Never A Bad Hair Day Part Two

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This is what my tub has looked like after my showers these past few days and I’m shedding hair all over the place it seems.  I’m sorry if these photos are too gross/TMI–somehow it helps to share my journey.  I may ask my family to help me with a buzz cut soon like we did last time because it is less distressing and more empowering (and less of a mess!) to take charge of the inevitable sometimes.  I’m still waiting a bit to see if I’m going to get to keep any significant amount of hair before a drastic buzz cut since my oncologist told me that weekly Taxol might possibly just “thin my hair out” rather than render me completely bald. My pillowcase is loaded with hair and I have some see-through spots to a shiny scalp this morning.

 

Today I got to thinking about a funny anecdote someone else came up with that I love and shared in my blog back in 2011 http://jpoliver.com/wordpress/archives/425 I just pulled up the link to my 9/23/2011 post and am copying and pasting my thoughts from back then below to share with you guys and for me to ponder and chew on again.

 I continue to be a “Work in Progress” through all this cancer stuff and the twists, turns, and bumps of life.  The process of surrendering and releasing all sorts of details to God besides my hair these days continues. The Lord is not finished with me or any of us yet!   May we be like soft, supple clay in our loving Potter’s Hands, yielded and still as He molds and shapes us and conforms us to the image of His Son through the tools of His choosing.  He is the One Who can bring beauty from ash heaps and joy after mourning (Isiah 61:3).

 

 

Never a Bad Hair Day 🙂

“A woman with breast cancer, going through the rigors of chemo,  woke up one morning,
looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs left on her head.
‘Well,’ she said, ‘I think I’ll braid my hair today.’
So she did and she had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror
and saw that she had only two hairs remaining on her head.
‘H-M-M,’ she said, ‘I think I’ll part my hair down the middle today.’
So she did and she had a grand day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed
that she had only one lonely hair on her head, hanging on for dear life.
‘Well,’ she said, ‘Today I’m going to wear my hair in a pony tail.’
So she did, and she had a fun, fun day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and
noticed that there wasn’t a single hair on her head.
‘YAY!’ she exclaimed. ‘I don’t have to fix my hair today!’”

I got a good chuckle out of this funny, wise little story. 🙂

 My “take-away” and challenge to myself is to reflect on what attitude I am going to choose along this path God has me on. Here’s some I can think of for starters right now:

 

 I choose to have a grateful, happy heart that is based on the Word of God, not my circumstances.

 

I choose to enjoy every single day God has left for me on this earth, thanking Him for the lovely gifts He has for me along the way .

 

I choose to recognize those gifts, particularly those wrapped in packaging that make them not seem like good gifts but they really are.
 
I choose to remember that this earth is not my real Home, just a temporary one: Heaven is and it’s right around the corner even if I live to 100.

 

I choose to be soft and tender in God’s Hands: allowing Him to teach me all the beautiful lessons He has for me along the way .

 

I choose to be a blessing and to reach out to others.

 

I choose not to give in to self pity and a self centered life.

 

I choose not to be a miserable person, especially when I am feeling miserable.

 

I choose to deal with sin and mistakes in my life God’s way.

 

I choose to forgive others and myself.  Everybody messes up sometimes, just like me.

 

I choose to be a peace maker.

 

I choose to tell people how great and wonderful God always is no matter what.

 

I choose to cultivate laughter and humor.

 

I choose God above everything else.

 

 Father, please help me to make good choices.  I know I can only do this in Your strength.  I know how prone I am to wander and to grab stuff in my life back and even though it’s foolish and dumb to do that,  I still do it.  Please take over completely.  Please be in total charge of everything having to do with me and my life–I’m 100% Yours.

 

 Lord, every single good gift comes from You…
(From James 1:7) My ongoing  One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/ Gratefulness List:
 
277. The relief of again giving full control of my life over to God.  Help me to keep giving myself back to You, moment by moment, Lord!
278.  The funny, wise story of the lady with 3 hairs left and my take-away on the choices I desire to make and will make, in His strength, with Him in charge
279. Mom, Bets, and Heidi coming to visit next week!  Hooray!
280. He’s given me His peace.  My heart never needs to be troubled or afraid (John 14:27)
 
God’s beloved bald-headed Paula
 
“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. 
Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27
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10 Responses to Never A Bad Hair Day Part Two

  1. Denise Makielski says:

    This is so good! You are an Amazing woman of Christ!
    I’m so sorry you have to go through this .
    Continued love & prayers sweet sister in Christ!

  2. Judy Howe Edmond says:

    What a great “Three-Hairs” story. Praise God for all that He is teaching you through this trial. May we all see it as you are seeing it with God as the Author of our faith. Praying for you.

  3. Joy says:

    I enjoy reading the 3 hairs story every time! Big hugs Mom! Hang in there! God has got this! Keep on pressing forward, you are doing great! XXOO

  4. Nancy says:

    I love all your ‘i chose’ statements. I’m having to make choices for joy and against self pity today. Thank you Paula.

  5. Lissa TESSIN says:

    You are such a testimony, Paula.

  6. Ruth Bechtel says:

    Thanks, Paula—love the story of the three hairs! You continue to be a blessing even in the midst of your trials. I continue to ask God to wrap His arms of love and compassion around you and the family during these challenging days. Love you!

  7. April says:

    Hi Paula – it was so good to sit with you at church today, singing of God’s faithfulness. Praying you will continue to experience that with each new morning. So glad He journeys with us every step!

  8. Carol Pierce says:

    Paula, you always encourage me with you wonderful blog! I’m sure God is using you to encourage so many people on this journey. May God continue to use you and bless you for HIS GLORY!
    Praying for you daily,
    Carol

  9. Nita Zelenak says:

    At a girl for focusing in the right direction. Praying for God’s strength to help you keep making good choices.

  10. Tess says:

    Paula–your light is shining brightly, my friend!!! This optimism and faith of yours are nothing short of inspirational…

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