    961.

    “Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”
    962.

    Logan is a 13 year-old boy who lives on a ranch in a very small town in Nebraska. His family listens to Christian Radio station 89.3FM KSBJ which broadcasts from Houston, TX. He called the radio station distraught because he had to take down a calf . This is the recording of that 2 minute call: a precious conversation I felt privileged to listen in on and I hope you guys will too.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY

  149. Paula says:

    963.

    “What you think you can’t handle — might actually be God handing you a gift.”

    “…Giving thanks isn’t a pollyanna game — but a powerhouse game-changer….”

    “…And a gravelly voice speaks of cancer and a grave and a child whose name she wears around her neck, and we finger that name together and fiercely believe in a Father who knows and holds and cups like relief, like a lung, when we can’t breathe.”

    “And I think of everything I have chaffed against and railed about and howled to the heavens and who am I to know what is best or not — but when you bow and surrender to the sovereignty of God then you are in the posture to receive all as a gift.”

    Direct quotes above copied and pasted from: http://www.aholyexperience.com/2012/11/the-holiday-that-could-become-all-of-our-days-change-our-lives/ This book referred to in the link , “One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to live Life Fully” was what spurred me on to keep a Gratefulness List of some of God’s treasures for me has been such a rich blessing.

    964. Come to Jesus
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_4g8_e16dc

    965.Vibrant red male cardinal swooping out of the entryway as we went in to meet someone who might soon become a new neighbor

    966. Fun weekend campout at Rock Springs with Joy and Hannah and many friends.

    967. Fresh starts and new beginnings after mess-ups

    968. The joy of meeting Princess, a fellow Her 2 Positive warrior, at Casting For Recovery last year and her recent Homegoing to Heaven. No more suffering or pain or tears or cancer for her.

    969.
    “I will not die an unlived life.
    I will not live in fear
    of falling or catching fire.
    I choose to inhabit my days,
    to allow my living to open me,
    to make me less afraid,
    more accessible,
    to loosen my heart
    until it becomes a wing,
    a torch, a promise.
    I choose to risk my significance,
    to live so that which came to me as seed
    goes to the next as blossom,
    and that which came to me as blossom,
    goes on as fruit.”
    ~ Markova
    ———————-
    970.

    “…But it occurred to me that when it comes to prayer, I have a couple of issues that cloud my vision:

    ■I don’t really believe God will answer.
    ■When God does answer my prayers positively, I let fear keep me from rejoicing.
    Do you ever see that same pattern in your prayer life? You pray, because you know you should, but never in your life do you really expect God to answer. That God would answer you seems almost too good to be true. You believe in your head that God hears you, but your heart refuses to make the leap of faith, lest you find yourself crushed with disappointment.

    And when God does shock you by giving you what you think you don’t deserve, you’re afraid to believe it. You’re sure there’s a joke somewhere, or that someone’s going to pull the rug from under you. So you hang on to doubt instead. You let fear paralyze you into inaction. You refuse to rejoice, lest someone find out that you’ve been given more than you deserve, that you’ve been dealt a good hand.

    But what if you really did believe that God wants to answer your prayers? What if you really did believe that God will give you more than you deserve? What if you allowed joy to get a hold of your heart as you learned to live by faith that God is all He says He is . . . and more?

    The irony is that He’s already given us more than we will ever deserve through His Son Jesus Christ. He’s already dealt us the best hand through Salvation. Perhaps today you simply need a reminder of His goodness. Perhaps today you simply need to keep on praying. The answer you’re waiting for may just be on the way. ”

    –Direct quote from http://www.truewoman.com/?id=2256

    971. The complex cyst that was on my left ovary for years seems now gone for good (without surgery–hooray!) and although my endometrial lining is thicker than it should be, probably due to the hormone blocker, the recent biopsy was benign. The Tamoxafen that I am on to help prevent a reoccurence of breast cancer can CAUSE uterine cancer ! and I am asking God to protect my uterus along with the rest of me. Thank You, Lord for a good report! I’d sure love to keep all my remaining innards and parts intact if possible.

