Finishing Treatment Soon: Wahoo!

My VERY happy news is that I get the last dose of my every-3-weeks-for-a year-cancer drug Herceptin on Monday 11/20 and the surgically implanted chest port comes out in December. I thank God for helping me every single step of the way through my journeys through Cancer Land. This was Round Two for me in my battle. I sure am hoping for the best possible results and that it’s gone for good this time. The reality is that cancer is sneaky and does not fight fair. I’m plum out of breasts and it’s nature is aggressive and prone to wander and multiply in life devastating places.

I’d appreciate prayer as I make changes and find my way back to healthy, trim, and fit again. Both times I was diagnosed I was slender, in peak physically-fit condition, and thought I was healthy as a horse but obviously wasn’t. Now I am over weight, the toxic drugs have taken a toll on my whole body, my left knee is injured which makes exercise much more challenging, and some bad food habits and excuses have crept back in which all need to bite the dust pronto. How I need the Lord! Good thing He has fresh starts and His help available 24/7/365. I’m a work in progress as we all are and very much appreciate prayer when you think of me. Thanks from the bottom of my heart, friends. 

Friendly Obstacles

by Unknown Author

For every hill I’ve tried to climb,
For every stone that bruised my feet,
For all the blood and sweat and grime,
For blinding storms and burning heat,
My heart sings but a grateful song
These are the things that made me strong!

For all the heartache and the tears,
For all the anguish and the pain,
For gloomy days and fruitless years,
And for the hopes that lived in vain,
I do give thanks, for now I know
These were the things that helped me grow!

‘Tis not the softer things in life
Which stimulate man’s will to strive;
But bleak adversity and strife
Do most to keep man’s will alive.
O’er rose-strewn paths the weaklings creep,
But brave hearts dare to climb the steep

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“A pearl is a healed wound.  An oyster protects itself from irritation and suffering and the result is a priceless pearl.”–Kristen Welch

 

Father, please take the challenging stuff that finds it’s way into the oyster shell of my life and make something beautiful for You out of it all, a lovely pearl.    Carve me into a trophy of Your Grace, Lord.  Mold and fashion me into a vessel that pours out Your love to others.

 

 

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Why God (Sometimes) Doesn’t Heal People We Love

I’m at the emergency room. Today was not a good day. I decided to go horseback riding, something I haven’t done in a few years. It turned out to be a big mistake! I got on the horse and started out slow, but then we went a little faster before I knew it, we were going as fast as the horse could go. I couldn’t take the pace and fell off, but caught my foot in the stirrup with the horse dragging me. It wouldn’t stop. Thank goodness the manager at Toys-R-Us came out and unplugged the machine. But He had the nerve to take the rest of my quarters so I wouldn’t attempt to ride the Elephant. 😉
Why God  (sometimes) doesn’t heal people we love:
http://annvoskamp.com/2017/10/why-god-doesnt-heal-people-we-love-brutally-honest-psalms-3/
Life oftentimes confronts us with unexpected circumstances, which leave us in a state of despondency, fear and anxiety. We begin to question God’s love for us. We wonder if we can really trust Him. At such times, there are three absolute truths about God that we must believe if we are to trust Him. We live under the three-fold umbrella of: 1. God’s perfect love, 2. His infinite wisdom and 3. His absolute control.”
—-Charles Stanley
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A New Friend Shared a Quote This Morning That I Like

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OOOOOPS on the Hair Coloring Experience!