    972. My dear mother-in-law recovering well from her third right hip replacement surgery and a special time with her yesterday at the Rehab facility

    973. The yummy fragrance of fresh pumpkin seeds roasting in the oven last night and the aroma of turkey in the oven today (even though I am a part vegan/part vegetarian and won’t have any, it does smell homey and good)

    974.

    Nuggets remembered and gleaned and my heart convicted and challenged as I start to re-read “Created to be his Helpmeet” by Debi Pearl (quotes below are hers):

    “Most people have practiced hitting the notes of bitterness, sourness, hurt feelings, and frustration so long that their soul finds the discordant notes easily, almost without thought. But you don’t have to keep on practicing discord: you can practice joy and thanksgiving just as easily, and certainly with more pleasure. Every day, every right response makes the fingers of your sould find the notes of joy and thanksgiving easier and easier.”

    “I want you to know something wonderful about Jesus. With Him, it doesn’t matter where you have been or who you have been with, (or all the mess ups you’ve made–my add on) because His love and forgiveness can reach down and make you whole. He is willing to love you and make you His bride, just as you are. And He asks you to be a bride to your husband, just as he is.”

    975. Wonderful, Merciful Savior http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&v=9zH-jyiLOR4&NR=1
    Joy figured out how to play it by ear on the piano: hers is my favorite rendition

    976. Lovely time to chat and pray with Sonia on the phone

    977. Quote by Lynn Eib in “He cares” NLT New Testament re: 1 John 4:18 “Perfect love casts out all fear”:

    “Fear is a funny thing. Not “ha-ha” funny but pecular funny. You need a certain amount of it in order to live safely; but if you have too much of it, it paralyzes you from really living. The late psychiatrist M. Scott Peck had some great thoughts on the subject. He said, ‘The absence of fear is not courage: the absence of fear is some kind of brain damage. Courage is the capacity to go on in spite of the fear, or in spite of the pain.’
    ‘So how do we do that? Tell ourselves we’re really not afraid? Pretend that we have no fear? No, the apostle John…shows us a much better way. He writes that when we truly experience the love of God, His perfect love gets rid of all the fear. If you believe with your mind and your heart that God truly loves you, you will not fear today or tomorrow because everything that touches you first will be sifted through His loving Hands. “We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in His love” (1 John 4:16).
    ‘Is your back up against the wall? GOD loves you. Are you sick and tired of being sick and tired? God LOVES you. Are your days numbered? God loves YOU. Trust in that love.”
    ————

    978. I am thankful that God is teaching and training the fingers of my soul to learn to find new, sweet notes of joy and thanksgiving that have nothing to do with circumstance and emotion–that He has put a new song in my heart!

    979. Breast cancer is rough stuff. It is sneaky and it doesn’t fight fair. Even after treatment it can seem to linger in the shadows waiting for a reappearance, causing fear and uncertainty. Sometimes I have felt like the cancer is like an elusive ”fertile cobra” loose in my house that I’ve been trying to cut up, poison, zap, infuse with Herceptin, and deprive of hormones. I’m not sure if it’s gone for good or just wounded for a time, coiled up, hiding from the doctors and I awhile, waiting to slither out with a bunch of genetically mutated babies someday, and ready to strike again. How I’d like to permanently evict the unwelcome intruder from this house of mine! Fear of the uncertain unknown can also poison one’s mind and be a joy robber. God has much, much better for me than that.

    We all have different ways of coping with difficulties. The Bible has been like a Love Letter from God to me and has been such a source of encouragement, hope, guidance, and comfort in my journeys through the ups and downs of life. This isn’t about “religion” for me, it’s about a relationship with God through the hardest time in my life which the last almost two years has been for me. I had my shockaroo mammogram December 30th, 2010.

    The Bible is loaded with scriptures that are uplifting through the storms and sunshine of the Her 2 Positive breast cancer fight. Sometimes I like to look up verses in different translations and versions (www.BibleGateway.com) to wrap my mind around them better which is what I did with Isaiah 41:10:

    Isaiah 41:10
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
    Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
    I will strengthen you and help you.
    I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

    Isaiah 41:10
    New International Version (NIV)

    10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
    I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

    Isaiah 41:10
    (The Message)
    Don’t panic. I’m with you.
    There’s no need to fear for I’m your God.
    I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you.
    I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.

    My take-away application a la Paula:

    My soul can be at complete rest. I don’t have to be scared, worried, or discouraged about all this cancer mess because my God is in control and He is with me. Because of this reality, I do not need to fear because He’s my God and He’s got my back (along with every other single angle of my entire being). Right now as well as through every future step in this journey through Cancer Land He is going to give me ALL the strength and help I need. He is cradling me in the Palm of His Hand, holding me close, snuggling me in His sweet love that never fails, lifting me up in His victory. Yes, I can rest in Him.

  150. Paula says:

    980. “When I was in the hospital after my cancer surgery, a friend came into my room and told me God was going to teach me great things through this trial. I wanted to take the IV out of my arm, stab it in hers, and tell her, ‘You get in the bed and learn great things from God, because I don’t want to learn this way’.

    If you or someone you love has been diagnosed with cancer, I doubt you’re rejoicing over the possibilities of what you can learn from suffering. But I hope you are praying and believing that God can touch you. Wherever you are. Right where you are:
    *Newly diagnosed and in shock, praying there’s been some mistake.
    *Facing surgery, praying the doctor can get it all.
    *Undergoing tests, praying for some good news finally.
    *Dealing with a recurrence, praying it’s been found soon enough.
    *At the end of medical hope, praying for a little more time.
    *Holding the hand of a loved one, praying to be strong for them.”
    –Lynn Eib in “When God and Cancer Meet” http://www.allbookstores.com/search?…o.x=10&Go.y=12

    981. Romans 8:26-28

    New Living Translation (NLT)

    26 And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. 27 And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. 28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

    Romans 8:28

    The Message (MSG)

    26-28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

    982. “My Last Days”: These poignant stories caused me to take pause and think through my bucket list and changes I want to make in my life. As far as I know I’m doing terrific. Cancer has a way of reminding me of the brevity and fragility of life.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSBiJQEGEgQ

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEJx6nbDyhA&list=PLzvRx_johoA8ITQgxBpeJTaDUhhIB7bfX&index=2&feature=plpp_video

    983. “I have lived, laughed, loved and lost.
    I have cried, mourned and grieved,
    hoped, prayed, and healed.
    I have found strength and true beauty.
    I am a survivor.” (Unknown)

    984.

    “Today we fight. Tomorrow we fight. The day after, we fight. And if this disease plans on whipping us, it better bring a lunch, ’cause it’s gonna have a long day doing it.”
    – Jim Beaver, Life’s That Way: A Memoir

    985.
    Christmas songs by Iband
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3v1soISe2ew
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-g-y…eature=related

  151. Paula says:

    986. “Nothing you could ever experience, no matter how terrible or frightening, could ever separate you from the love of God. No tribulation and distress you might ever suffer could be so intense that God’s love for you is not even more fervent. No persecution could be so painful that God’s love cannot bring comfort. Famine might starve you of food, but you will never hunger for the Father’s love. Poverty cannot strip you of God’s compassion, just as even death itself is incapable of robbing you of your heavenly Father’s infinite love.If you base your view of God’s love on your circumstances, you will become confused. There may be times when you will ask, “How could a loving God allow this to happen to me?” You may begin to question what you find clearly stated in the Word of God. God promised that you would never be separated from His love; He did not say that you would never face hardship, persecution, poverty, or danger. If you doubt that God could love you and still allow you to experience difficult experiences, consider the life of Jesus.

    If you allow the death of Jesus on the cross to forever settle any questions you might have about God’s love, you will approach difficult circumstances with confidence. Knowing that there will never be anything that could separate you from God’s perfect love, you will watch to see how God expresses His love in each circumstance. Don’t ever judge God’s love based on your circumstances. Instead, evaluate your circumstances from the perspective of God’s love.”

    —Unknown Author

    Romans 8:35-39
    New Living Translation (NLT)

    35 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36 (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”[a]) 37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

    38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

  152. Paula says:

    987. Mother’s Day 2013: what a blessing to be alive and well and enjoying my husband and kiddos!
    “A Mother’s Prayer” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hoy74orJu10

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