I had an OOOOOPS experience with hair coloring yesterday and silly me did not associate “auborn brown” with pinkish/orangish/red hair!  Oh my!  We got a good belly laugh out of it all even if I did feel like crying from the shock of seeing myself in the mirror at first.  
 Joy does a beautiful job dying my hair periodically and it was totally my goof in my hair color  selection of auburn and perhaps also the chemicals in my hair from chemo didn’t mix well with the dye.  I’ve seen people with this color hair but honestly don’t care for it and initially felt like putting a brown paper bag over my head with peep holes for my eyes and mouth for my dental visit which unfortunately was scheduled immediately after dye job #1 of 2 yesterday.   We quickly rushed out for another box (hoping all the while I wouldn’t bump into anybody at Walmart that i know) and re-did with plain ole’ medium brown which was what I was aiming for initially  which helped tone it down “some” but I imagine it’s going to take a long, long time to get all  the red pigment out even though it’s the semi permanent kind.  I then got a hair cut and the hair dresser said she LOVED the color, that many clients aim for that shade that I achieved with my back to back home coloring dye jobs, and how popular red hair is right now!   After chemo this time my hair came back curly and  very dark in the back and white and gray in the front—too old lady a la skunk-ish for me.  Ah well!  I am so thankful to have hair again and consider all hair on my head a blessing and a gift. I much prefer any color to shiny-scalp-chemo- bald!
—Paula

Sit still, my daughter.

 

This is from a little book called When Days Seem Dark:

“…There are times when we…do not know which way to turn. It may be just then that we shall learn for the first time how to stand still in perfect peace and quietness of soul, not idling away our time, not hopelessly limp and heedless of the outcome, but working on in such ways as may be given to us, observing with eager joy the way in which God will work it all out to a perfectly glorious ending.”

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A Fierce Hearted Woman

“A fiercehearted woman . . .

looks life in the face and says, “You can’t beat me.”

Knows love is risk but reaches out anyway.

Understands kindness takes real courage.

Believes the impossible.

Fights like she’s unstoppable.

Dares to find beauty in a ragged soul.

Scandalously picks warm over cool.

Tastes life as a brief, salty-sweet miracle.

Skins her knees, has scars that bear witness.

Defends like a warrior and weeps like a girl.

Makes gentle the new strong, small the new big,

ordinary the new extraordinary.

Sees wrinkles on a face as lines in a victory story.

Never gives in, never gives up, never lets go.

Chases Jesus with a tender, world-changing wildness.

Lives in your neighborhood or not even on your continent.

Looked back at you from the mirror this morning . . .

and has yet to fully see the force her star-scattering,

mountain-moving, water-walking God created her to be.”

—–By Holley Gerth

 

 

 

 

1
Before the throne of God above
I have a strong, a perfect plea;
A great High Priest, whose Name is Love,
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
2
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart;
I know that while with God He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart.
3
When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look, and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin.
4
Because the sinless Savior died,
My sinful soul is counted free;
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me.
5
Behold Him there, the risen Lamb!
My perfect, spotless Righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace.
6
One with Himself, I cannot die;
My soul is purchased by His blood;
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ, my Savior and my God.
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“Girl, Whose Your Daddy?”

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Jokes about German sausage are the wurst. 😉

 

“Girl, whose your Daddy?”  A good reminder of truth to think about!

 

“He is the First and the Last

The Beginning and the End

He’s the Keeper of creation

And the Creator of all

He’s the Architect of the universe

and the Manager of all time

He always was,

always is

always will be

Unmoved,

unchanged,

undefeated

and never undone

He was bruised, but brought healing

He was pierced, but eased pain

He was persecuted, but brought freedom

He was dead and brings life

He has risen to bring power

and He reigns to bring peace

The world can’t understand Him

Armies can’t defeat Him

Schools can’t explain Him

and leaders they can’t ignore Him

Herod couldn’t kill Him

Nero couldn’t crush Him

The new age cannot replace Him

and Oprah cannot explain Him away

He is Light,

He is Love,

He is Longevity

and He is the Lord

He is goodness

and kindness

and faithfulness

and He is God

He is holy

and righteous

and powerful

and pure

His ways are right

His word eternal

His will unchanging

and His mind is on us

He’s our Savior

Our Guide,

Our Peace,

Our Joy,

Our Comfort

Our Lord

and He rules our lives

I serve Him because

His bond is love

His yoke is easy

His burden is light

and His goal for us is abundant life

I follow Him because

He’s the Wisdom of the wise

The Power of the powerful

The Ancient of days

The Ruler of rulers

The Leader of all leaders

His goal is a relationship with me

He’ll never leave you

Never forsake you

Never mislead you

Never forget you

Never overlook you

and never cancel your appointment in His appointment book, never!

When you fall He’ll lift you up

When you fail He’ll forgive you

When you are weak He’s strong

When you are lost He’s your Way

When you are afraid He’s your Courage

When you stumble He will steady you

When you are hurt He is going to heal you

When you are broken He will mend you

When you are blind He will lead you

When you are hungry He will feed you

When you face trials He is with you

When I face persecution He shields me

When I face problems He will comfort me

When I face loss He will provide for me

and when we face death

He will carry us all home to meet Him

He is everything

For everybody

Everywhere

Every time

and in every way

He is your God

And that sisters (and brothers) is Who you belong to.”

–Priscilla Shirer

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Joni and Leah the Overcomers

An old snake went to see his Doctor. “Doc, I need something for my eyes…I can’t see well these days”. The Dr  fixed him up with a pair of glasses and told  him to return in 2 weeks. The snake came back in 2 weeks later and told the doctor how depressed he was. The Dr said,“What’s the problem…didn’t the glasses help you?” “The glasses are fine doc, but I just discovered I’ve been living with a garden hose the past 2 years!”

Wisdom from Joni Eareckson Tada:

“There isn’t a pain you endure or a disappointment that you face that God has not already overcome. He fully and completely understands your fears and frustrations, your hurt and weaknesses, and even your anger. So today, join me today in thanking and praising God for loving the world so much that He would give His one and only Son. That’s enough to calm all of our hurts!”

“God only gives me grace for today; He expects me to live this day, right now, in His strength, leaning on His wisdom and drawing on His power.”

 

 

 

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“These Walls”

 

 

Psalm 40:1-3a

I waited patiently for the Lord;
    he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
    out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
    and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
    a hymn of praise to our God.

 

 

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Grace to That

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“…Grace to that. Can you say that to yourself? Step back and take a good look at yourself in the mirror, ignoring the pimples or wrinkles or hair that won’t behave and say grace to that. Ignore the job you hate, the relationship status that’s lacking, and say grace to that. The sin that has you reeling? Grace to that. The habits that stick, the ones that both show on your exterior or quietly lurk in your conscience? Grace to that. The unmet hopes and desires that drive you to despondency, anger, to distrust God. Grace to that. You know what needs grace, even right now.

 

 
Grace is what God is good at. The Message tell us from Ephesians; “Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus.” All the time in the world. There’s oceans of grace to be had, and its got our names on it.

 

 
Regardless of our vanity or self-deprecation, our lack of grace with others or even our hobo-blow in the middle of conversation, we need that grace. Sometimes we listen to the myriad of voices that get piped at high volume into our hearts and minds that say “there’s no hope for you. You’re not worth much. You’re a lost cause. You’ve made a mess of things. You have nothing to offer. You’ll never be enough,” among other soul-crushing garbage. And, just like love covers a multitude of sins, love made us alive with Christ, and love is the greatest, love says “grace to that.” Grace to that.

 

 
Say it with me. Grace to that.”

 

–Kate Merrick

 

Today, as “stuff and such” comes up, let’s  remember that freeing truth that is ours because of Him, so that we can say,”Grace to that”.

 

Ephesians 2:7 (AMP)

[and He did this] so that in the ages to come He might [clearly] show the immeasurable and unsurpassed riches of His grace in [His] kindness toward us in Christ Jesus [by providing for our redemption].

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Article: “What Your Friends With Cancer Want You to Know”

 

 

 

“I Shall Not Want” -Audrey Assad

From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God From the need to be understood
From the need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God

And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

 

From the fear of serving others
From the fear of death or trial
From the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God

 

 

And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

 

No, I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want

 

When I taste Your goodness I shall not want


 

What your friends with cancer want you to know (but are afraid to say)

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